jessbcuzz
05-02-2008, 02:09 AM
Being that I was adopted early in my life, I often wonder how much different would my life be? Sometimes I wonder if I would be a crossdresser if I would not have been adopted. I was 6 months old at the time, and I know nothing of what caused my biological mother to give me up. I tend to believe that it must have been something so bad, that she gave up my sister and me. Where my sister is, I have no clue because Ohio had closed adoptions back then (the 70's). On that note, I often wonder if one of the underlying factors of being a crossdress is not ever having, what's the right term.... bonding, with my biological mother. When being dressed en fem, does it fill that void?
I have nothing against my adoptive parents, but I wonder if being adopted has any role in why I dress. I love my two non biological sisters to death, but they always got special treatment. I wonder if seeing and dealing with that somehow helped shape me into the crossdresser that I am.
I had been caught a few times dressed while growing up. My adoptive mother was a baton instructor, and I was always in awe at how beautiful the girls were in their baton uniforms. My mother had all kinds of uniforms around, and I finally became brave one day to sneak on into my bedroom. I think I was in 5th or 6th grade at the time. Anyhow, I had never felt anything some comfortable in my life up to that time. It felt like it was the missing piece of a jigsaw puzzle. From there on, I would eventually go a little bit further when I dared to do something new. My sister was a cheerleader, and I longed for the chance to put that on, even if it were just for a few seconds. I can even recall using my mothers makeup one night when i was going to be alone for quite a few hours. The few times I was caught, I always ended up with a talk from my dad. It was always the same speech on how it's not right for boys to wear women's clothing, blah, blah, blah. I think it was the third time when he finally asked it I wanted to be a girl. To this day, I wonder what would have happened if I said yes!
They say that life is full of choices, however some, like being adopted, there is not choice. It is choices that others have made that affects the child being adopted. If I hadn't been adopted, would I have been more interested in working on cars and such instead of doing girly things that I do now. Trust me, I'd rather be in the kitchen fixing dinner than changing the oil in my car. Maybe being a crossdresser was written in the stars for my life. If I hadn't been adopted, I wonder would I do it full time and even live my life that way?
With all being said and done, is there any other crossdressers that have been adopted? If so, do you think being adopted has somehow played a role in being a CD?
I have nothing against my adoptive parents, but I wonder if being adopted has any role in why I dress. I love my two non biological sisters to death, but they always got special treatment. I wonder if seeing and dealing with that somehow helped shape me into the crossdresser that I am.
I had been caught a few times dressed while growing up. My adoptive mother was a baton instructor, and I was always in awe at how beautiful the girls were in their baton uniforms. My mother had all kinds of uniforms around, and I finally became brave one day to sneak on into my bedroom. I think I was in 5th or 6th grade at the time. Anyhow, I had never felt anything some comfortable in my life up to that time. It felt like it was the missing piece of a jigsaw puzzle. From there on, I would eventually go a little bit further when I dared to do something new. My sister was a cheerleader, and I longed for the chance to put that on, even if it were just for a few seconds. I can even recall using my mothers makeup one night when i was going to be alone for quite a few hours. The few times I was caught, I always ended up with a talk from my dad. It was always the same speech on how it's not right for boys to wear women's clothing, blah, blah, blah. I think it was the third time when he finally asked it I wanted to be a girl. To this day, I wonder what would have happened if I said yes!
They say that life is full of choices, however some, like being adopted, there is not choice. It is choices that others have made that affects the child being adopted. If I hadn't been adopted, would I have been more interested in working on cars and such instead of doing girly things that I do now. Trust me, I'd rather be in the kitchen fixing dinner than changing the oil in my car. Maybe being a crossdresser was written in the stars for my life. If I hadn't been adopted, I wonder would I do it full time and even live my life that way?
With all being said and done, is there any other crossdressers that have been adopted? If so, do you think being adopted has somehow played a role in being a CD?