Patrice
05-14-2008, 11:44 AM
When I first began fully embracing my desires to dress and incorporating elements of the feminine into my daily attire, I never dreamed how freeing it would be. I had worries and concerns of course, Im near paranoid at times and an incredible cynic, but as people keep failing to react negatively I keep raising the bar.
Moving from Sports Bras to 'real' bras, longer and more feminine earrings, more jewelry (necklace (matches the earrings)), the occasional clear lip-gloss etc. I believe Id even be not-ashamed or embarassed to wear long skirts to work if the dress-code didnt prohibit it (I find them very comfy).
The only inner reluctance Ive found involves my nails. Ive been wearing nail polish daily for months now. I began with clears and gradually moved down to the bolder, darker side of the spectrum. People usually fall into 3 categories I find: 1 - Oblivious (How long have you been doing that), 2 - Whatever (they just shrug and move on), and 3 - Complimentary (receieve a fair amount from cooworkers and customers). Reactions have been so much better than I ever anticipated Ive been considering some short extensions (the realities of my job prohibit anything longer).
Basically, and steering closer to the point, I really enjoy having nice looking, well manicured nails. And I color them well, metallics, copper, bronze, even many shades of pink at work just being me, no embarassment or hesitation - except I ran into a roadblock with red. I dont know why, I have been struggling to understand this, but red makes me slightly uncomfortable. Ive forced myself to wear it to work twice now, 2 different shades of bright red, and all day I felt just uneasy. It even feels a little 'wrong' to put on. Ive had 2 different ladies tell me reds a good color on me, so I dont think its about looking bad. Closest Ive got yet is that in my mind red fingernails are most closely associated with sex and romance and sex, and since my dressing has nothing to do with sex, conflict and unease creeps in.
Please, any insights to help me understand this and move past it?
Because gosh darn it, I do look good in red! :daydreaming:
Moving from Sports Bras to 'real' bras, longer and more feminine earrings, more jewelry (necklace (matches the earrings)), the occasional clear lip-gloss etc. I believe Id even be not-ashamed or embarassed to wear long skirts to work if the dress-code didnt prohibit it (I find them very comfy).
The only inner reluctance Ive found involves my nails. Ive been wearing nail polish daily for months now. I began with clears and gradually moved down to the bolder, darker side of the spectrum. People usually fall into 3 categories I find: 1 - Oblivious (How long have you been doing that), 2 - Whatever (they just shrug and move on), and 3 - Complimentary (receieve a fair amount from cooworkers and customers). Reactions have been so much better than I ever anticipated Ive been considering some short extensions (the realities of my job prohibit anything longer).
Basically, and steering closer to the point, I really enjoy having nice looking, well manicured nails. And I color them well, metallics, copper, bronze, even many shades of pink at work just being me, no embarassment or hesitation - except I ran into a roadblock with red. I dont know why, I have been struggling to understand this, but red makes me slightly uncomfortable. Ive forced myself to wear it to work twice now, 2 different shades of bright red, and all day I felt just uneasy. It even feels a little 'wrong' to put on. Ive had 2 different ladies tell me reds a good color on me, so I dont think its about looking bad. Closest Ive got yet is that in my mind red fingernails are most closely associated with sex and romance and sex, and since my dressing has nothing to do with sex, conflict and unease creeps in.
Please, any insights to help me understand this and move past it?
Because gosh darn it, I do look good in red! :daydreaming: