I'm now Really Out There

[Suzy Harrison]

Well today I planned to out myself to my two closest (female) work colleagues. (History) (http://crossdressers.com/forums/showthread.php?t=83350)

In a way it felt like the right thing to do, but in another way I thought I might be behaving quite recklessly. But in any case I felt I needed to do this.
The night before I printed out my best 12 photos, as I knew they would want to see the other side of me. We planned to meet at a riverside restaurant at 9:30. I arrived on time and my closest friend turned up shortly with the news that our other friend couldn’t make it, so it was just going to be the two of us. I was disappointed, but in the end this would prove to work out for the best.


So we sat down, overlooking the river and made small talk for a short time but it soon came to the time for me to tell all ~ and as you can imagine it’s difficult just to know where to start. I started off by saying how important it is not to tell anyone, because if she felt it would be okay just to tell one person, then that one person would also feel the same and so would the next one person… and it would go on and on. She assured me that her lips were sealed until I released her from the promise.

So I told her from the age of 12 I’ve felt I was transgendered. She was totally, totally shocked. She said afterwards she had absolutely no idea. When I mentioned about the fact that she and the friend had ‘said’ they thought I had wanted a sex change – she said that they hadn’t thought that was the case, but used it as an example of the only thing they could think of that was as big as I was making out it to be. They never guessed it could be for real.

She then went on to ask if I had ever ‘thought’ of dressing as a female?

I had to smile, as I knew there were another few shocks in stall for her. When I told her that not only had I dressed as a female I’ve been out in broad daylight to shops, female fitting rooms, cafés, casino, movies… the list is endless. There were still more signs of shock and disbelief on her face as she asked “But how could you ever possibly do all of that?”

Then I went on to say that recently, as a female, I checked out of a hotel, caught a cab to the airport, checked in for a flight, waited in the airport for hours visiting shops and a few coffee outlets and then flew home and checked in at another hotel on arrival. She still couldn’t see how that could be done and to be honest a year ago I would have agreed with her. When I then said “Do you want to see the photos?, she readily agreed.

So I took my photos out of the envelope and showed her the first one, wondering to myself, what on earth her reaction would be. Well, I wish I had taken a camera along.

I have never seen such a reaction in my life. She was totally in information overload. Her face was frozen for a few seconds in sheer disbelief saying “This is you???!!!”.. Then on to the next, “You look stunning, I can’t believe it, you look fantastic” She went through all of the photos … and then through them all again about three times over, saying how she could now see how I could do what I had done. She was still in deep shock, mentioning the make up, lack of Adams apple, the legs – and saying I looked so good as female. The only part of me she could recognise was my eyes, which are very blue. She went on to say if she had passed me in the street she would have never recognised me. All of this was a huge relief to me.

We talked more about my situation and it was soon very clear that she would do a lot more than just accept me. We spoke about me shopping as Suzy and she blurted out, “Yes, but now we could go out shopping together now!” – and we made a firm date for that.

This has gone better than I could ever have dreamed. Just accepting me is one thing but going shopping together is something else. I told her all about my forthcoming trip to the SCC in Atlanta and she is 100% behind me. We even spoke about the possibility of me going full time and said if I ever wanted to do that, she would be behind me and could see no reason why I couldn’t carry on with my present job, as she would support me and knows the customers would too.

We spoke about and she advised me on such things as Electrolysis, Wonder Bras, Face Care, and Eyebrow Shaping – the girlie list was endless. We ended our 2-hour talk with reference to my voice – asking what did I do when I needed to ‘talk’ enfemme. I told her I had that in progress as well as I was developing a female voice. Straight away she asked me to say something. I told her I didn’t feel comfortable doing that dressed as a guy but I would demonstrate it to her soon.

We finished on a high and we spoke about this new subject several times during the rest of the day.

On the way home I tried out my voice on her. I had been speaking to her a few minutes before hand on the ‘hands free’ phone in my car. I stopped the car in a lay-by, picked up the phone, dialled and she answered. In my best femmy voice I told her my name was Carol and I was calling from the operating theatre of Perth’s major Hospital. I told her we were having problems with our equipment. She asked if I had a patient on the table and I replied ‘Yes’. She then went on to say that I needed to speak to the company’s engineer and asked for my number at the hospital. I gave her a fictitious one and she said I’d get a call soon.

Ten seconds later, after I switched on the hands free set again, the phone rings. It’s my friend asking me to call Carol on this number as soon as I can.
I was laughing on the phone saying “ So did you like the voice?” …

“Yes’ she says, “It sounds like you are chewing something”

I was left a little disappointed as I thought I had been okay

But then after all that, she says, “So can you call Carol straight away as they have a patient on the table”. I then realised that she had been talking about my present voice and not the call I made as Carol – the penny still hadn’t dropped.

It wasn’t until I told her that Carol doesn’t exist ! and I had made the call that her shock sets back in again. She was impressed as I had to confirm several times that I made the call.

So that was my day, it had gone better than I ever could have dreamt. On top of the high that I was already on after flying I am really in the clouds at the moment.


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[MichelleOBrien]

let me be the first to congratulate you!

[TxKimberly]

Wow, so she really had no idea! You took a hell of a chance while working on the assumption that she already had some idea. It sure is a good thing that things worked out so well considering you were apparently mistaken! One thing you apparently were NOT mistaken about is the quality of your friend, who it seems was not at all put off by your surprise.
Congrats and well done yet again Suzy! Oh, now slow down woman! You go from hiding in the room, to shopping, to taking airplanes, to outing yourself to co-workers. At this pace your soon gonna be running for president, prime minister, or what ever you Australians have saddled yourself with for a government leader. :-)

[Farrah]

I'm so happy for you. You have great friends. We all need friends like that.:)

[Alana65]

Suzy,

I am so, so happy for you, hun !!! I can tell from reading your post that you had to have your head in the clouds after the meeting with your gal pal.......just the wording of your post said it all. Please keep us updated on how it goes with your other friend too (I hope she's just as supportive as the first one). Huge :hugs: to you Suzy.

BTW---I love the pics, hun !!

Alana

[robyn1114]

Thats a great story, I'm glad it worked out so well for you

[serinalynn]

Damn Fine Job Suzy!!!!:thumbsup: From the photos you posted it appears there isn't much else you need to do. Your looking as good as any Auzzie woman i met in my two visits (1978, 1986)to the Perth/Freemantle area.
My best, to you Mate, on being all the woman you want to be.:):battingeyelashes:

[ShannonGermany]

Congratulations to you Suzy!
Having good firends that know is very important and huge relieve for ur self.
I came out to my best female friend couple of months ago after she told me one of her secrets. I told her while we where chatting over icq (btw. she lives in my hometown area and i'm in collegetown). So i said i need to tell her my secret one day but i just think its not yet the right time to do so. But she just said tell it i won't tell anybody and i knew that she won't. Then i said that i'm going to send her a picture and i need her opinion. So send the file to her and she answers after a couple of minutes probaly staring at the picture: Who is this? And i replied that she has to look closely. OMG thats you! You look awesome! But what is this all about? So i started to explain her the usual questions about not intending of having a sex change and so on. To cut a long story short we agreed on meeting the next following weekend and i explaind her everything she wanted to know. And now she is fine and she even asks me sometimes if i have new pics to show her :)

So all the best for u and your time a head Suzy! :love:

Shannon

[Jenny Beth]

Now that's a success story! :thumbsup: I think your shopping trip is going to be the icing on the cake. :)

[JoAnnDallas]

Congrads......sounds like it went very well. Mabey she can help you break the ice with your other friend, since they are friends too.

[Angie G]

Good for you Suzy gald it went well for you. you are such a great girl and I hope things keep working out for you.:hugs:
Angie

[Tomara]

Hi Suzy I am so glad for you that telling your friend went so well , just wondering who gets to tell friend #2 , you I hope and I truely hope you get the same supportive response then you will have two great friends to help you on your way to be who you want to be . I think your pictures look fantastic too. :hugs: Tomara

[DeeDeeB]

That's wonderful Suzy. It's gotta be great to have friends you can share this with. Love the pics too.

Dee :fairy1:

[pamela_a]

Suzy, what more can I add. This is absolutely fabulous, many congratulations to you for having the courage to do this. You obviously have made an excellent choice in friends. I hope your other friend is just as receptive as this one was. May you have many fun times come your way.

I love your pictures. You look great girl.

Hugs.

-Paula-

[Mitch23]

a lump in the throat moment - well done suzy, what a risky moment and what a great friend

mitch

[Sam-antha]

Suzy, lucky Suzy, me sincere congratulations on that natter with your friend.
I know the feeling of needing or wanting to, but there is no one I know who would appreciate the info. (Age does come into it a bit.) I do wonder if she would have felt the same without your photos of the other you proving that you existed in that form....I think that they were really essential to the "truth of the fact" and that will give you and here so much fun in the days to come. Enjoy them with her and I think she will also enjoythem for a slightly acceptably different reason.
Go girl go.

[adelle]

a :drink: to you Suzi and well done you took a gamble and it paid off. i think a lot of sisters in the forum would love to have a relationship like you have with some one close and special. and if i may ad to this your pics are realy stunning and you look great. enjoy the shopping spree :hugs:

[Megan70]

All I can say is WOW!!!!!!!

[Fab Karen]

That's fab. From your other thread it sounded like these women would be cool with it. Let us know how things go with the other friend.

[Sally24]

Life just keeps getting better and better, doesn't it girl! This is so wonderful for you. Many girls are all alone with their dressing and it can get pretty lonely. Now you have a shopping partner. Enjoy Suzi!!

[Sinthia]

What a great story. You are very fortunate to have such a wonderful friend. You look just georgous in the photos

[TGMarla]

Wow again! That's a big step, Suzy. Like Kimberly said, you have travelled a long way with this, from "hiding in the room" to now. Perhaps she's right about slowing down.

Because now the questions get harder. You're going to enjoy going out with your friend, I have no doubt. I'll bet it's going to be exciting and new, exhilirating and fun. And sometime soon the nagging question that's been inside you for many, many years is going to require an answer.

It seems to me that you really really really want to be a woman. Trust me, I can relate. I'm likely never going to transition, but there's not a day that goes by that I don't wish on some level that I was a woman. There is alway some degree of regret there. And I'm guessing that that regret is growing inside you at a rapid rate right now.

Whatever you decide, I wish you good luck, success, and happiness on your journey. We're always around for you. You have been one of the more familiar faces here for a long time, and we all care about you. Thanks for the very uplifting story. I'm real happy for you, and I'm glad it's all worked out well so far.

:love: Have some flowers, what the heck.

[Majestyk's Lady]

Yay Suzy...

How are we going to keep you "down on the farm" now that you've had a taste of the "Good Life"..hmmm??? :D

Just one terrific adventure after another..

Your pictures are fabulous too, by the way..

I am thrilled it went the right way for you..as it should have....

I can't see why anybody would ever want to do you "harm" by treating you differently after finding out about your "secret"..how could they after they see what's "inside" you..and meet the "other" person who resides there too..

As Kim said..only know you by way of internet across the miles..

But I like you..like your style..your moxy and you are someone I'd really like to meet...:hugs:


Thanks Suzy...


Majestyk's Lady :love:

[Karen C]

thats grate . boy i wish i could do somthing like that . you go girl

[victoriamwilliams1]

Wow! I want to know how it goes when you two go shopping.

[Pamela Julie]

Wow, thats the best news I have heard in a while:thumbsup::thumbsup:. I hope all goes just as well with your other girl friend.

Pamela:)

[Suzy Harrison]

It's been a whole day since all this happened and I still have a great smile from ear to ear!


I've often thought how nice it would be to go out with someone instead of being on my own and this is dream come true. She also talked about me meeting up with some of her friends that she usually goes out with too. Although I did tell her I would want her to explain my circumstances first, before we meet, to make sure they were as accepting.

Thank you all for your lovely replies. I really do appreciate each and every one ~ and promise to keep you up to date with developments.

Love Suzy

[Suzy Harrison]

At this pace your soon gonna be running for president, prime minister, or what ever you Australians have saddled yourself with for a government leader. :-)



We have a "Dear Leader", who protects us from those awfull Americans :heehee:

[vivianann]

Suzy, I know exactly how you feel when I came out to some of my close girl friends, the looks on their faces is priceless, and when they finally get to see your femme self, the looks are even more priceless. Congrats on telling you coworker, too bad the other woman did not show. Suzy it sounds like things are going to get better for you as you expand you feminine horizons. I wish you good luck my dear. it has been a year since I decided to let Vivian come out more and more, now I am where you are, I wan to live full time as a woman. I hope I can meet you at southern comfort in atlanta this september.
I have been to a few femme getaways, and every time I go I want to go full time more and more. All I can say is, I am very happy for you and wish you the best of luck, and I hope you can go full time as female soon.:hugs: Vivian


ps, you are a beautiful woman.

[Edwina]

Gosh Suzy from inspired by others to being an inspiration to others and in such a short time. :)
I am way way behind you in getting out and I know I could never fly SAA :sad:
I wish you every happines for the future
:love:
Edwina

[renee k]

Hi Suzy,

I'm really proud of you and happy for you as well. I'm glad you came out to your friend. Can't wait to here more!

Huggs, Renee

[Suzy Harrison]

Wow again! That's a big step, Suzy. Like Kimberly said, you have travelled a long way with this, from "hiding in the room" to now. Perhaps she's right about slowing down.

Because now the questions get harder. You're going to enjoy going out with your friend, I have no doubt. I'll bet it's going to be exciting and new, exhilirating and fun. And sometime soon the nagging question that's been inside you for many, many years is going to require an answer.

It seems to me that you really really really want to be a woman. Trust me, I can relate. I'm likely never going to transition, but there's not a day that goes by that I don't wish on some level that I was a woman. There is alway some degree of regret there. And I'm guessing that that regret is growing inside you at a rapid rate right now.

Whatever you decide, I wish you good luck, success, and happiness on your journey. We're always around for you. You have been one of the more familiar faces here for a long time, and we all care about you. Thanks for the very uplifting story. I'm real happy for you, and I'm glad it's all worked out well so far.

:love: Have some flowers, what the heck.



Thank you Marla ~ I really do feel I'm at the crossroads in my life at the moment. It's starting to dawn on me that it might well be possible to go full time and still keep my job ~ which is something I have never thought possible.

In addition I am blown out of the water with the support my friend is offering, even to the point of her saying to me that I shouldn't hold myself back and should transition if that's what I really want to do. She is high up in the company and would carry a great influence in the chances me of keeping in the job. Not only that, in the very same week I attended a company seminar where they affirmed they valued diversity and would protect the rights of all ~ including the Transgendered.

Of course the danger is moving too fast and regretting things later. I think nine full days in Atlanta and the SCC conference will help to make up my mind where I'm to go from here.

It looks like I'll be going out more often now and also get the advice and support of my dear friend. Yes things are moving fast, but the more experiences I have the more I want.

[Suzy Harrison]

Today all three of us met up at my first friends house to let the second one know what's happening. I'm sorry I can't give out names but this is a public forum and anyone in Perth in our field, will recoginise these names if I gave them out.

In short she is 100% supportive as well. So much so that she wants to come shopping too, so we've had to change our shopping date to next Sunday instead of the week after, as she can only make it on that day.

On Sunday the three of us are going to meet up for coffee and then have a girls shopping spree in the city. After talking about breasts and busts, they are determined to get me to buy a Wonder Bra ! (the type with gell in the inserts to bolster the bust)

They have both also said that if I did decide to go full time at a later stage, they can approach the customers to prepare the way ahead for me.

I did ask her if she ever suspected as she was the one who told me jokingly, some time ago, if I ever wanted a decent lip plumper then don't buy the brand she had just bought!

She said she had no idea, but once, and only once she wondered for a second why my eyebrows seemed so thin and well trimmed..

So far so good and we'll see what they think of the real me next week. They've both seen about 50 photos of me by now so they are prepared although what they will think of the real thing we have yet to find out.....



:hugs: Suzy

[TGMarla]

Ooooh! The excitement mounts!

This is really great! You could not have scripted a better beginning to all of this! I hope your shopping day is all you hope it will be! Very exciting. I'm really glad for you. I'm wishing good things for you, and I hope that all this goes very well for you.

:battingeyelashes:

And you're right.....now you're REALLY out there!

[Alana65]

Suzy,

All I can say is congratulations :Party2: ! I am soooooo :happy: for you :cheer: ! You must be on :c9: (I know I would be). :cheers: to your journey, and I hope it continues to be a happy, exciting experience. BIG :hugs:

Alana

[Kristen Marie]

I have been reading every post with great excitement. You don't know how encouraging this is to me. It seems like you made all the right steps and knew your co-workers well before sharing. I love the idea of bringing the pictures. I always have my pictures to show when I talk to someone in guy mode.

Now, you have to keep us up to date.....

[Donna Michelle]

Great story, Suzy! You are so lucky! I didn't have photos or the Internet to tell my wife, but she was not surprised! She understands me but she was disappointed that I lied and kept secrets from her. She always thought I was strange or different.

When I came out to her parents, I simply showed up fully dressed. They have seen me dressed for Halloween each year, but this was NOT Halloween. Her father laughed and doesn't care. Her mother doesn't like it and prefers not to see it, but she would like to borrow some of my things. Her sister also doesn't like it and says she doesn't want to see it, but she snoops at my MySpace page and still shops with us no matter how I dress. We always thought she was a f2m crossdresser, anyway.

When I came out to MY family, I got varied reactions. One of my nephews was browsing through my wife's MySpace friends. He likes big gals and visited my page. I just happened to call him on the phone as he found it and was shocked to learn that was me! He also dressed as a woman for Halloween and is curious. His dad and a few other nephews are curious and accepting.

My younger sister and my mom are COMPLETELY unaccepting and won't bother with me anymore. My mom is 81 years old and claims she doesn't remember yelling at me for crossdressing as a child. My wife thought it was odd that the men were accepting and the women were not. She is so supportive and she said if anyone deserves to be upset, it would be her. Yet she helps me and other CDs. It just shows that we really don't know what kind of reaction we may get.

I am so glad your story had a happy ending!

[deja true]

My wife thought it was odd that the men were accepting and the women were not. She is so supportive and she said if anyone deserves to be upset, it would be her. Yet she helps me and other CDs. It just shows that we really don't know what kind of reaction we may get.


Yeah, Donna, I think it's a little strange, too. But maybe the women are a little more threatened by a man invading their 'space' and the men, who have already given up on you as a man because you're 'weird' , are glad to lose the competition for the attention of women. Dunno really, but this pops into my head.

In any event, you've made some new, different friends, which is good and you've lost some older, but more bigoted friends, which is also good!

Keep at it, dear one. How we feel about ourselves is much more important than the
worry of keeping up the appearance of a persona we're unhappy with!

[Donna Michelle]

One of my MySpace friends says it is better to be hated for who you are than to be loved for who you are not. I can say I am happier to be myself than to pretend to be someone I don't like.

My mother-in-law was jealous of my new pink raincoat. When I came out in April, my wife bought EVERYTHING I would need, including this coat. She even tried it on and thought it looked good on herself. Her mom thinks she OWNS pink and was jealous of my clothes. It was funny.

My mother probably has some guilt because she had a daughter, then a son, then me and then another boy (and a few more children). She said I should have been a girl and didn't cut my hair. I looked pretty with long, curly hair and a sweet baby face. I tried on my sister's clothes while she was at school and that was the beginning of my crossdressing.

My mother was furious to see me in girly clothes, but I loved them. When I was a teenager, I "borrowed" clothes I found on wash lines while collecting trash. She threw them away. I moved out and got more clothes! She claims she didn't know about any of this, but I think she doesn't want to admit to any of it.

You can't close your eyes, cover your ears and wish things were different. That just doesn't happen. I didn't ask to be this way. Somehow I always just felt that way. My father was a truck driver who would visit to get mom pregnant, then leave again. He died before my son was born and I don't care, because he didn't care about me. I never had a good male role model while my mom cared for 7 children.

I don't know how much life can affect crossdressing. I still feel like I was born this way. But how much and when we crossdress is affected by society. I can't dress for work or when I want sex with my wife. Sometimes I don't need or want to dress that way, anyway. But I want to dress like a woman more often than I want to dress like a man.

[paulaN]

Suzy all I can say is WOW!!!!!! I kept reading your story and saying wow. Your story is so cool. The pink fog must be getting so thick it makes it hard to see. You are one lucky girl and I am so happy that things are going so well in your life. lucky girl.

[KateW]

Fantastic story - I'm really happy for you! I truly admire you for being honest about who you are and taking a chance on your friend. You girls really are my heroes and I wish you continued happiness in everything you do.

xxx

[Chiana]

Wow. That is so cool. Keep us posted.

[Suzy Harrison]

We're still on track for Sunday and today one of my two friends gave me a present of a pair of small hoop earrings ~ so sweet of her.

.

[TGMarla]

Just please be careful, Suzy. This has to be quite a novelty for both your friends right now. They've probably read about crossdressers and transexuals, but likely have never met or known one. And for you, the novelty of actually having some GG friends who know and want to do things with you might be a lot like driving drunk, I'm thinking. It would be easy to get caught up in the moment and do something reckless that you might later regret.

Hey, I'm not raining on the parade, my friend. I'm just advising caution as you move forward, that's all. But all that aside, have fun! I hope Sunday is a great day for you, and I'm sure I speak for us all when I say I can't wait to read about it!

[MJ]

be careful, Suzy.

i am happy for you but be careful you don't have a secret anymore once it's out there you can't take it back .
but you have my number should you need to talk .
i wish you all the very best
have fun

[fempsyche]

Glad everything went so well for you, I wish you all the luck as you continue to grow for the better.

anessa

[Niya W]

We have a "Dear Leader", who protects us from those awfull Americans :heehee:


Hey Wait I thought Oz was the 52nd state right behind Canada, or is that the UK :)

[DanaR]

Suzy,

Congratulations, that is awesome!

[Suzy Harrison]

Hey Wait I thought Oz was the 52nd state right behind Canada, or is that the UK :)





Not exactly, but most Australians appreciate what the US did for us in protecting Australia from invasion during the Second World War. The UK was fully tied up trying to keep Adolf back and couldn't do much to hold the Japanese from walking in.

If it wasn't for the US, there wouldn't be an Australia now ~ and we won't ever forget that.


:hugs: Suzy

[Suzy Harrison]

Marla :
Just please be careful, Suzy. This has to be quite a novelty for both your friends right now. It would be easy to get caught up in the moment and do something reckless that you might later regret.

MJ:
be careful, Suzy.



Dear MJ and Marla - thank you for your concern.:love:

I realise that things are happening pretty fast for me at the moment, but I will be careful. Of course I really trust my two friends and know they have my best interests at heart, but I also realise that all three of us are treading new ground.

:love: Suzy

[vivianann]

Not exactly, but most Australians appreciate what the US did for us in protecting Australia from invasion during the Second World War. The UK was fully tied up trying to keep Adolf back and couldn't do much to hold the Japanese from walking in.

If it wasn't for the US, there wouldn't be an Australia now ~ and we won't ever forget that.


:hugs: Suzy



Suzy, Your comments brought tears to my eyes, as an American you make me proud of the worriors that fought for all of our freedoms throughout this world, We love you aussi's, and thank you for what you have said.. We are anxious to hear how your meetup with the GG's go sunday, We want to see pics of your outing. ::hugs: Viv.

[Suzy Harrison]

Well our first day out went ahead on Sunday and it was fabulous:

Here's the LINK (http://http://crossdressers.com/forums/showthread.php?p=1323073#post1323073)

I'm putting it on the Out and About section as there are photos of my friends which I'd prefer to remain out of the public section of the forum.


:hugs: Suzy

[Jilmac]

Suzy, that is one incredible story, and you are one incredibly stunning girl. I wish I could meet you because you seem to have such a positive attitude toward your own femininity and I would like to pick up on your vibes. Unfortunately, we live on opposite ends of the globe so this forum will probably be the only communication link for us. I'm glad to know the progress you made in coming out to your GG friend was all positive. You mentioned two friends but only one was bale to show up for your coming out meeting. Do you plan to tell the other friend as well? I think we would all love to hear how that goes as well. Keep up the positive vibes girl. Luv and :hugs: Jill

[kimberlyt221]

What a great story! You've made my day. I am new here, and reading this gives me hope. To tell the truth, I am also just a teeny bit jealous! But I honestly wish the very best for you and you friends. Happy shopping!
Luv,
Kimberly:c9: