How much of a sissy were you in school?

[sybercom11]

I was just wondering how sissy the members here were in school? I mean what were some of the things you did in school that screamed that you were a sissy. And maybe some things that got you in trouble with the other kids.

I mean, once I started getting body hair in junior high school I was mortified and started shaving it off. I could not stand the sight or feel of body hair because I wanted to be like the girls.

But I had to put up with much teasing from the bully boys, especially in gym class and around the locker room. They did not want a "fairy" around them.

And of course in the summer time I wore short girlie shorts and my shaved legs were out there for all the other kids to see.

And I also started painting my nails, and not all the time was I using clear polish either. So I got verbal abuse from that as well.

So what did you do in school that marked you as a sissy?

stevie

[michelle64]

i made sure the poor kids were not verbally abused and was about the only jock who talked to them..thats as far as it went..

[sybercom11]

i made sure the poor kids were not verbally abused and was about the only jock who talked to them..thats as far as it went..



Along the same line, I was always involved in the fund-raisers with the girls and the other mostly effeminate boys. The macho boys stayed away from that sort of thing.

But I loved it because it gave me a chance to be "one of the girls" !

[Karren H]

Through High School..... I was into all the sports big time... Hockey, football (made the all county team and invited to tryout for a couple jr colleges)... Track, crosscountry.. Basketball., bowling... Tennis... Swimming.... Yet I wasn't a "jock". Didn't hang with those guys... I was everyones friend... I would help anyone..

I was into science and math... I was in Future Farmers of America... And could plow and plant and disk with the best of them... I had girlfriends out the wazoo.... I played guitar in a couple local bands... I worked as an auto mechanic at the local gas station.. I could fix anything... I owned a cycle and used to ride with a local bike club...

And I loved to dress like a chick!! Complicated?? Hahaha.

[sybercom11]

I was athletic too, but in the traditional "girl sports," such as swimming and tennis and running.

Football: not even close!

[amber 07]

I was similar to Karen, 4 year letterman in 4 sports, Student council President, Senior play, Band, Girlfriends, the WHOLE male mantra. I'm much happier now in my stillettos, nylons, short skirt and tight sweater. Hugs, Amber

[sybercom11]

I was similar to Karen, 4 year letterman in 4 sports, Student council President, Senior play, Band, Girlfriends, the WHOLE male mantra. I'm much happier now in my stillettos, nylons, short skirt and tight sweater. Hugs, Amber

So when did you decide you wanted to be girlie. I mean, I was girlie from the start. You and Karren seem to have developed it after high school. You did not have to go through school being a sissy and putting up with all that that entails.

[Cristi]

I was in Future Farmers of America...

Same here! As far as other aspects of school, I was pretty much invisible. I didn't do sports or any other kind of activity. I only got into the FFA because my father was friends with the teacher who ran it.

[Vivian Best]

I was just wondering how sissy the members here were in school? I mean what were some of the things you did in school that screamed that you were a sissy. And maybe some things that got you in trouble with the other kids. So what did you do in school that marked you as a sissy?

stevie
Absolutely nothing! That could have gotten you brutally beaten up or even killed! I grew up in the late 1940 and early 1950s and you just didn't display anything like that. I had enough trouble with red hair and being tall and skinny. I was picked on enough with those issues thank you.

[sybercom11]

Absolutely nothing! That could have gotten you brutally beaten up or even killed! I grew up in the late 1940 and early 1950s and you just didn't display anything like that. I had enough trouble with red hair and being tall and skinny. I was picked on enough with those issues thank you.



You are so correct, Vivian. I got picked on a lot, called a lot of names, pushed around. That was the worst of if though, so I guess I was fortunate.

[celeste26]

Like some here I was the "invisible type" not so much a sissy just one who would stay away from anything that put me in the spotlight. My CD activities started when I was around 12 though so I was already far into the guilt and hiding thing by high school.

[boy2girl31]

I am different I guess no football, no basketball, no hockey. I did run track and the shaved legs was for better aerodynamics so I could run faster. :heehee: It must have worked I was district champ in 400 and 800 meters both junior and senior years. Then in my senior year I was a cheerleader. I had the blue and gold sweater but blue trousers. They didn't give me the cute skirt:Angry3:. As far as I know I am still the only boy cheerleader the school ever had. That made for a lot of teasing but the track guys stuck up for me so it wasn't too bad.

[Alana65]

Through High School..... I was into all the sports big time... Hockey, football (made the all county team and invited to tryout for a couple jr colleges)... Track, crosscountry.. Basketball., bowling... Tennis... Swimming.... Yet I wasn't a "jock". Didn't hang with those guys... I was everyones friend... I would help anyone..

I did all of that too, except it was just basketball & soccer (small school--200 students--all 4 grades, sports program not very big).


I was in Future Farmers of America... And could plow and plant and disk with the best of them...

FFA was pretty cool.


I had girlfriends out the wazoo....

No girlfriends (I was kind of a loner).


I worked as an auto mechanic at the local gas station.. I could fix anything... I owned a cycle and used to ride with a local bike club...

After high school, I worked as a mechanic at a local Ford dealership.....I've owned some type of motorcycle since I was in my late teens (I'm 43 now).


And I loved to dress like a chick!! Complicated?? Hahaha.

Closeted then, mostly closeted now.

[sybercom11]

I am different I guess no football, no basketball, no hockey. I did run track and the shaved legs was for better aerodynamics so I could run faster. :heehee: It must have worked I was district champ in 400 and 800 meters both junior and senior years. Then in my senior year I was a cheerleader. I had the blue and gold sweater but blue trousers. They didn't give me the cute skirt:Angry3:. As far as I know I am still the only boy cheerleader the school ever had. That made for a lot of teasing but the track guys stuck up for me so it wasn't too bad.

I was at a recital last week and out of more than 100 dancers, there was 1 boy. I wanted to dance as a kid with the girls but was afraid to do it, even afraid to ask my parents if I could. I say more power to that boy. I don't even know if he is a sissy, but he wanted to be out there and he was.

[Babette]

I was too small for football, too short for basketball, and too uncoordinated for baseball. Furthermore, none of it ever interested me. I instead spent my extracurricular time in pursuit of art and music. Nobody seemed to harass me though. When it came to choosing teams for phys ed classes, I was never anyone's top choice. I can't say that it ever cause me any distress.

Babette

[amber 07]

I experimented with it during 3 failed marriages but finally met a wonderful woman who accepts and encourages me daily. I am one of the lucky ones. I can now dress and act as I please and have unconditional support from someone I LOVE. I hope this helps your understanding. Hugs, Amber

[Christinedreamer]

I was slightly over weight starting in elementary school and I was not too interested in sports or running etc. Add to that that thanks to my dad, I was introduced to the audio visual business very early on in life and went with him on many shows styarting at age 7 where I had to act as a mature young person as opposed to a little kid. As a result, I was the only kid in the entire school who could run a projector or any other AV equipment so I was constantly called out of class to run a movie for another teacher.
The school even created a bell signal for me to report to the cafeteria/auditorium to run a movie. That sort of set me apart from the other kids as well as being more "gentle" than the other guys.

I even was allowed to repair he school's paging system when I was in the 6th grade. Again that set me apart from the other kids as I was getting "special treatment".

Moving through Jr and SR high school, the situation was the same. I was in the choir, drama groups, stage crew, audio visual crew, and was a teacher assistant in wood shop. All the things that separate a guy from the jocks.

All the time I enjoyed the company of the girls more as they seemed a bit more down to earth and willing to actually share feelings. In addition, I was already crossdressing every chance I had and trying at the same time to appear disinterested in what the girls wore at school. I am sure some of my girlfriends suspected I was "special" since I knew the names of materials and parts of dresses, lingerie, etc. and could easily discuss what looked good.

As I grew up through school my boobs got quite large for a teen boy and several years later I read about gynocomastia. There was the big "ah HAA" moment. I endured a lot of teasing about needing a bra so I figured that I had more than a little "girl" in me. That explained why I enjoyed softer quieter things and was definitely though of as a sissy.

I came to realize though early on that many people will label you a sissy or wimp etc. just because you dont go around punching people or acting generally "macho stupido". I gladly choose the title of sissy if it means treating others gently and enjoying the beautiful and non destructive things in life.

You can be thought of as a sissy even if you are not overtly effeminate and swishy. That is OK by me.

Christine

[Lisa Rose]

Did all of the sports even tho I didn't enjoy it much. No sissy stuff for me. Small town, 50's and 60's was no time to push the envelope.

Wish I'd been more self assured. If I could go back I'd pusue all of the softer stuff. Music, ballet, gymnastics. Wish I could put cheer leading on my resume'.

[Syndi]

Well I was in choir from grade 6-12, got exempted from gym ,acted like I hated getting into fights,and underdressed at school. But also I was trying to be like every one else.If the guys were into "copping feels" in the hallway I did too. So I did and didn't express my feminine side.

[joank]

During School, from grades school on---football (the line), wrestling, tennis, drama and girls. All this and the hidden personality as well. Very confusing. Outside school; hunting, shooting and rough stock rodeo riding.

[brittany]

i wasnt a sissy in high school at all (or at least where people could see me):). I was a football and baseball player and on student council. I was your average high school teenage boy enjoying life as it came and living my secret girly life alone. Since no one new no one even suspected but when i get home and no ones around here is the girly me!

[Deborah Jane]

I was just one of the guys at school, no one ever suspected my c/ding!!

I did used to get very envious of the clothes the girls wore though, especially in the last couple of years when some of them started wearing short skirts, tights/hose and tight fitting tops...I started wishing i could be one of them and wear the same!!

[Tomara]

I was kind of a shop rat , wood, metal, and welding I didnt do alot of sports , I had and still have more than the normal amount of breast tissue so I got picked on in the locker room and in the showers alot and I didn`t like that at all , but I lived threw all that and now I`m glad that I have more than normal breasts!!:heehee: Tomara

[mollytyler]

Wasn't exactly labelled as a "sissy" but "different" over the years...went to catholic grade school with classmates for 8 years and all then went to same catholic high school...so over the years in lower grades it was just old news about my effminate approach to things....it wore off and then resurfaced in 1st two years of HS....again it got to be boring banter and the words/actions really trailed off end of freshamn year and about gone during soph yr......was just viewed as "effeminate" than anything else....joined groups like Drama., yearbook, choral etc...where the majority of friends were girls....some of the guys warmed up to me because I had so many girl contacts and was used kind of like an imtermediary. Full bore after summer of soph yr and many many then got to know the true side of Molly......only a few girls got to meet Molly in those years so my ID was protected.....but got out of HS unscathed and no real problems from physical brutes....Molly had a GREAT time in HS and just continued evolvlng everyday thereafter

[Linda C]

I have never been a sissy (that term is a bit gray for me - to me it almost seems like a sexual thing) but, I have never been a tough guy either. My upbringing was about as normal as can be - accept for the divorced parents. I have always been into solo sports like mountain biking and skiing so i am not much of a pack runner. Dressing has always been a release from norm of my life - for that I will always appreciate it :)

[sissystephanie]

Absolutely nothing! That could have gotten you brutally beaten up or even killed! I grew up in the late 1940 and early 1950s and you just didn't display anything like that. I had enough trouble with red hair and being tall and skinny. I was picked on enough with those issues thank you.


You are right about those times. Being known as a sissy was just asking for trouble. However, I also was a redhead (carrot top!) but large for my age. I was 5' 10" when I started high school and weighed 175, mostly muscle! Unfortunately, I never got over 5" 10"! But I didn't get picked on often, because my father taught me to never lose a fight!! Had a few, but never the same person twice! Even when I was still in grade school I was bigger then most of the lids, so I looked out for the girls and "sissy" boys. Guess I felt a kinship with both!! I was crossdressing even then!

Sissy/Stephanie

Lady on the outside, but man underneath.

[Karren H]

Matter of fact I'm still playing ice hockey twice a week... In a local over 25 league... Me with my fully shaved body... Thin eye brows and my team mates... Bunch of hairy fire fighters and policemen... And no one really cares as long as I can put the puck in the net!! Lol

So obviously equating crossdressing to un-manlyness has has a very low corelation... Imho... Similar in magnitude to crossdressing and being non-hetro... Also imho...

[MJ]

I was just one of the guys at school, no one ever suspected my c/ding!!

I did used to get very envious of the clothes the girls wore though, especially in the last couple of years when some of them started wearing short skirts, tights/hose and tight fitting tops...I started wishing i could be one of them and wear the same!!

i am the same here . i was a book worm i got to stay in during recess and away from the jym room as much as possible .
out of sight out of mind

[Toni_Lynn]

I have to start toff by first stating that I abhor the word s*ssy and refuse to use it to describe myself or others.

That said, I shall answer this as if it asked how girlish were you in school. Well, at 13 I started wearing a training bra (Teencharm and Teenform brand) and panties under my boy's clothes on occasion to school. Did that all through the many purges inflicted when caught at home. When I was in grade 11 I started sneaking into the girls restroom on occasion.

As far as other things .. no sports, but I was in all the plays and musicals and in the choir. I was also in public speaking (National Forensics League) and went on to win several prizes.

Yes, I was known as an odd-ball. But I was used to it :)

Huggles

Toni-Lynn

[Kayla_CD]

I was not an athelete in school (read as uncoordinated) and I typically had more female friends than male. I just get along easier with girls. Oh, and long hair.

[DonnaT]

I was 5' 10" when I started high school and weighed 175, mostly muscle! Unfortunately, I never got over 5" 10"! But I didn't get picked on often, because my father taught me to never lose a fight!! Had a few, but never the same person twice! .

I was very skinny growing up, so got into a number of fights. You know how it is, people wanting to pick on someone smaller than them. Never had to fight anyone more than once either, as my dad taught me how to fight when I was around 6. We were told never to start a fight, and never lose one either.

Only ever lost to my older brother, as he had me outweighed by 50-100 lbs. Got the best of him once though, using my head, literally, and we never fought again.

I was always into some sport or another, and I was the fastest kid in town in running and swimming. I still swim, but can't run a lick.

I made friends with just about anyone not wanting to prove themselves my better. If anyone wanted to start something with a friend, all he had to do was say I was coming along and the aggressor would go into hiding.

We had a rough high school in WV, lots of fights. No one ever challenged me in school. The girls would come to me on bad days so I could escort them to their lockers. I guess I weighed about 155 then.

Having rep was a good thing, and that rep wasn't sissy.

[gretchenD]

I went through a rough time being called a sissy.Luckily I had my gg friends on my side including my male friends.My male friend saw me as a friend and not a sissy.It got worse when I entered 9th grade and luckily the principal took care of ASAP knowing I was a person and not a "number".

[Laura_Stephens]

When in school I tried to be the opposite of who I am really am. I did every macho thing possible and tried to prove what a manly man I was every single day. Looking back, I do believe that the only person I was fooling was myself.

[danielle_from_cal]

I had the great fortune of going straight to university without going to high school, so I never had to shower with high school boys. I have never thought about what a tough thing that would have been.

In school prior to high school, I was one of the "cool" guys. I doubt that anyone would have suspected my desire to dress like the girls or that I wore my mother's and sisters' things at home when nobody was around.

[Suzy Harrison]

Well I was never interested in sports at school and was no good at it either, because I was so small and spindly. But I wasn't a 'sissy' as far as I can remember.

It wasn't until I was 12 years old that I started to realise there was something wrong with me. Girls at school were developing breasts and wearing make up and I wished I could too... the rest is history I guess.


:hugs: Suzy

[Samantha B L]

I was an A-1 sissy from First Grade to Senior. I had to have the rules of Baseball and Football explained to me everytime from the time I was 6 to the time I was 18. I still can't remember them. In grade school I used to play sissy card games with my freinds who were all girls at breaktime. You know,Old Maid and Animal Rummy,etc.. When I got to be a couple years older I sometimes wore nerdy sissified clothes to school. I was one of the first kids to wear bell bottums in my Junior High. Did I mention I was fat when I was a kid in school? I wasn't obese bit I was definately about 40 pounds overweight. I had several freinds starting in 8th grade who were part of the cool crowd,hanging out and listening to Led Zeppilin and Grand Funk Railroad. I hung with them a lot but the sissy in me was probably more or less apparant one way or the other. Oh well..........wasn't it Frank Zappa who said on one of his albums "You is what you is"?!

[Angie G]

Nothing In school I was all boy. But after school well that was sometimes girl time. :hugs:
Angie

[kymmieLorain]

I was a nobody from the auto shop. people in school knew me by my car not by me. I was majorly picked on in Jr High I was just different. No girlfriends but a lot of crushes.:heehee: I don't know if I was just shy or what. It is where I got my affinity for cheerleaders

Kymmie

[Glenda]

I had a great time in high school. I played football my freshman and sophmore years, basketball, volleyball and track (won district) my freshman year and tennis (won district) all four years. I began playing in a rock band my freshman year in the town next to ours. We played dances on Friday and Saturday nights. After football season my sophmore year, I decided to give up all sports except tennis and devote more of my time to the band. We played high school and college dances ('64 - '68) in Texas, Oklahoma, Kansas and New Mexico. Twice a week in the school year and about four nights a week in the summer.

The whole town (pop 624) got mad at me for quitting sports because I was one of the best players. Everyone thought I was being selfish and was making a huge mistake. I got kicked out of the Baptist church when I was 16 for playing rock (devil) music and being a bad influence on the other kids in the town. My parents, grandparents, brothers and friends supported my decision and I really didn't think too much about what other people thought. When all was said and done, it didn't matter much anyway because my younger brother got to start instead of me. He developed into a much better athlete than I ever was.

At the end of the day, I remained popular and respected. We developed into a really good band and were in great demand. By then the people in town (except the preacher - his name was Brother Looney, by the way) were proud of me because we were such a well known band. We were featured on TV a couple of times and were the opening act for the local TV station for the March of Dimes telethon my junior and senior years of high school.

My parents provided great support but my Dad would not let me shirk my duties. Wherever we played, I had to be back by sunrise and ready to hit the fields. Since I didn't have to practice sports after school, my Dad thought I should work the farm after school. I didn't mind though. It wasn't the practice after school that I didn't like. I just didn't want to give up a chance to play a dance because of a football or basketball game. And I loved farming.

So no, I wasn't a sissy. I was ostracised for a time but was able to win back their respect. I was always different and never thought the same way that all of my friends did. But they are still lifelong friends that I really enjoy seeing when I go back to visit.

[goofus]

Through High School..... I was into all the sports big time... Hockey, football (made the all county team and invited to tryout for a couple jr colleges)... Track, crosscountry.. Basketball., bowling... Tennis... Swimming.... Yet I wasn't a "jock". Didn't hang with those guys... I was everyones friend... I would help anyone..

I was into science and math... I was in Future Farmers of America... And could plow and plant and disk with the best of them... I had girlfriends out the wazoo.... I played guitar in a couple local bands... I worked as an auto mechanic at the local gas station.. I could fix anything... I owned a cycle and used to ride with a local bike club...

And I loved to dress like a chick!! Complicated?? Hahaha.

No one can ever accuse you of being uncomplicated Karren :)

[Sylviatg]

Wore my hair long and curly, carried an urban shoulder bag. Painted my nails. Wore pantyhose, heels and camis. Didn't play sports. liked guys, sorry!

[Edwina]

Oh dear, that was so long ago that I can't really remember.
I do recall though, that I was called a sissy quite a lot and I couldn't understand why as in my mind I was a boy even though I had tried on some of my Mom's things occasionally. :)


Edwina

[emmicd]

I always excelled in sports.

I liked baseball and cross country.

I was never a sissy and never wish to be one.

I don't think many crossdressers are sissies.

I just like wearing girls clothes.

Thats it!

I am a guy and I'm very sportsminded and competitive.

[goofus]

I'd say I was some sort of hybrid between sissy and manly ... sorta like I am now!
Actually, my first memory of wanting to wear a dress was when I was around 6 or 7. My step-sister actually let me try on every one of her dresses :) . But then shortly thereafter I learned that that wasn't something I was supposed to want to do so I suppressed it and pursued only 'guy' stuff (I don't think it would have gone over well in my house had I continued to pursue 'girlish' things). So I think partly I wanted to please my mom, stepdad, dad, grandparents, etc. But then puberty hit and that changed everything - suddenly my hormones were raging and dressing was a sexual thing - which it still can be sometimes :o

[alyssalove56]

I was called a sissy so often!
I am a sissy.
I'm proud of it.

[CD Susan]

Actually I hated high school. This was about the time that I discovered that I was different from the other guys and I did not want to be the macho type that was so prevelent back in the 60's. I was a loner and didn't care that I was. I knew that I was different from the other guys and felt good that I was. I always hated the way the guys would put down any lifestyle that was not considered 'normal' back in those days. I still feel this way but back then it had a big impact on my life. I could not understand why anyone would feel negatively about someone elses sexual preferences or the fact that they wanted to dress differently from everyone else. Of course a lot has changed over the years but I still do not understand why cd is looked down on by society. After all it is just about clothing and not like we are doing harm to any one else. Things have changed for the better for us over the years but we still have a long ways to go before we are accepted in society. This is so sad. I only hope that someday we will be accepted and this will be a normal part of society.

[LilSissyStevie]

When I was in elementary school, my sister took ballet lessons. My Mom decided that if I also took lessons she wouldn't have to watch me during that time. So, she talked me into joining the class. Ballet class was immediately after school, so I used to wear my leotard and tights under my regular clothes. I didn't want to carry them around with me because kids would ask me what was in the bag. But they soon found out anyway. I never heard the end of that until we moved away when I was in the sixth grade. I got called fag, queer, sissy-boy, girl, and etc. When I walked by, the other kids would make ballet gestures and laugh at me. I got into a lot of fights but was usually on the losing end because I "hit like a girl." Needless to say, I was not very popular in elementary school. I didn't like them either.

In junior high I gravitated toward the badass crowd. I greased my hair, wore a leather jacket and carried a switch blade. I got into a LOT of trouble at school and with the law. I got into fights all the time which I usually lost because I still hit like a girl. But I gained a reputation for being able to take a beating like no one else. People didn't want to fight me because I wouldn't give up even when it was hopeless. But, being a tough guy wasn't my calling.

High school was a blur of drugs and alcohol and I didn't go to school very much. Still, I was one of the first--this was in the 60's--to grow my hair long and pierce my ear. I didn't wear girls clothing (in public) but my guy clothes were kind of flamboyant and tended toward unisex. I wore lots of jewelry. I was very vain about my hair and even got my sister to curl it for me so the waves would be just right. Girls would always complement me on my beautiful long hair. Just like in elementary school, I got called a fag, queer, "looks like a girl" and etc but now it was by my former greaser friends. It didn't help that I had no interest in any guy stuff. I didn't do sports or care about cars. I didn't date much because girls always interfered with my drinking and drugging. I liked folk music, forchristsake!

In those days, I thought I was probably gay. I knew I was a sissy. Now I embrace sissyness. I'm neither man nor woman; I'm a sissy, a poufbunny (I love that term.) I still hit like a girl and that's the reason for the 12 gauge.
:love:

[Bobsie]

I was sent to an all-boys school, one of the last of its kind, in England. The culture there embraced corporal punishment, cold showers, roofless toilets in the rain and cold, compulsory rugby football which was an excuse to beat up the weaker boys, like me, under the sanction of the teachers, who all seemed to find sadism rather amusing. Any overt show of effeminacy would have been suicidal. There was also a thriving homosexual subculture, and those too weak to resist or too slow to run were regularly raped in the subterranean bunkers which were the remains of air-raid shelters from WW2. I learned to run fast!

To survive, I had to drive my effeminate nature deep into a repressed state, from which I don't think I ever allowed it to fully emerge until as recently as this year! Of course, now I have finally understand that I "should" have been a girl. Given daily interaction with girls during those formative years I believe I might have recognized that I belonged among them.

[annabellesmooth]

going to an all boys school in a working class area
being cought kissing another boy was not good 14yo at the time,
an not a good fighter or runner it was also not good
but we grow from the experance, im a better person from the experance
an much more tollerant to all typs
lol to all:battingeyelashes:

[Ann D Bluebird]

At secondary school (single sex) I was a non sporty, non "cadet force", quiet and bookish, and not a fighter. So I was picked on a bit at times....maybe I would have been more exposed to that if I didn't have my father on the school staff.

Primary school age...well there was a picture of me blowing dandelion "parachutes" here.....not so very macho of me eh? :o)

[Samantha Thomson]

to answer your question i kind stayed to my self untill senior prom w my school has about 1 week before grauwation sorry my spelling sucks budget all one of my female friends at the time said i should wear a dress gown to the prom so i did a nice black dress matching black pantyhose some nice rinestone heels dangling earrings had my fingernails and toe painted hot red nail polish wore red lipstick nice blue shade eyeshadow purfume blush face powder and yes carried a purse like a girl i had fun and the girls there who were my friends made sure no guy haters got close they all pretty much circle them selfs around me i had started wearing womens clothes a year earlier but that when i came out and samantha was born ok later



samantha

[vivianann]

I was a sissy. I hated sports, wish I was a girl at times, loved being one of the girls.

[Juanita O]

I was all city, all state in football. played basketball. I played football for one year in college( university of Southern Colorado).Now i play golf.

[StephanieT]

I was all guy in school. Played sports, took shop classes,etc. My mom wanted me to take piano lessons and I did anything I could to get out of it. I thought playing piano was for girls and sissies. I did however find time occasionally to dress in my mom's clothes.
Today I am still all guy but I am also very happy in stillettos, mascara and a short skirt.:)

[Sonia Kiss]

I think too much. I started to reply to this thread yesterday, then abandoned what I wrote because I thought my experience wasn't in the spirit of the question, but seeing all these fascinating stories, mine fits right in.

I wasn't a sissy in the sense that a few have described, where you consciously and boldly express yourself in some way that's not mainstream and accept the consequences. But, I was absoulely a sissy in the way that I just never related to the boys and never fit in. I was introverted and didn't exactly fit in with the girls either, but on the playground you would never find me with the boys, always watching the girls play four square or jump rope, for example. While boys played softball, I sat in the grass with the girls and made clover chains with them.

Into junior high and high school then, you get teased, and...I conformed. I remember a moment when I was sitting with the girls at lunch and one of them just burst out with a comment about how upright my posture was. So, little things like that trained me to suppress these tendencies. Little things like that, and growing up in the very conservative midwest, where somehow the concept that I could be a girl just wasn't allowed in my mind.

I discovered I was trans two years ago, at age 44.

Sonia

[Farrah]

I was not much of a sissy in school at all. I may had sissy thoughts, but they never showed. I was into football and girls. Couldn't be sissy when playing football nor when you're trying to talk to a girl.

[Emily Ann Brown]

I think I was a bit of a tom boy for a girl. ( giggle giggle)


Emily Ann

[Rachel Morley]

Sissy at school? .... junior school, yes, senior school, no, not much at all.

At "the big school" I wanted to be more like the other boys, follow the pack, and fit in. Same goes when I first left school too. Nowadays, things are much different!

[Carly D.]

I wasn't able to show my crossdressing side at all in school.. not here.. there was a guy who shaved his legs and the other kids just ripped on him.. truth is I think he crossdressed because he had two sisters and the oldest was in my class and she was about six feet tall and her brother was a few inches shorter and so wearing her pantyhose would have been easy.. but for me, I just wondered what that would have been like...

[Christinedreamer]

I responded earlier with my experiences thru school as far as being an outsider and regarded by many as a wimp or sissy since I too hated sports and didnt know ow to fight. But I just remembered something else that maybe kept me away from too much grief about being such a "non-macho" guy.

I have always felt quite comfortable working around electricity even as a kid. My folks allowed me to wire my room for power to a workbench and then to add color organ lighting. When I worked at my dad's shop/office I was always repairing amplifiers and spotlights and other electronic/electric devices. When I was in Sr High, we had a combination boys gym and auditorium that we had to set up every night for plays, recitals etc. There were a few of us geeks (wimps, sissies) that would climb into the open rafters 50 ft above the floor with no safety harness and string cables and hang lights. When others saw us do this, they thought we were crazy but we had guts.

Over the years following, I have always been amused at the reactions of fear I see on people's faces when I work around high voltage and they are petrified to get anywhere near it. I am not careless or cavalier, but it has never scared me even though I have been "bitten" a few times.

Wouldn't they be surprised if they knew that a few hours earlier I was smothered in the layers of a baby pink silky soft nylon nightgown covered with delicate lace?

I have told more than a few folks not to judge a book by its cover.

Reading the hobbies and jobs of so many many CDs posting here, I would say that the definition of sissy may be in need of a little rework.

Christine

[Babette]

At secondary school (single sex) I was a non sporty, non "cadet force", quiet and bookish, and not a fighter. So I was picked on a bit at times....maybe I would have been more exposed to that if I didn't have my father on the school staff.

Primary school age...well, how macho do I look to you? (picture of me blowing dandelion "parachutes"...I may remove this later :o)



Jude,

This photo speaks volumes on everything but the question of "macho". My first thought was innocence in a carefree world. I dare say there weren't too many of us at that age, regardless of gender, that didn't jump at the chance to be so free. I probably sowed my share of dandelion seeds too.

I love this picture.

Babette

[susan2010]

I was mostly into boy things, really into playng army, hiking, exploring forests, swamps, streams, etc. And I had huge battle with lots of the little plastic army men, BUT whenever I visited one girl cousin's, I always wanted to play with her dolls, especially dressing them (no shock there). It's kind of ironic because she was a tomboy and always wanted to play with my armymen or cowboys.
Susan1974

[sissystephanie]

When I was in Sr High, we had a combination boys gym and auditorium that we had to set up every night for plays, recitals etc. There were a few of us geeks (wimps, sissies) that would climb into the open rafters 50 ft above the floor with no safety harness and string cables and hang lights. When others saw us do this, they thought we were crazy but we had guts.
Christine

Christine,

I used to do the same thing in High School. I was Assistant Stage Manager my Freshman year and Stage Manager for the next three years. Also ran the mile and quarter mile on the track team and crosscountry in the fall. Wore panties under my rack suit on occasion too!:heehee:

You are right. The definition of "Sissy" needs some updating! IMHO

Sissy/Stephanie

Lady on the outside, but man underneath!

[Beth-Lock]

I did not fit in with the 'regular' boys after a while of trying mildly, and was not much interested in sports, so, being shy, I gravitated towards friends who would now be described as nerds, or at least somewhat nerdish. I was not short, but lacked weight and muscle, but still, the bullies, of which there were few where I went to school, did not pick on me. I was very shy, and kept mostly to myself. This also meant not being much involved with girls either. The cross-dressing on the sly was however well rooted in high school, so I cannot say I discovered that side of myself, only much later.
So, I would not be picked on as a sissy, but then where I went to school, when I went to school, there was, thankfully, little bullying. (I lived just on the right side of the downtown/nice-side-of-town school border, arbitrarily drawn as it was.) Maybe it was the neighborhoods or the timing, or something. I think that has allowed me to be more confident in later life than I would have been, had I been bullied.

[deja true]

I've had a hard time trying to see how I fit into this thread, too. I wasn't bullied, per se, but know that a lot of my classmates didn't think much of my 'manliness'.

Went to an all boys school, there was no female or feminine or softness about the place at all. Participated in non contact sports, swimming and track, so as not to be the only senior without a letter for my jacket. But also sang in the choir and was a little embarrassed to have always been one of the short boys in the front row of the tenor section.

But, there was an all girls school up the road. And twice a year they put on plays, one drama and then one musical. Guess who was always first to volunteer to be in or help out with the plays?

My very first secret stash makeup collection came from that school's drama department. And why was I always the one poking my nose into the wardrobe room? Never was left alone in there and that was probably a pretty good thing. They'd have been missing an awful lot of stuff if I had been!

Still...I got invited to join one of those sites that finds your old reunion buddies. Not a chance! Those school years were a miserable time of guilt and shame. I'd never want to be reminded of them...except for the wardrobe room, maybe...

[Emily Anderson]

I don't think I ever was a sissy in school, though I do remember admitting to a friend that I liked to wear my sister's undies... It was mentioned in jest by another junior school classmate about a year later, so my friend had obviously spread the word!!! :o Luckily, it never went further.

Aside from that incident, I was pretty much one of the boys (and secretly one of the girls :)).

[Karren H]

That reminds me........

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[Sarah...]

I didn't swear enough, go out with enough girls, play "man" sports well enough (apart from being a demon baseball hitter), smoke enough, fancy Debbie Harry enough or fight enough. I empathised too much, worked too hard, chatted too much with girls without fancying them, excelled at "girl" sports and cried once too often. In the rarefied atmosphere of my school in the seventies and eighties this made me "gay" and a sissy. So imagine how much of a relief it was to get to university right in the middle of the New Romantic music scene which made it alright for guys to wear make up! Which I did. Wholeheartdly.

Every cloud has a silver lining!!!

Sarah...

[Emeralddragon]

Hmmmm lets see.

Well I dont think i was seen as a sissy. I didnt start out like one anyway. Lets begin...

It all started in playschool. For anyone that doesnt know what that is its the hellhole they stick 3-4 year old kids in the year before starting actual school so they can get used to being around lots of other kids. First day there ended with my dad being called in cos I hit some kid. It progressed like that through all levels of school. In the early years i had lots of friends and fought a lot and then the fighting increased and friends decreased.

We only had 2 real sports Football (soccer) and basketball. I was horrible at football but I cost a couple their shins. Became known as the crippler for a while. Loved basketball and had a good few games of it. Being 6'4' kinda helps. I was a horrible shot but then again I wasnt gonna risk wearing glasses on the court.

Never had much luck with women except for the odd bit cos I was the wierdo that always got into fights and got into trouble in class. Hell I didnt bother going to half of them. I shoulda known better tbh cos Im supposedly quite intelligent. Then again even smart people can be lazy and lose their focus.

It wasnt really until later things went the cding way and long story short here I am.

[Jeanine]

I liked to play sports in grade school, but I was only an average player so I was never selected for any of the school teams ... So, I wasn't really a sissy in school but I have Gynecomastia and started to develop feminine breasts at age eleven ... I was unmercifully teased, called ugly names, and otherwise harassed by all the other boys in the locker room and by a few of the girls in my grade school class who said I should get a bra ... In seventh and eighth grades, and thru all four years of high school, I showed movies for the Audio-Visual Department to avoid taking physical education classes ... My crossdressing began at thirteen when I discovered that my oldest sister's
36B bras fit like they were custom made, no "stuffing" necessary ... And in a couple weeks time I had progressed to wearing lace panties, stockings, miniskirts, sexy dresses and pumps with four inch spike heels at home when Mom and my three sisters weren't home.
Hugs-N-Kisses to all,
Jeanine

[naw]

Wasn't popular or unpopular. Didn't compete in sports. Girls only were allowed in years 11 & 12 and couldn't help myself at liking their knee highs and plaid skirts :daydreaming:

[cdpam02]

I was quite the opposite. I was pretty macho as a younger man. THe sensitivity I hid allowed me to identify with those who were subject of cruelty by others. I 'm proud to say I came to their defense often. I was a jock and class officer so I could get away with it w/o revealing my own secrets.

[lizzie]

When I was in school, I didn't really know who I was. I knew that I was _alot_ different from all the other boys, but I hadn't really come to terms with all the feelings I had inside. So I never really talked much, only spoke when I had to, to teachers, occasionally other people. Of course because of this I was picked on mercilessly, that only made me want to talk to other people even less. That was middle school, and part of high school, a good 5 or 6 years ago. Over the years I got better, more confident in myself, and nowadays I feel I can let my stranger, effeminate side out around people I trust, but I keep my walls up around everyone else.

[Sally2005]

In school I never quite felt like I fit in although I had friends and did guy stuff. I was pretty sheltered as far as sex and gender goes and was very shy around the girls even though as it turns out some found me attractive after all. I never liked gym because it was full of jocks and I wasn't great at any specific sport. I always got picked last in team sports... mostly because it was a popularity contest though. It was sometime in highschool when I started learning about gender and not until later that I started exploring with it and feeling guilt and really felt out of place in the world. Now after learning a lot about it and experimenting and gaining a lot of life experience I feel happier with who I am. There is nothing 'sissy' about this part of our lives for me anyways...it takes a lot of courage to CD part time and I also enjoy all of the very masculine things in my life. I just wish they were easier to fit together.

[Katheryn]

I mean what were some of the things you did in school that screamed that you were a sissy. And maybe some things that got you in trouble with the other kids.
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When I was in school I carried my books with my arm cross my chest, the way the girls did. I wasn't conciously emulating them, but the guys always had their arms down and their books just held in their hands. Someone noticed, pointed it out and I took a bit of heat for that, but the real CD'ing was so deep in the closet that no one knew.

It wasn't for decades til I told another human being what I was, expected to excoriated for it, but they were accepting.

K


In school I never quite felt like I fit in although I had friends and did guy stuff.

I always got picked last in team sports... mostly because it was a popularity contest though.

I never related to my guy friends totally, it was often like going through the motions. They'd talk sports and I wanted to have deeper discussions, but I learned that guys don't do that. Had more fun with my gg friends.

Oh, and yeah, I got picked last for sports too.

K

[Amy Hepker]

I was not a sissy in school, I fought to show I was as much of a boy as any other, how stupid of me.

[Stephanie Scott]

One of the interesting things about these responses is that it shows there is not much to hang your hat on in terms of types of people who crossdress. Everything across the spectrum is represented fairly equally.

As for me, I was, and still am somewhat complicated. I don't consider myself to be 2 persons but instead 2 distinct parts that make up the whole. As a guy, I am pretty masculine. Growing up, I played all different sports, excelled especially in football -- playing all the way through a 4 year career as a starter in Division I college football. In addition to football, I also played basketball and baseball through high school. I was very competitive and otherwise "fit in" the world of boys. It wasn't an act, though -- I was (and am) honestly your everyday guy. I wasn't trying to "over-compensate," as it were. I was no sissy.

On the other hand, I always wanted to play dolls with my sister, and my mother always described me as a very sensitive boy -- sensitive to how others felt. I had absolutely no mechanical ability whatsoever, didn't care a bit about cars, and was poor in math and science and good in English. I was painfully shy about asking girls out and despite my success in sports, I rarely dated. I sometimes wonder if people thought I was gay, but nobody ever said anything. (I was not gay, but given my dearth of dates, I thought some people might have thought so). I wasn't much of a "bad boy," which I believed did not serve me well in the dating department at that age.

The guy side of me, however, LOVED looking at girls in all their feminine finery because they were beautiful and I was physically attracted to them. The girl side of my LOVED looking at girls in all their feminine finery because they were beautiful and I wanted to look just like them! It's still that way today. I look at my wife when she's dressed up and think -- "Wow, she's really hot -- maybe we can have some fun later!" I also think -- "Wow, she's really hot -- I wish I looked that good!"

[Patti Girl]

I don't think I even knew the terms "sissy" or "effeminate" when I was in school. I went to an "all boys" high school so it was hard to associate with girls although I did participate in a couple of plays at the girl's high school.

I had experimented with some of mom's clothes as a sexual turnon. But that was the end of any crossdressing until I was in my late 40's and started to develop an interest in being feminine. After a divorce and a new wife who loves my feminine side, my interest has bloomed. I feel "right" being partially crossdressed and feel good about expressing a "somewhere inbetween" self.

But when I read these threads about people being this way from childhood, it really makes me question why I am this way. Is it because my male hormone levels have dropped?

Have I always been girly but never knew it, or do I really not belong here?:sad:

Patti

[PhillyGuy2Girl]

I was never a "sissy". I was an all american guy and still am. But I knew deep down that I had a little bit of a femme side because I always liked a few "girl" things. I like Days Of Our Lives,I love cats better than dogs and always admired women's dresses and lingerie and recently starting CDing. Right now I have a dress on with panties and my long curly blonde wig being Felicity. I have to start getting ready for work,watch the rest of Days and get dressed back to a guy. Have a good day girls.

Felicity:)

[JamieOH]

When I was in school I carried my books with my arm cross my chest, the way the girls did. I wasn't conciously emulating them, but the guys always had their arms down and their books just held in their hands. Someone noticed, pointed it out and I took a bit of heat for that, but the real CD'ing was so deep in the closet that no one knew.

It wasn't for decades til I told another human being what I was, expected to excoriated for it, but they were accepting.

K

I used to carry my books the same way... I also had more friends who were girls than boys.. The only time I didn't carry my books that way, was if I had a "rise" from catching a glimpse up the skirt of one of my friends... I went to a catholic high school, and loved to see the girls in their uniforms.. Tight buttondown shirt, and short plaid skirt.. Yummy, Problem was, I also wanted to wear their uniform.. I did manage to get one of my girlfriends I was seeing to let me try hers on while we were getting frisky in the supply closet.. That was fun... She got very turned on by it, which made me even happier to do it.. hehe.. But that's another story..

[jennifer41356]

I was pretty "normal" in high school..I wasnt the most populaqr but my Mom taught at the same school, so I met a lot of girls that way...I would hang out with a couple of them, we would go to this record shop every week....Also was quite friendly with a group of girls and we called ourselves the breakfast club, we each had a nickname of a breakfast item, I think I was Bacon

This would drive one of my friends bonkers, he was this athletic
guy, played basketball, and he was jealous that I would get all the attention, so I enjoyed hanging with the gals, they werent as gross as the guys, farting and burping:eek::doh:

anyway I didnt dress up in high school, just tried on my older sisters underwear and i couple of pleated skirts...I knew I liked being a girl, but didnt explore it until i was on my own

By the way went to high school 1970-1974..wow, i am old:violin:

[balletboy]

I attended ballet lessons when I was at school. Twice a week I had to bring my ballet clothes(black tights,black ballet slippers and leotard) to school with me and dreaded other boys discovering my interest in ballet.My other dread was that a girl at my school would join the ballet school I attended across town and tell everyone.The gilrs at my school ahd to wear grey tights with maroon skirts,white blouses and grey cardigans.I longed to someday openly wear a skirt ,blouse and tights.