Emotional overdrive

[Sarah...]

Ever since I allowed myself to accept who I am and also allowed myself to discuss this with my SO, I have just allowed my full personality to do what it wants. Feel what it feels. Say what it means without layers of self-preservation protection. This is instead of 25 years of only allowing out the bits of my personality that did not have any connection with my feminine side.

Now, the result of just being me seems to involve a whole bunch of emotional responses to just about anything - happy or sad, big or small, - and is like some sort of emotional hyperdrive. I guess for most it is just a normal human condition of being properly alive to oneself. Because I have stunted my personality for so long I've forgotten all this and now it's difficult to handle. Don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining - far from it, this is the proper me after all, and I really, really like it - but I do find it all quite difficult to handle. Has anyone else experienced this? If so, did you just get used to it or is it always like this?

I know that's probably a bit of an incoherent post, so apologies, but it's how it spilled out!

Thanks

Sarah...

(There'll be another roller coaster emotional episode along in a minute, so I'm off for a lie down!)

[DonnaT]

I guess there are times when I don't want my wife seeing me cry, like when watching something emotional on Tv or at the movies. There's still that little bit left that says 'men don't cry', but rationally, I know that's nonsense. She doesn't make any comments about it, as she knows I'm trans. However, that little tug-of-war between "the rational" and "what a man's supposed to be" still exists a little bit.

[Karren H]

Well I don't know... I've always felt like I'm me no matter what I'm wearing and hey... I cry!! Last night my wife and I were fighting over the tissue box watching Extreme home makeover! Lol. So don't get me started....

[Ruth]

Seriously, yes, when you come into your full personality, as when you accept and embrace your CD self, you have access to a greater range of emotions. It's happened to me and I guess I am used to it, relatively, but I still notice and I am very grateful for the way things have turned out.
I think it's becoming more OK for men to cry nowadays (at least in the UK), so any overt show of emotion does not mark you out as a weirdo. Not that it would bother me, the way I feel these days.

[Eileen]

Like Karren I have long felt like me, on matter what I was wearing and that me has always been a woman. Life is so much easier and more relaxed since I transitioned.

Eileen

[Kate Simmons]

Truely being in touch with yourself and your feelings is one of the greatest things you can experience my friend.:)