SilkyAlly
07-03-2008, 05:00 PM
Hey ladies :)
Im relatively new to not just this board but also being open with myself I like to CD. I tried wearing women's panties (a girl's I was seeing) last year for the first time and really liked it. However it took me a while to admit to myself that this was not just a one off, and a bit of a laugh and it really had some deep meaning for me. I only really came to terms with this in the last few months and decided to take the plunge and buy some panties of my own. I bought some online and it all sort of kicked on there, then I was picking some out in department stores and buying them (which was nervy but I did it). So for the last few months I have been wearing them around the house when I can (I live with my parents but they go away a lot, I dont really risk it when they are in, but maybe one week a month I wear them all the time.) I sometimes wear them out too, but if its somewhere with my friends I will wear boxers over the top (so if my jeans slip down theres a very obvious Calvin Klein logo rather than a pair of pink panties with "princess" on them lol).
Then I discovered here and its really opened my eyes. While I was always very comfortable about my panty wearing when I was on my own (as in I loved it and didnt feel guilty in anyway), I still felt I was a bit of a freak. But reading the great posts and stories of people on here has made me realise that its nothing to be ashamed of, its just part of who I am. Its not really something I feel I can be open about with everyone, but I feel a lot more reassured with myself :)
Anyway, finally getting to the point of the post (sorry, I love a good natter lol), im now wondering how much of a CD I am at heart. I can honestly say, I dont think I could ever see a day I dressed out in everyday life. Or indeed would want to. I have a great "guy" life which I really enjoy and im very happy and comfortable with my majority of the time masculinity. So, I would never want to give that up and am happy with my CD'ing being something I do for me (to let out the girl in me which is definitely there, even if she is happy being in the background). But at the same time, im thinking I would like to experiment with more extensive CDing. I guess before I came on here, I locked away other urges because I didnt want to admit to myself that I had them. But now I realise its okay to have them, I would like to explore them :)
The problem I have is though, on the couple of occasions I have gone beyond panties (fancy dress parties), there have been things I really did not like. Make up does not do anything for me really and after a while it felt uncomfortable, and I dont think I can see myself taking the time to learn how to do it myself. Also, I HATE bras! They feel so uncomfortable to me, I don't know how you ladies, put up with them! But on the flip side I really enjoyed wearing the stockings and sexy mini skirt and top combo I had on, I felt SO sexy in them. The heels were kind of fun after I had got used to them too lol
So im not really sure what it all means, I would like to examine my feelings further but im a little confused and unsure I guess. I was considering saving up some money and getting a makeover by one of the transformation salons near me, to see how I feel totally femmed up. But beyond that, im not really sure what to do. I can hide my panties in my room very easily, theres no danger of my parents finding them but if I start buying over garments then I will have no where to put them. Even if I do find somewhere (which to be honest, I could do, its not really a reason not to go any further....), im not sure if its right to only half CD and keep my face and hair totally masculine. Arrgh! lol
Sorry if I have rambled on, but I have felt some profound emotions since coming on here and while most are good, I am feeling a bit confused now. Im not sure whether this is normal for people like us, or whether im just weird. If any of you could give me some advice or experience of whether you have felt the same, that would be brilliant, I would love some sisterly advice.
Thanks for listening :)
Ally
xx
Im relatively new to not just this board but also being open with myself I like to CD. I tried wearing women's panties (a girl's I was seeing) last year for the first time and really liked it. However it took me a while to admit to myself that this was not just a one off, and a bit of a laugh and it really had some deep meaning for me. I only really came to terms with this in the last few months and decided to take the plunge and buy some panties of my own. I bought some online and it all sort of kicked on there, then I was picking some out in department stores and buying them (which was nervy but I did it). So for the last few months I have been wearing them around the house when I can (I live with my parents but they go away a lot, I dont really risk it when they are in, but maybe one week a month I wear them all the time.) I sometimes wear them out too, but if its somewhere with my friends I will wear boxers over the top (so if my jeans slip down theres a very obvious Calvin Klein logo rather than a pair of pink panties with "princess" on them lol).
Then I discovered here and its really opened my eyes. While I was always very comfortable about my panty wearing when I was on my own (as in I loved it and didnt feel guilty in anyway), I still felt I was a bit of a freak. But reading the great posts and stories of people on here has made me realise that its nothing to be ashamed of, its just part of who I am. Its not really something I feel I can be open about with everyone, but I feel a lot more reassured with myself :)
Anyway, finally getting to the point of the post (sorry, I love a good natter lol), im now wondering how much of a CD I am at heart. I can honestly say, I dont think I could ever see a day I dressed out in everyday life. Or indeed would want to. I have a great "guy" life which I really enjoy and im very happy and comfortable with my majority of the time masculinity. So, I would never want to give that up and am happy with my CD'ing being something I do for me (to let out the girl in me which is definitely there, even if she is happy being in the background). But at the same time, im thinking I would like to experiment with more extensive CDing. I guess before I came on here, I locked away other urges because I didnt want to admit to myself that I had them. But now I realise its okay to have them, I would like to explore them :)
The problem I have is though, on the couple of occasions I have gone beyond panties (fancy dress parties), there have been things I really did not like. Make up does not do anything for me really and after a while it felt uncomfortable, and I dont think I can see myself taking the time to learn how to do it myself. Also, I HATE bras! They feel so uncomfortable to me, I don't know how you ladies, put up with them! But on the flip side I really enjoyed wearing the stockings and sexy mini skirt and top combo I had on, I felt SO sexy in them. The heels were kind of fun after I had got used to them too lol
So im not really sure what it all means, I would like to examine my feelings further but im a little confused and unsure I guess. I was considering saving up some money and getting a makeover by one of the transformation salons near me, to see how I feel totally femmed up. But beyond that, im not really sure what to do. I can hide my panties in my room very easily, theres no danger of my parents finding them but if I start buying over garments then I will have no where to put them. Even if I do find somewhere (which to be honest, I could do, its not really a reason not to go any further....), im not sure if its right to only half CD and keep my face and hair totally masculine. Arrgh! lol
Sorry if I have rambled on, but I have felt some profound emotions since coming on here and while most are good, I am feeling a bit confused now. Im not sure whether this is normal for people like us, or whether im just weird. If any of you could give me some advice or experience of whether you have felt the same, that would be brilliant, I would love some sisterly advice.
Thanks for listening :)
Ally
xx