when did you decide?

[susan2010]

At what point did you decide "gee, I really am a crossdresser?' Instead of just thinking you're someone who occasionally likes womens' clothes or underwear. For me, it wasn't until I hit my 50's, and was in therapy. Then I had to talk about it to others (not family or an SO).

[TommiTN]

Just recently when I could no longer fight off She Who Must Be Obeyed, although I have CD'd off and on since I was about 14, and had fantasies about it much earlier. In men, as we age, our testosterone levels drop off which leaves our estrogen levels proportionally higher. This is why you see a lot of middle aged men growing boobs, even if they're not helping it along with hormones. I think this may have something to do with why many of us get serious about CDing. The propensity to CD, however, must needs to have been innate since childhood. No scientific evidence, just a theory developed from observation.

[RobynGirl]

I have to agree with the part about aging. I am 55 and over the last year I have felt more and more like a woman inside. I am always checking out other women as far as what they are wearing, etc. And now I am dreaming of what it would be like to be with a man. I really love the thought of srs.

Robyn:eek:

[Emily Anderson]

Hi Susan,

You might get some insight from this thread: http://www.crossdressers.com/forums/showthread.php?t=85516

[Mollyanne]

In my case, it was when I was in my early 20's. And to be honest I embrace it more everyday now that I am much older(sigh). And yes I would dress everyday if I could and probably transition.


:love: Mollyanne

[leslie ann]

a long long time ago, i think ive allways known that i was a crossdresser

[TommiTN]

I have to agree with the part about aging. I am 55 and over the last year I have felt more and more like a woman inside. I am always checking out other women as far as what they are wearing, etc. And now I am dreaming of what it would be like to be with a man. I really love the thought of srs.

Robyn:eek:

Many of us have those fantasies. I don't fanatsize about it unless I'm en femme and I have no desire for srs. When in guy mode the thought never crosses my mind. Something akin to split personality syndrome?

[CD Susan]

I knew that I was different from the rest of the boys at age five. I can't remember when I first heard the term crossdresser or transvestite but when i did I knew that was what I was. I was relieved to know that there were others out there that were like me. For a long time I thought that I was the only one who did this. Growing up in the 50's and 60's was difficult. There was little information out there before the internet came along. We are all so much wiser now because of this.

[Toni_Lynn]

To be quit honest, I decided, or at very least began to figure things out when I was 14. As I said in another thread, back in 1971/ 1972 there was no internet as such, and no real support. Obviously I couldn't ask my mum because of her obstinacy and hateful attitude. So I relied on the book Everything You Always Wanted to Know About Sex, a book that did more to mis-inform me than educate me. After realising that I am not gay, as the doctor tended to class us, or as weird as his descriptions of crossdressers where, I kind of had a talk with myself. The halcyon summer of 1971, in which I considered myself a girl in all but that genital incongruity was seriously pondered, and I simply came to say, it is what it is -- I like what I like, I'm normal, its fun, I'm just me -- oh, and by the way -- sit on it and spin, Dr Ruben (author of the aforementioned book) -- I like girls!

Huggles

Toni-Lynn

[jill s]

About 11 or 12 I found the word "Transvestite" in a medical book(old one), I think this book still talked about Homosexuality as a curable condition. Anyway it scared me so bad I would tell myself that this is the last time I will dress up every time I did it. That went on for 30 more years or so.

[Kimberly Marie]

Well 40's and therapy for me...... And another topic...... I think it was all the hormones they put in are food for years. That contributed to men's breast's......hehe.....:)

[Sherry-Stephanie]

About two weeks after I started (which was about 4 months ago) and got some stuff collected and was able to dress up with heels, wig makeup and women's clothes...once I tried it I said dang this is good!!!! and it was all down hill or errr forward from there.....never came to the I am as much as it was I want to crossdress....just the way it was for me....no pain no guilt..just a jump in and I tried it and loved it....I just had to make sure I didn't look like Bozo the clown....once I was satisfied that I didn't and I was ok with my overall appearence it's been non stop forward on CDing....

[renee k]

In my case, it was when I was in my early 20's. And to be honest I embrace it more everyday now that I am much older(sigh). And yes I would dress everyday if I could and probably transition.


:love: Mollyanne

I'm like Mollyanne, although it did start for me in my teens. And if I didn't marry and have children. I probably would have transitioned. Just wish there was more information and the internet back then.

Huggs, Renee

[bridget thronton]

Around 10 years ago (I was in my 40's)

[SweetCaroline]

I've wanted to dress up as a girl pretty much my entire life, and was dressing regularly for as long as I was old enough to be left alone. The teen years were, however, filled with a lot of doubt and uncertainty. There were many atemps to purge or stop dressing. It was early adulthood, around 19 or twenty, that I finally accepted the I was going to continue dressing for as long as I was able. I was old enough then to travel away from home on my own. I started growing my hair out. I had a job, so I could stop borrowing my sisters things and start buying my own, and I've been doing it ever since.

[Selene EV]

Total acceptance came about 4 or 5 years ago in my early forties. I've been dressing for as long as I can remember. In the beginning there was a certin amount of denial. As I got older I didn't really accept or deny what I was but I had a hard time putting that label on myself. Then came my forties and a certain clarity came over me. I am completely at ease with being a crossdresser (or transvestite, it dosen't really matter to me). I like who I am, I love to dress, and I know I'm never going to stop. It's amazing how much better you feel when you accept yourself. I know it comes at different times for different people. I just happy that my time came.

[Karren H]

About 40 years ago.... When I was 16.... I was looking at a LIFE magazine and read an article on Transvetsites in NYC... I knew then that that whas what I was... or wanted to be... lol I had been crossdressing for 9 years by then...

[Lidia_tv]

Early enough. I was in my late teens, and I was hooked and admitted it to myself. No regrets since.

[Jilmac]

I have loved the look and feel of a dress ever since the first time I wore one at age 7. I was in the experimental stages of crossdressing, sneaking three sisters' panties and bras until age 15. Then after I lost my second sister to a freak accident, I dressed completely in her clothes to feel her spirit. At that point I knew that dressing was a calming experience but thought I was wierd for loving to do it.

About that same time I heard the word TRANSVESTITE in reference to males who wore females clothes. I didn't want the stigma of being a transvestite but didn't know any other term. I think I was in my early twenties when I read a Dear Abby from a male who secretly wore women's clothes, and in her reply she refered to it as crossdressing. I liked the term crossdresser and was more comfortable using it than transvestite. So for me it was around age 22 or 23 that I decided that I was a crossdresser, and I've been crossdressing ever since. (And still loving it). Luv and :hugs: Jill

[Deelite]

Like most here, it hits you from an early age, (for me about 6 or 7) wearing shoes, boots, underwear and various bits and pieces from your mothers/sisters wardrobe but to be honest i only have been "fully" dressing for the last few years (35 now) meaning wigs, underwear, makeup etc - the full monty.

Now i am living on my own (last few months) and i am embracing my CD'ing more and more each day, having the luxury to dress when i want - and yes its fab!

[bobbi sue]

i always knew that i was a crossdresser or the term i first heard was transvestite,but was always in some sort of denial thinking that it would probably pass.the same as thing as alot of the other ladies say the older we get the strong the feelings become,this is when you either embrass this wonderful gift or keep fighting it.personally i have embrassed the whole me and would want it no other way.:love:

[laura.lapinski]

I don't really remember the day. I always got turned on by putting on some article of womens clothing, but I never had the desire to go out in public. It was just a private thing I enjoyed that turned me on. I started very young, but never thought about it that much. It wasn't until a few years ago I started to wonder "Why do I do this" and thus began the quest to answer that question. Somewhere in there I stopped and said to myself, "I'm a cross dresser." I think it was when I realized that I had all these fantasies that a lot of others had too. I don't have all the answers, but I understand a lot now.

Laura

[Veronica Nicole]

As for me in my early teens didn't know what is was called I just thought I was wierd or crazy. Did alot of purging in my early years, then I guess in my late 20's or so I searched the internet and found out I wasn't the only one who liked to dress. As for labels never really liked any of them I'm just a person who likes to dress in womens clothing. I finally came to terms of what I am when I told my SO it was a big relief and she was very accepting and understanding.

http://www.veronicanicole.com

[TGMarla]

I think I acceted that in myself sometime in the foggy days of my teens back in the '70s. I really don't remember.

[Kayla Shadows]

Last year it really starting sinking in for me.

[ArleneRaquel]

I became a woman 24/7 three years ago. Just dressup, no surgery. :)

[Juanita O]

Hi all

I guess that i haven't really decided yet if i want to be a women full time, I guess that i am SCARED to let my female side come out completely, it was my up bringing that men were real men and women were women.

[jennifer41356]

1985 when I started buying panties and stuff, 1990 when i decided I want to spend all my free time as a lady:drink:

[Sarah_Knight]

Being here has got me thinking a lot ... dwelling on my early life and wondering if my urge to crossdress started early than I supposed. In my introduction post I mentioned I first started to crossdress as a bedroom game with my girlfriend in my teens ... which was the first time I actually put on girl's clothing.

However thinking back I remember in junior school a student teacher arriving to help out in our class. She wore really colourful tights and boots ... I was so taken with these I imagined what it would be like to wear them. I also remember that I wanted a leotard just like the girl's wore for PE and ballet classes. I remember walking past a sport's shop on the way home from school everyday and looking at several leotards (plain black and a red one) ... feeling a small thrill and wishing I had the courage to go and buy one.
I must have been about 8 or 9 at the time. I even remember thinking "If the world was ever to end ... and nobody else was alive but me, I would come here, break in and get those leotards!" how bizarre!

[Angie G]

I never tried to fight Angie off. Though Angie as she is is just almost 3 years old the dressing as it always was is almost 50 years old. I didn't dress for a few years in my teens started again about age 21 or 22. I never thought I should not dress in thous
I just didn't got busy I suppose. I think it was I wasn't home enough to dress.:hugs:
Angie

[Nicole Erin]

I decided a day after I joined this forum that I am a CD.
You see, I never had those feelings before but I came to this forum and wanted to fit in so I started CDing.

[Samantha43]

I started cross dressing in my early teens. Like some others have said, it was a confusing time for me. I went to the library and did some research and discovered what I am. I have embraced it ever since.

[Chiana]

At what point did you decide "gee, I really am a crossdresser?' Instead of just thinking you're someone who occasionally likes womens' clothes or underwear. For me, it wasn't until I hit my 50's, and was in therapy. Then I had to talk about it to others (not family or an SO).

I remember dressing up as a pre-schooler. I'm sure it was as early as 4 or 5 years old. I didn't think that what I was doing was unusual or taboo at all. The first time I realized that what I was doing might not be "right" or "normal" was when my Mom reacted negatively to my saying "When I grew up I want to be just like Beverly". Beverly was a couple of years older and she lived accross the street from us. That incident was when I was almost 6 years old. I can't really say when I came to grasp the term crossdresser. It was probably when I was pretty young. But it wasn't a light bulb coming on thing for me. We didn't have the internet back then and things like crossdressing just weren't discussed in daily conversation. I remember being blown away when the news about Christine Jorgenson broke. I was really intrigued. That was when I was 7. I used to dream about following in her footsteps.

[emmicd]

I started wearing girl's clothes when I was 5 years old.

When did I realize I was a crossdresser?

That is a very good question. I realized I was going to be wearing girls/womens clothes or need to when I started saving my money from my paper route to buy girls underwear when I was 12 years old.

I didn't know the term crossdresser at that age though.

I graduated on to buying womens jeans and dresses when I was 22 years old after graduating college and starting my career.

I realized I was a crossdresser at that time but went through phases and purging cycles with my crossdressing with some lenghthy periods of non dressing.

But as fate would have it I could never really end my crossdressing and really began to embrace it in my mid 30s.

I am a crossdresser and I am very happy to admit so!

emmi

[Carissa B.]

I have always enjoyed my feminine side, from an early age of 5, through the teen years and into my adult life, but it is taken a while to understand the complexity or different directions that It can want be taken. Learning to enjoy the experiences that come with cross-dressing when out in public, (good or bad) is what where i am at. Everyone may have a different comfort zone based on the environment and the experiences. For now, At the age of 51, crossdressing has become a comfort zone with good experiences.

[WildLotus29]

I decided I was really a CD a few weeks ago. I was trying to surpress the feelings but it just became too much and I had to give in to them. It feels good to be me! :D

[mike47]

I would have to say my late thirties. Wishing I would have started earlier but no problem. Now I just enjoy and get dressed as often as possible.

[Donnawannabe]

I was about 16 when it finally hit me that I am a woman in a man's body. I have three older sisters so I used to pilfer through their panties and bras when they weren't home. It was heaven.

[carolinoakland]

I started when I was in my teens, and it grew from there. At first it was sexually stimulating, and then it was more about the feeling of completeness. I got to the point where I knew I was a crossdresser after I'd purged for the fourth and last time. I knew that this wasn't a phase, fetish, when I started to do the whole route and go out there and be a girl. I've done more in the last two years than I have my whole life, and I still feel like I'm just standing on the beach of a huge ocean.

[Veronica 1]

I remember playing dolls with my sister and her friends at an early age but my first dressing experiences were wearing panties for a sexual thrill in my early teens and that carried on for most of my life until last year, when at 51, I put on my first slip, bra and panties. I knew within minutes that I was hooked as I had found a feeling that I had been missing all my life, although I did not realize it.

[Beth-Lock]

With me, it did not really develop until I was retired. It would not have been possible to really get into it at a really younger age, (except on the sly), because it was suppressed and considered a perversion, and a mental sickness, and we internalized that and repressed it, not even admitting to ourselves how big it was to us.
In other words, coming out was not really an option, (unless you wanted to get sent away, possibly locked up, and subjected to shock treatment, nausea treatment, etc.) If you don't believe me,. just read some of the psychiatric literature of the time. It was a time when whipping for possession of marijuana was only recently taken off the books. (The law had allowed whipping when entering jail after conviction, whipping half way through the sentence, and whipping again, just before you were to be let out.)
In short, those were brutal times for non-conformists. So the fact that a lot of older CD's were late bloomers, should not be interpreted as being only a result of their personal nature or development, or unreasonable fearfulness.

[joann07]

On Oct 14, 2006 at age 37. The night I went to my first Tri-Ess meeting.

[dominique]

In my early teens I started to feel relaxed over my dressing. From then on I've just gone with the flow and enjoyed where my dressing has taken me.

[Jonianne]

Hi Susan,

I started at 7 and understood what I was a few years later. I thought I needed to confess my "sin" to the church. I struggled with it until I learned to just accept myself when I was in my mid-thirties. I was in therapy also. I am 52 now and what a wonderful feeling it is to know that I am OK with myself and that God is OK with me!

[Ruth]

I remember at the age of I think 8 or 9 being envious of little girls wearing pretty dresses, but it didn't occur to me to do anything about it until I was in my teens, when I started secretly slipping into items of my mother's clothes. But then it seemed like a deviation and something I should try and stop. I definitely did not think of myself as a CDer in the sense of it being an habitual or permanent state.
The I started dating girls, got married, raised a family, all the while successfully suppressing this urge.
Then a few years ago, mid-50s, whether it was hormonal, midlife crisis or whatever, I caved in and said to myself, this is what I've always wanted to do, better get on and do it before it's too late. The children had left home so it was easy to make private time to do it. I bought my first dress and undies - I guess from that purchase was the point when I admitted that I am a CDer. Soon I revealed all to my wife and the CDing has gone from strength to strength. Now I have a wardrobe full of Ruth's stuff and dress regularly.

[cdmindymi]

Like most of you I started out dressing young, back then I never heard of transgrender. In fact for the most of my life I though of my self as a bisexual just because I like dressing. It wasn't intell my 40's and I got online with my first computter. Once I found out that I wasn't the only one, I felt alot better about my self. After that I start to learn about tgs world. As for when did I start to call my self a transgrender, about 45. Because what has been going on in my world it has taken my another 5 years to accept in my hart as fact. yea I can be kind of slow at some thing :brolleyes:

[LeotardMan]

At first I thought it was a phase that everyone went thru, I stopped for a few years but kept getting drawn back in. I think I really officially accepted and realized I was a CD about eight or nine years ago when I got my first leotard for myself. And about six years ago I went on an online shopping spree!!

Geoff

[susan2010]

Thanks for all your comments. There are some a bit like me and some different. For decades, I was only interested in underwear...no wigs, shoes, dresses, make-up, but as I hit my 40's and 50's I became more interested in doing more and admitting it wasn't just sexual pleasure, Maybe the hormone and aging theory has something to it.
Susan1974

[Katheryn]

Instead of just thinking you're someone who occasionally likes womens' clothes or underwear.

I thought that was what a crossdresser was, someone who liked to wear women's clothes being born a male.

K

[karynspanties]

I have known I was differant since I was a child. I have dressed in one form or another all my life. I did not really embrace the fact and actually develope Karyn until about 7 years ago. I will never turn back. I will never purge again. Karyn is here to stay..............look out world, here I come.

[maid phylis]

when i was a kid i started doing what all of us have done,i started putting on my mothers stockings and then wearing her girdle toghether with them.back then i didnt know what a cd was and i thought i was the only one in my world.there were times when i would go up stairs to my aunts house and try on her nylons and her shoes.when i got older i went into the service and even out there in the ocean i had got a stocking sent to me by my girlfriend and when i was off duty i would go into the head and put it on.but not untill i was married and finally got a computer did i discover that there were many more like me out there and also groups that helped people like me.but not untill i got into my 50s that i finally surrendered to my feelings that i just loved to dress like a woman and stopped purging my clothes.then i told my wife what i was and i have been derssing and going out to the city and enjoying myself.life is short so dress up and have fun:love:phylisanne

[bah-bah-bobbie]

Despite all the shoes, dresses, skirts, and blouses I've collected over a several year period, I didn't fully admit to myself that I am a crossdresser untill I joined this forum. I lurked around for weeks before signing on. And I signed on because I asked myself "who do I think I'm kidding? How can I deny what I've been doing for 95% of my life? LOOK IN THE #@!*&^$ CLOSET! WHAT KIND OF PERSON DOES THIS?" So I faced facts and completly underestimated how much I would enjoy sharing a piece of my life with others like myself.

[tricia_uktv]

It was when my Father died. I always knew I was a cd, but somehow that sad moment opened me up

[jackie_p]

It was when my Father died. I always knew I was a cd, but somehow that sad moment opened me up

Like you Tricia, I began to accept myself as a CD when my mother
died back in 2001. Started to feel like life is too short to not enjoy
yourself while you're here!

[curse within]

I was just about 5 years old, started wearing my younger sisters panties and dresses. My mom caught me and told my step father who then forced me to wear them again but outside and in front of my two older brothers and neighbors.:o

[whitelace]

Hi Susan,


Probably before the word crossdresser was coined from about 12 yo I knew I was special and refered to myself as a "tranvestite" from the reading that I had done
I had to go to nyc to find others like myself. and ended up doing so

It's been an awesome journey. I've enjoyed the gift. hugs....lacie:battingeyelashes:

[PhillyGuy2Girl]

When I was 16, I played dress up with my GG cousin who was also 16. I enjoyed it very much. When I grew a little older,I didn't dress but always supressed the urge because I thought CDing being associated with being gay which I'm not. Then early this year with the help of my wife, I just let Felicity out. I always knew I was a CDer and now I'm happy that I have an outlet.

Felicity :)

[zae]

Hi Susan,

sitting here now reading everyones posts and thinking back, I must have been at least 5 maybe 4 can't really remember, too far back, that I was trying my mother's freind's boots clothes etc, I CD when every I am alone, at home when wife and child are out, it only really hit me this week that I am a CD.

Z

[susan2010]

Zae:
Just this week?
That's great. Welcome to the club.
Susan1974

[onowic]

I've always had a little bit of "girl envy" when I was young, but thought I grew out of it. Especially when my career finally got going and I noticed there was a lot of truth to "same work, more pay" cliche. However after my children were born and the SO got to leave the career track and focus on the home and the family and I realized, in my opinion, that she got the better end of the deal, I started to seriously take a look at my innerself and my personal incliniations.

However, since someone mentioned hormonal changes as we aged, I did start taking Propecia about four years ago and was immediately saddled with mood swings, hot flashes, and the occasional migrane. It certainlly wasn't on the warning label but a little internet research confirmed I wasn't the only one experiencing it. Apparently it's kind of like anti-testosterone.

Still I didn't start wearing feminine underwear till two years later, not too long after my first child was born. She has my facial features and eyes and having myself stare back at me from the other gender may have stirred something that long lay dormant in me as well.

The bottom line though it that it's taken a secure relationship and a secure masculine identity and career, then some personal turmoil, depression and unhappiness for me to work up the courage to try something else to see if I can figure out what the missing piece of the puzzle is in my self.

[sexy_cd]

I guess i dont really know what point i am at right now. I am still experimenting.

[DonnaWanna]

For me, I think it really sank in when my ex wife was yelling at me that I was a "damn transvestite".
However, It was more or less confirmed when I met my present gg girlfriend, who I think read me from the start.

I love her. There should be more women like her.

[Janailene]

I started wearing Mom's clothes when I was 5. Around 10 I heard Dad talking about Christine Jorgensen, a transsexual. I thought that I must be a transsexual because I had not heard of transvestites. By 12 I was able to fully dress to the point that I could take our dog for walks as Janice. By then Dad had died and I was a latch key kid. I fully dressed 3 to 5 days a week. At about 15 I was aware of transvestism and was not sure if I was TS or TV.

At 27 as I returned from the service and lived on the other coast. I had to try being female constantly and did so for about 7 months. ( Biggest problem was worring about the size of my hands) It was then that I realized that I was a Cd and not a TS. If there had been the internet back then (now in my late 60"s), I would have realised that I was a crossdresser a lot faster.

[Tina B.]

[QUOTE=Janailene;1388277]I started wearing Mom's clothes when I was 5. Around 10 I heard Dad talking about Christine Jorgensen, a transsexual. I thought that I must be a transsexual because I had not heard of transvestites.

I remember I was just a yong boy when i saw a picture on the cover of "Life" , I think it was, of Christine, and her story. I keep that mag in my closet for a long time, and read it many times.
I have dressed from a very young age, but back then didn't know it had a name, when I first heard the word Transvetite, I had to look it up in a dictionary to find out what it was, there was no listing in that book, for that word. So I broke it down to Trans And the best I could find for the rest was Vest. Trans to cross or cross over, as in Trans Atlantaic crossing, Vest and article of clothing!! the lights went on, cross over to womens clothing. there was a word out there that fit what I was doing! That must mean I am not the only one. The "good old days" where the "dark ages" Thanks to the internet the clouds have lifted, and I see a lot of us now!

[RikkiOfLA]

In my mid-forties, when I had my angioplasty. Recovering from that, I had time on my hands, and got to thinking. Up until that time, I'd always been in a vicious cycle of dressing and purging, with a lot of guilt, shame, and fear. After the operation, I realized my life might be half over, and everything I had done had been to please other people; now it was my time to be happy. I really wanted to come home from the hospital in women's clothes. I didn't get to do that, but within a few weeks I had thrown out all my male underwear (nasty stuff!) and was starting to really understand that at the core of my being I'm female.

Since that day, I've never looked back. I love being me!

Blessings,
Rikki

[Dixie]

I heard the term crossdresser for the first time when I was 13, wasn't till I was 16 or 17 that I fully understood what the term meant, but it wasn't till I reached 20 and my former SO encouraged my crossdressing, that I finally accepted that that is what I am.

[Sarah...]

I've decided twice, unfortunately. First time when I was about 14. By 18 I had decided I had some serious gender issues that needed addressing. Then I chickened out of the whole doctor and therapy thing. That led to about 10 years of denial before re-approaching the whole idea of self-acceptance and another ten years before reaching the stage I'm at now of being happy as a TG individual, though with a few issues still to sort out.

Sarah...

[Susan Watersfield]

I'm in my late 50s, but I've known that I've wanted to dress in women's clothes since the age of 13. However, in those days I had no idea that it was not uncommon. I just thought it was me.

As I grew up the interest in dressing never went away of course. But the occassional spot of dressing was enoughfor me.

But as we all know the desire never weakens, it just gets stronger.

Reaching my mid-50s, and now living on my own I started dressing on a more regualr basis, and discovered that actually considering myself as woman become an important aspect of it.

Now I dress almost every day, and happily consider myself as transgendered and a crossdresser.

Do I want to go any further? The answer is generally no. The are still aspects of my male life that I enjoy and wouldn't want to give up.

However, there are days when the idea of going full time becomes quite attractive. So, who knows where this will eventually lead?

But whatever, I am so enjoying the journey.

Lots of luv

Susan

[Sharon B.]

I knew I was a transvestite in my twenties but thought I could make it go away by getting married in my late twenties.
HA, it just made it worst for me as I would intersect stuff that was headed for charity. Strap on heels and bra's. It wasn't long after that that I started to get brave or stupid and was seen by her sister-in-law one morning completely dressed as a woman, then all heck broke lose.
Now divorced for over sixteen years and yes I have come to realize and have accepted myself that I am a crossdresser always have been and always will be.
Just wish I would have accepted myself sooner.
I often think about being with a man or dominate woman while I am dressed as a woman and being or asked to service them.

[Claire Cook]

I dressed in my mother's clothes -- in the closet of course -- probably 60 yrs ago (makes me five then). I always thought about wearing female clothes. My first time out, probably 30+ years ago. For the past three years, I try to dress at some point every day. Now it's more than eer.

Claire

[donnasweetheart]

I may have confirmed that you are a CD, but you already knew that, you just needed to know that it was OK and nothing to be ashamed of. I love the Donna in you, and I think she has sexy legs.

[Dragonfly]

Wanted to be, about 4 days ago. Actually became, about 2 days ago.

But I have fantasized about being female for about 15-18 years. I just never had the privacy needed to pursue it.

[Sakura Rini]

when i was in my young teens when i would almost every weekend try on my little sisters clothes. but i did really hit me until about a year ago when i order some dresses off the net

[Dragonfly]

:o Chibimoon Boy...I just saw your avatar...

I am so jealous you wouldnt believe it. How I wish I had the figure to do a chibi/lolita look :o

[curse within]

Thanks for all your comments. There are some a bit like me and some different. For decades, I was only interested in underwear...no wigs, shoes, dresses, make-up, but as I hit my 40's and 50's I became more interested in doing more and admitting it wasn't just sexual pleasure, Maybe the hormone and aging theory has something to it.
Susan1974 Susan I agree, I was listening to a talk show that had a DR. can't recall the name about this issue . I recall her saying " every culture has had some form of crossdressing dateing back years and years. But today it has became a larger number of boys wanting to be girls" The reason she claims are the chemicals , Hormones in the food we eat to the laundry soap we wash our clothes as playing the major factor and contributer. She claims she has proof and can back what she say's the reason so many males today are going through CDing and or have become CDs. She also has a book out I wish I had the name would love to read it.

[Kimberly Marie Kelly]

But the desire to dress up fully is only a couple of years now. I always wore panties and feminine athletic pants, leggings and such for 35 + years but since my separation/divorce 10 years ago I've been cognizant of the fact that I am a crossdresser, that I enjoy dressing up.

Now I dress up at home as soon as I get home from work and get out for walks everyday. I wear more and more feminine items to work as times goes by, Spandex pants, feminine blouses (Polo Tops) that are pink but could pass. I always wear thongs.. And like others dressing up relaxes me. :battingeyelashes: Kim

[Sandralatv]

I knew I was attracted to lingerie from a very young age, maybe around 8-9. I remember waiting for the one full page lingerie add in the Sunday NY Times magazine section every week

MY sister was sort of a big time lingerie model, but back then it was really only Fredericks that was big. VS wasn’t around, but she did allot of normal commercial work so I couldn’t walk into a woman’s store without seeing my sister in a bra. But what’s funny is this never had an impact on me wanting to put on lingerie, but it any other ads and pics sure did.

Through my teems and early twenties, I would from time to time, get some article of clothing to hide and wear for a while.

But what triggered my full commitment to it, wig, shoes, make up, going to clubs, actually started when I had a bi sexual experience, and decided I liked it.

Something inside me clicked and I knew that I wanted to really experience being a woman.
Dressing is one of the most powerful experiences in my life and I always wish I could do it more freely than I am able. At the same time, I have always just remembered to accept what I can do and try to live it then.

[PamelaTX]

Shortly after I joined this forum I started accepting the truth about myself. I've been dealing with this by denying everything and doing my best to ignore it, and I'm sure I would have retreated back into that except for one thing. I decided to get back in touch with an old friend I hadn't seen in many years. I went to her website to get her E-Mail address, and saw a memorial to her daughter who had died a couple years ago from a congenital defect.

I had met her daughter several times, and was utterly stunned by this. I couldn't do anything but sit there and cry. Before accepting the truth about myself I would have forced myself to stop, because it wasn't manly. But instead I said to myself, "I'm part woman too, so I can sit here and cry if I want to." I knew then, that that was the person I wanted to be.

[dresser1974]

I was in my twenties when I said i was a crossdresser I was will my now wife and she has been with me and very supportive

[darla_g]

i was in my twenties

[Celeste]

I wish I could have accepted it a little younger when I was a teen.People were so intolerant of anything out of the norm.After a divorce 4 years ago and learning how to reconnect with myself I've allowed desires to resurface and learned to be at ease with it,I really feel if someone is offended then they have issues they need to deal with

[Tiffy]

I think for me I was nearly 25 before I knew I was not broken and there were others like me. It was not long to follow that I understood I was and am and always will be a crossdresser.

Tiffany

[Bethany_Anne_Fae]

I've always adored women's clothes, particularly the victorian, gothic, but didn't foray into CDing until 97. I've only admired the exterior clothing, the underthings... not even interested.

Zara

[Claire3]

18 years ago after getting married and finding out my childhood desires were still with me

[lazytara]

it was probably around 14 or 15 when girls clothes really started to get my attention. I really just got curious and wondered how it would feel to wear girls clothes. Then I found different sites on crossdressing and I've been hooked ever since.

[Amy Hepker]

Many years ago, I do not remember when. I would say in my 20s

[Jennifer in CO]

For me it was like falling in love. You never know the date you fell in love with ***, you just know at some point that you are and can't live life without ***. Same for crossdressing. I'd say it happen'd when I was 10/11 over a 3 week period I spent with my cousins (all girls) and spent the entire time as a 4th girl in the family (very long story). I'd grown up to that point a sickly child. I never played outside/rough-housed with other boys (or anyone for that matter) and stayed inside most of the time so I thought of myself as a girl anyway since I did everything in my life with other girls. I honestly thought of myself as TS before I settled on CD...then went back to TG/TS for almost 6 years then back to CD...then cold withdrawals to "guy" (that sucked) for 8 years and now back to CD.

We are defining a CD as someone who cross dresses for other than sexual purposes?

Jenn

[janexx]

Susan,

My mother asked me to wear her dancing shoes, to stretch them, when I was arround seven - I never looked back!

Middle years were dificult as I grew to be 6'. Now I am entering my 60's dressing as a large Granny seems more easy. No body takes much notice of a lady, however well dressed, who has white hair, I can go out in my own hair very well if I havent had a haircut for a few week.

Altenativly a pale blond wig, of conservative style, that matches my eyebrows does not raise much interest.

As my wife and I are now semi retired I get few chances to dress which hurts a lot. I could never tell her and dont realy want to - I like Jane as a close, personal thing.

Once you have enjoyed dressing it never goes away. I think it was something of a sexual thing years ago but now I am sure it is a comfort thing as when dressed I feel so relaxed and comforted - and real - as Jane.

Jane is always inside me which can be a little confusing.

Does this help at all?

Love,

Jane