AKAMichelle
08-14-2008, 03:02 AM
On Monday I took the first step to getting out of the closet. I was absolutely terrified. It was the scarest thing I had ever done. I had walked late at night in women's clothes from the neck down, but nothing more. I have driven in the safety of the car over 50% dressed for years, but I had never shaved my beard off until recently. Then came this week everything changed. :D
I had been buying a lot of clothes so I could pick and choose and make outfits work. BTW, it's expensive being a woman. I might have to tell my X one day that I'm sorry I fussed so much about what she spent on clothes. But that is for another day. On Monday I realized that all of those clothes were doing me no good hanging in the closet. Those clothes needed to be put to good use. So I got dressed from head to toe. I didn't do a very good job with my makeup, but it was a good college try. So off I went to Walmart. Tried to avoid everyone that I could., but one lady said hello to me. As I look back on that moment, I realized she didn't bite or yell crossdresser in the store. She was nice and said hello. I was the one having a coronary. :devil:
So tonight I decided that I would try it again. This time I was going shopping. I spent over 1 hour in Walmart shopping walked right past multiple people. The only problem occured when I had to go to the bathroom and I left the basket outside the restroom. When I returned the Venus Breeze razors were missing, and I really needed them. Needless to say I acted like I belonged in the store. I had every right to be there like everyone else. So I got to do my shopping and then realized that I had to go to bed. :sad: Next time, I'm starting earlier in the day so I can have more fun.
So if you are thinking about getting out that front door, remember all of these stories and just do it. You will never be able to go back. I have remembered this quote for years now which I feel is very relevant to getting out of the closet.
"Man's mind stretched by a new idea never goes back to its original dimensions." Oliver Wendell Holmes
I had been buying a lot of clothes so I could pick and choose and make outfits work. BTW, it's expensive being a woman. I might have to tell my X one day that I'm sorry I fussed so much about what she spent on clothes. But that is for another day. On Monday I realized that all of those clothes were doing me no good hanging in the closet. Those clothes needed to be put to good use. So I got dressed from head to toe. I didn't do a very good job with my makeup, but it was a good college try. So off I went to Walmart. Tried to avoid everyone that I could., but one lady said hello to me. As I look back on that moment, I realized she didn't bite or yell crossdresser in the store. She was nice and said hello. I was the one having a coronary. :devil:
So tonight I decided that I would try it again. This time I was going shopping. I spent over 1 hour in Walmart shopping walked right past multiple people. The only problem occured when I had to go to the bathroom and I left the basket outside the restroom. When I returned the Venus Breeze razors were missing, and I really needed them. Needless to say I acted like I belonged in the store. I had every right to be there like everyone else. So I got to do my shopping and then realized that I had to go to bed. :sad: Next time, I'm starting earlier in the day so I can have more fun.
So if you are thinking about getting out that front door, remember all of these stories and just do it. You will never be able to go back. I have remembered this quote for years now which I feel is very relevant to getting out of the closet.
"Man's mind stretched by a new idea never goes back to its original dimensions." Oliver Wendell Holmes