deakane
09-25-2008, 02:27 PM
Hello again all. I haven't been here in a while, hope all is going well with everyone. Anyway's here's my story.
I had been going to counceling for a while and after some testing was diagnosed with post traumatic stress and the goodies that go along with it like generalized angzity,depersion and insomina. I was completely honest with my counceler, I answered everything and told everything, well almost everything. One day I spilled the beans about my CD'ing and she was cool with it and we talked about it. A few months went by then we seemed to hit a wall. I was doing everything I was asked to do and even doing research and stuff on my own but still no progress. About a month or so ago somehow CD'ing came up again. This time I didn't just spill the beans, I dumped them all out and threw away the can. For me, CD'ing isn't about the clothes or doing the forbiden or anyother reason, its what feels right to me. Between the 3rd and 5th grade somewhere, I started looking at my body and how I felt. I guess the easiest way to describe what I saw and felt was something like getting dressed in the morning and putting everything on backwards, including your shoes. I did some research at that time and found out about sex changes but found that in that time, early 80's, it was only being done in Sweeden I believe and was about 40k to do and was still in its early stages and had like a 30 to 40 percent or less chance of comming out right. So I wrote that idea off, untill about a month ago. So my CD'ing looks like it is comming to an end because it looks like there is about an 80 percent or more chance that I will be having GRS or SRS surgury(which ever term you like).
So at this point there is only a few things stopping me, my kid and wanting another, close friends and how they will take it, and the area I live in. I know the area I live in should be a factor but its a small town and everyone know everyone and both me and my familly are both very well know in town seeing as we used to own a few business and have all been born and raised here for 5 or 6 genarations. The last factor is the cost. I can come up with almost a never ending list of reason to do it and if handed the pills to start the process, I wouldn't think twice about taking them.
So anyway thats my story, and yes Im sticking to it!
Sorry for the long post.
Deakane
I had been going to counceling for a while and after some testing was diagnosed with post traumatic stress and the goodies that go along with it like generalized angzity,depersion and insomina. I was completely honest with my counceler, I answered everything and told everything, well almost everything. One day I spilled the beans about my CD'ing and she was cool with it and we talked about it. A few months went by then we seemed to hit a wall. I was doing everything I was asked to do and even doing research and stuff on my own but still no progress. About a month or so ago somehow CD'ing came up again. This time I didn't just spill the beans, I dumped them all out and threw away the can. For me, CD'ing isn't about the clothes or doing the forbiden or anyother reason, its what feels right to me. Between the 3rd and 5th grade somewhere, I started looking at my body and how I felt. I guess the easiest way to describe what I saw and felt was something like getting dressed in the morning and putting everything on backwards, including your shoes. I did some research at that time and found out about sex changes but found that in that time, early 80's, it was only being done in Sweeden I believe and was about 40k to do and was still in its early stages and had like a 30 to 40 percent or less chance of comming out right. So I wrote that idea off, untill about a month ago. So my CD'ing looks like it is comming to an end because it looks like there is about an 80 percent or more chance that I will be having GRS or SRS surgury(which ever term you like).
So at this point there is only a few things stopping me, my kid and wanting another, close friends and how they will take it, and the area I live in. I know the area I live in should be a factor but its a small town and everyone know everyone and both me and my familly are both very well know in town seeing as we used to own a few business and have all been born and raised here for 5 or 6 genarations. The last factor is the cost. I can come up with almost a never ending list of reason to do it and if handed the pills to start the process, I wouldn't think twice about taking them.
So anyway thats my story, and yes Im sticking to it!
Sorry for the long post.
Deakane