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Phyliss
10-16-2008, 07:38 PM
So the EMT says “ Nice toes, where’d you get ‘em done?”

Two quick questions come up. Why is somebody looking at my toes? How come it’s an EMT asking the question?

Back up to early Monday morning. Came back from the gym after an easy 2 miles on the treadmill and some weight work with some of the resistance machines. Feeling pretty good about my self and getting ready to take a shower.

Strange feeling in my chest. Must have pulled a muscle or something, I’ll just sit here for a moment. Dang, it’s not getting any better, in fact it seems worse. Maybe if I lay down for a minute and stretch it out it’ll be OK. Nope no luck there either. Hmmm my left arm feels fine. RATZ , wonder where the aspirin is hiding today. Hope it’s still in the kitchen closet where it normally is, don’t want to go looking for it. Bingo got it, grab 2 and swallow them. Wait a few minutes and nothing happens. Seems to be getting worse, in fact, it hurts like I just got kicked by a mule. Not a tightness or unable to breathe but a sharp pain dead center of my chest.
Lay on the bed and nudge wife, “Honey, I think you better call somebody, I’ve got a problem” Very calmly she picks up phone makes the call and gives out needed information, location, my age, my weight, my condition, follows directions to get 4 baby aspirin and have me chew them. I only live about 2 miles from hospital so it didn’t take them long to get to me.
Fortunately I had gotten ready to take a shower, so all I had on was my robe. Not that I would have cared about being found “underdressed” at that time, but I think I would have been upset when they cut my bra off, ($50 bra sliced up in half a second, enough to give a person a heart attack)
So they begin their routine of taking care of me. O2 mask, needles with some kind of stuff, stand by with electric paddles, ( which they didn’t need) and all kinds of other items. Put me on a back board to carry me out of the bedroom and place me on the stretcher. I have a small bedroom and of course four people in full turnout gear trying to carry me doesn’t allow for much room. One of them had the bright idea of bringing me out head first, so they proceeded to turn the board around, and of course you just know they dropped me. Didn’t fall far but still it was a bit exciting on top of everything else happening. Don’t know if any bra strap marks were showing from my sport bra or not, but like I said I didn’t really much care at this point. They covered me with a blanket to carry me down the steps out to the ambulance. Once in the wagon one of them asked me about my toes. I told them where I had them done. No question of why I did it just where I had them done. Reddish orange color and a cute little pumpkin with a witch hat painted on each big toe.
The rest of the day is kinda fuzzy. Ya think. Drugs and lots of them being pumped into me. Local hospital had me transported to the big regional for a catheter insert. Placed two stents in the main artery. I guess it was a bad blockage.
Usually a person has a heart attack and they’re told to loose weight, eat healthy, and exercise. I’ve been doing that for 4 years and now I have the heart attack. Don’t that just “frost” you. All that work and eating bland whole wheat toast and I have a problem. Talk about really upset.
So, I sorta come to after the insertion and the “happy juice” is wearing off. Can’t move my right leg. OH, OH what’s wrong? “Why can’t I move my leg?” I ask the nurse standing over me. We have it immobilized to prevent any bleeding from the insert point. “Hey it’s my heart not my leg that’s the problem” she says “The catheter was inserted through the main artery in you leg and fed up to your heart” Quick remembering of high school biology and I realize what happened. OK I guess.
Feel something hard wrapped around my lower torso in the groin area. Can’t see it since I’m laid out flat. feel it with my leg hand and it’s some kind of plastic thing that I can only describe as a large “C” clamp with a half ball pressing down on me. “What’s this thing?” she says “It’s a fem stop” I know I’m still woozy but did I hear that right, and how do “THEY” know? “A WHAT?” “A fem stop” “Uh what does it do?” not really wanting to hear the answer, but maybe the scalpel slipped and “IT” got cut off accidentally. She says “ It’s a clamp to put pressure on the Femoral Artery to prevent bleeding. “Oh Ok”
I kind of found it strange that even in a drugged up state I’m thinking about girlhood, I must be farther “along” than I thought.
Fitful night trying to sleep with them taking blood every hour to monitor me and checking blood pressure, “here wake up and take this sleeping pill” A bit more coherent in the morning and I want OUT NOW!!! Threaten to hold my hospital gown closed with one hand and use the other to hitchhike home if they didn’t let me out. Talked with Dr. and explained in terms that left no room for doubt about wanting out. Finally convinced him I’d be careful at home and rest up there. He agreed to let me go. IF I started taking PLAVIX and LIPITOR for prevention. Called wife and said to bring me some clothes that I was leaving. About an hour later she showed up with some clothes.
Here is the silver lining in all this. Open the plastic bag to find sneakers, jeans, shirt, stockings, panties and bra. Bless her soul. I had figured she would have gone to K mart and picked up some white gym socks and a pair of jockey shorts for that.
Instantly felt better than any kind of drugs they could have given me.

Holly
10-16-2008, 07:51 PM
Wow, Phyliss... glad you're okay. It must be annoying at the very least to have been taking such good care of yourself and then have all this happen. Well, at least you didn'y lose your bra!

Missy Anne's GG
10-16-2008, 08:00 PM
Hi Phyliss:

That is quite a story! I'm glad you're home recuperating. I had to laugh at how well you wrote it, especially the "fem stop"!

Hope your sense of humor helps you make a speedy recovery.

Take care and hugs,:hugs:

Anne

Christinedreamer
10-16-2008, 08:17 PM
A year ago I had severe pains across my back between the shoulder blades and the doc thought it was a precursor to a heart attack. Off to the ER, then to Nuclear Medicine. They injected me with a radioactive dye (brought in by a guy with a geiger counter and a small lead box) and scanned my heart and major blood vessels in the chest. They monitored me for a day after the tests all came back OK.

Turns out it was a severe case of constipation brought on by taking too much Vicodin for back pain. Not ODing, just didn't realize that Vicodin wil constipate you. The pain is the same according to the docs so they act to head off a possible HA.

While in the room after the test, a nurse assistant asked me about the slight red marks on my chest and shoulder.

I had a bra on prior to going to the ER but the marks don't fade that fast. She came in several times over the next few hours checking BP, meds, etc and finally on her last visit before the shift change, she asked me if she could ask me a question. Sure I said.

She asked about the red marks so I took a deep breath and told her I was a CD and they were bra strap marks. She said she thought so and was really intrigued. She asked if she could come back after she punched out and talk and as I was awake already, why not. She came back with a couple of cokes and set down in the chair and we talked.

I thought she was in trouble when the supervisor came in and saw her but I said we were friends from school (thinking fast on my back) and we were catching up on old times. We talked for about 3 hours during which she told me she sees "us" frequently in the ER and all too often it is due to violence against us and sometimes suicide attempts. Occasionally, a TG comes in just because of an accident, etc. and she assured me that it no longer fazes the staff.

She also started to open up about her 16 year old brother who, it turns out, is one of us. She started to tear up when she admitted she treated him so mean and teased him when she found out but she promised she would take a totally different tack now and try to talk with him and apologize. She told me she never gave him a chance to share his feelings with her and now she realized how unfair and painful that was for him.

I gave her my email address to give him and we have talked online and on the phone several times.

God works in mysterious and interesting ways to help people. I hope I have been a help to him and to her that they can "pay it forward".

Christine

kay2
10-16-2008, 08:27 PM
Phyliss - glad to hear that things worked out. I hope all goes well.

Christine - an amazing story. You did a good thing.

mykhelee
10-16-2008, 09:54 PM
I have a friend who is a trauma nurse, most of the TG'S he see's are because they were assaulted by the good ol' boy club.

Sammy777
10-16-2008, 10:38 PM
Phyliss - Very funny telling of a serious day. I'm glad that things ended up good for you.

Christine - that is a great story. Thanks for sharing that as well.

Oddlee
10-17-2008, 01:54 AM
So the EMT says “ Nice toes, where’d you get ‘em done?”

Strange feeling in my chest.

Congratulations on your survival, Phyliss! My similar story does not have the same ending, as I was mostly in the closet last summer. I was out on my usual bike route last June. Coming up to an intersection my chest was burning and my vision was graying out. Of course, I had just climbed a hill, come back down, climbed another short hill and was trying to keep up with traffic at 25 mph downtown - not unusual to have burning lungs here... The graying vision was something new, and I seemed to have problems with balance, so I pulled off the road, into an alley, and rode up next to a wall. Leaning against the wall and holding onto my bike, I was able to dismount without falling over, and sat down, assuming that I would catch my breath and be able to see properly in short order... Then I laid down, with the same thought. Then a good samaritan came along, offering to take me somewhere. I passed out trying to get up to get in his vehicle. He eventually gets me home, and I agree to him calling 911. Within about an hour, I have my own stent. The next morning, talking to a nurse about pain levels, I note that mine is increasing and my heartrate is decreasing. Oops, it's another attack (but I'm in the right place this time). So within another half hour, I have 2 more stents.

About clothing... I was in cycling gear - I remember the first night as they pull off my cycling shorts some comment about "Lance Armstrong pants." Anyway, after all this commentary, there is absolutely no relationship to CD'ing - my daughter, who did not know at the time, brought me stuff to wear home 5 days later when I got out of the hospital (she knows now, and doesn't care one way or the other - just gave me some lip gloss last weekend). I'm back into exercising, and figure I'm at about 90% of where I was before the attack...

Again, my story has nothing to do with my cross dressing. I am just pointing out, I guess, that you never know. The clock can stop at any instant. Be at peace with yourself and those who are important to you - don't worry about the rest of humanity; they won't care either.

Lee

Phyliss
10-17-2008, 03:31 AM
Christine, that was a beautiful thing you did. I wasn't asked "the question" and frankly I'm not sure how I would have responded if asked. I can picture the scene, and thank you for educating another person.

BTW I'm feeling fine today and I'm looking forward to getting back to work. I'll just be a bit more careful for awhile.

gabe
10-17-2008, 04:34 AM
Phyliss, so glad you are here to tell the story. Please take care of yourself. Your wife is wonderful and thoughtful.

Raychel
10-17-2008, 04:52 AM
Wow that is a pretty scary story, Glad it all worked out well. :hugs:

insearchofme
10-17-2008, 06:23 AM
Phyliss

I'm so glad you're feeling better! Just think how bad it would have been if you had not adopted a healthy life style. Keep exercising, with in your doctor's guidelines and stay pretty!

Andrea-B
10-17-2008, 06:55 AM
That is quite the story. Glad you are feeling better and kudos to your wife for knowing what you need on all counts.

A reminder to the rest of us to take care of ourselves for our own sake and the ones we love.

Thanks for sharing.

andrea

victoriamwilliams1
10-17-2008, 07:16 AM
Phyliss,
Glad you are home recovering.

Christine,
Wow! Made a couple of friends.

Lee,
Wow:)

Angie G
10-17-2008, 09:13 AM
Well Phyliss I.m glad your All right hun take care of yourself we want you here for a long time.:hugs:
Angie

PaulaJeanette
10-17-2008, 12:53 PM
Phyliss,

I am so glad to hear you are fine! Luckily, you recognized the signs and took the proper actions. Now, be a good girl and take the prescribed meds.

May you continue to live and experience the many joys of our feminine lifestyle.

Hugs,

PaulaJeanette

Karren H
10-17-2008, 01:47 PM
Damn Phyliss!!! That's aweful!! (Said as I put the chocloate bar back in the candy dish). hope your feeling better!! Guess I'm having another salad tonight.. I was in the hopsital Wednesday for my annual MRI... I hate it in there... Getting old sucks!!!

dianeleah
10-17-2008, 02:07 PM
Phyliss wow what a scare! Glad it turned out ok! Hope you're feeling better soon!

I had a accident doing a very manly thing over 6 years ago. Broke the leg and ankle, then I had a pulmanary embollism (sp?). Spent 6 days in the hospital. My ex-wife brought me a girly white nightshirt instead of men's pj's. The nightshirt came to just above my knees had a been standing up, of course it rode a little higher up on my thighs laying in bed. Docs, nurses,
x-ray techs, and anybody else who came into work on me (you loose all privacy in hospitals) no one said anything about my nightshirt, nor did they act like they cared. Although, it was quite embarrasing to me! But I was more scared and concerned about the embollism to worry about my nightshirt!

MsJanessa
10-17-2008, 02:22 PM
Glad you are ok darling---would hate to think of you gone---and you can thank all the work that you did exercising and dieting for the fact that you survived a heart attack---I'm suprised you didn't take the lipitor before. I've been on it for years now---hope you feel better xoxo Janessa

Brooke Smith
10-17-2008, 02:27 PM
So glad you're better Phyliss,take care of yourself. And yes Karren getting old does suck,but it is far superior to the alternative. Why the annual MRI? At $1000 a pop it must be something serious. I only need them after really hard crashes.

Shari
10-17-2008, 02:47 PM
Wow Phyliss. that was quite a story and I'm sure all here who have read it are glad it had a happy ending for you.
Being able to keep your sense of humor through it all probably helped you a great deal. Aside from the seriousness of your situation, you were able to inject a couple of lines that made me laugh out loud. The fem clamp and hope the scalpel didn't slip line were precious.
Now that you're laid up for a little while, you should give some serious thought to writing. You're very talented.
Again, glad all is okay.
Keep fighting back
Shari

pamela_a
10-17-2008, 04:10 PM
Phyllis,

I'm very happy to hear you are getting better. I know how scary that can be. I'm also glad you didn't let it get the better of your sense of humor. Studies show that a person's sense of humor oft times heals as well modern medicine so I'm sure you'll be back on your feet (painted toes and all) in no time.

.Christine. you go girl. That was a great thing you did specifically for that nurse and her brother as well as for all of us. Great job being a wonderful ambassador.

-Paula-

Phyliss
10-17-2008, 05:44 PM
Phyliss, ... Your wife is wonderful and thoughtful.

Yes she is and I spent the day thanking her today. Shopping trip to Avenue for a new pair of dress pants, then off to Payless for two pair of nice flats, (thanks to BOGO) and some new Italian Knee High stockings.


Phyliss

I'm so glad you're feeling better! Just think how bad it would have been if you had not adopted a healthy life style. Keep exercising, with in your doctor's guidelines and stay pretty!

Spoke to Irene on Thursday and she got mad at me for not calling her Monday night, sorry dear kinda busy at the time. BTW she's doing very well.


That is quite the story. Glad you are feeling better and kudos to your wife for knowing what you need on all counts.


Thanks for sharing.

andrea

Like I said I've thanked her many times over this past week


Well Phyliss I.m glad your All right hun take care of yourself we want you here for a long time.:hugs:
Angie

I intend on being around for 3 very good reasons
1. take care of my grandson
2. take care of my wife
3. simply be alive just to piss everybody else off


Phyliss,

I am so glad to hear you are fine! Luckily, you recognized the signs and took the proper actions. Now, be a good girl and take the prescribed meds.

May you continue to live and experience the many joys of our feminine lifestyle.

Hugs,

PaulaJeanette

A very good reason to "stick around" all those pretty clothes that have to be worn



Damn Phyliss!!! ... Getting old sucks!!!

Oh tell me about it, kid


Phyliss wow what a scare! Glad it turned out ok! Hope you're feeling better soon!

(you loose all privacy in hospitals)

Ain't that the truth, check your modesty at the front door.


Glad you are ok darling---would hate to think of you gone---and you can thank all the work that you did exercising and dieting for the fact that you survived a heart attack---I'm suprised you didn't take the lipitor before. I've been on it for years now---hope you feel better xoxo Janessa

Yes Mistress I will take better care of myself


Phyllis,

I'm very happy to hear you are getting better. ... I'm sure you'll be back on your feet (painted toes and all) in no time.

-Paula-

Can't wait to get out again

Thanks to everybody for all your kind thoughts.

Oh BTW in case anybody is wondering, never did see "The Bright Light" or find myself "floating above myself" Most of what I can remember is pretty well drugged up with a whole bunch of "happy juice" Glad they have that stuff, otherwise it might have been a bit painful .

Sherry-Stephanie
10-17-2008, 06:06 PM
Well glad you bite the bullet and had your wife call....trust me much better...

Also your eating fine and excersising....I don't I smoke and it's because of people who excersise still get whacked with HA....so if I'm going to go what the heck my time is up....

Anyway, take care and make your recovery go well....

Now let me say this about that.....EMT's Cops Fire people etc really don't care much about what color the toenails are what kind of BVD's or panties your wearing or any of that stuff that some of us get all concerned over....why well first of all since thye deal with all people from all backgrounds under all conditions they've probably seen it before and not once, not twice and not three times but probably a whole lot more....lets see ambulance or EMT run 15 runs a shift work 4 shifts so that 60 calls a week x 52 weeks no make that 50 weeks they do get vacation....so that come out to 3,000 calls a year....X's 20 years so that's about 60K calls they've been on...ans you think they haven't seen it before?????

Yeah they might talk to themselves about it as they're leaving and maybe back at the station but you'll be all forgotten within the week....it's really no big freakin deal trust me....it's just something that's out there....and something that makes the job just a little bit different from most other jobs...that's all.....Nurses are the same as well....people are people and things aren't always nice and neat....there's a little bit outside of "norm" and your turn came up...bottom line is glad your OK and wish you well.....

Anyway, that's the way it is....

Phyliss
10-17-2008, 08:16 PM
Sherry, hence the title of my post.

Knowing I was wearing only my robe for a bit of modesty for as long as that would last once they got hold of me, I just really didn't much care about the color of my toes at the time, had some more pressing "issues " going on.