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[Vanessac48]

I have now lived alone for 6 months. I work from home so I now dress about 20 hrs a day, and the other day I had to go out for Thanksgiving. On my way home I was literally shaking to get into my dress and makeup. Anyone else ever experience this need so strong? I have bought so much makeup, and dresses on ebay, I now have more women's clothes than mens clothes. I think in my mind now, I am a woman, because in a week of 168 hours, I am a woman probably 140 or more of them.

[my_murano]

I have now lived alone for 6 months. I work from home so I now dress about 20 hrs a day, and the other day I had to go out for Thanksgiving. On my way home I was literally shaking to get into my dress and makeup. Anyone else ever experience this need so strong? I have bought so much makeup, and dresses on ebay, I now have more women's clothes than mens clothes. I think in my mind now, I am a woman, because in a week of 168 hours, I am a woman probably 140 or more of them.


That could either be a red flag, meaning: warning warning, DANGER!
Or a white flag (surrender has occurred, accept yourself!).

Depends on where you are on the spectrum of TS/TV/CD I guess and if you think it is or could be a problem. I think some CDs would say there's some aspect of compulsion/addiction to dressing. Others, that dressing is part of who they are, their nature, and therefore isn't exactly a compulsive behavior. A high level of compulsion can definitely be behavior-altering and I think you want to make sure you don't start unhealthy behaviors. Excessive shopping has caused problems for me in the past, from a financial perspective. You may want to dig deep and work with a pro to determine where are and what's in your future: full-time cd'ing, MTF transitioning, or whatever.

As a CD/TV (and not a TS) I have gone on dressing marathons before, though not regularly and not for extra-long periods of time. But during my marathons, I secluded myself from friends and family (for me, it was always very secretive) and the "real world" in order to spend excessive time online... So, in my case, I'd say being anti-social is unhealthy.

Well, I hope you can get some insight, but none of this is actionable advice -except for working with a professional [counselor/therapist], which I hope you do if you think it could be problem. If not, dress and live freely!

May

[Tess]

On my way home I was literally shaking to get into my dress and makeup. Anyone else ever experience this need so strong? I have bought so much makeup, and dresses on ebay, I now have more women's clothes than mens clothes. I think in my mind now, I am a woman, because in a week of 168 hours, I am a woman probably 140 or more of them.

Sounds more like an addiction/obsession to me. Getting the shakes thinking about doing a behavior is something that might happen to me if I was going to do something I felt I shouldn't. Anyway, how many GG's wear makeup when they are alone and aren't going out?

[Vanessac48]

Thanks for all the thoughts. It's strange, but I used to feel like a crossdresser, and had fun doing it, felt so good to get in makeup, and a sexy dress. Now I feel so relaxed, so me when I dress. I love the feeling I have, finally being able to be a woman. My thoughts now are quite different. I feel like I am crossdressed when I have to take my makeup off, and put on men's clothes. It feels unnatural now. I've dressed as Vanessa so much, looked at myself so much as a woman, I'm starting to feel like one, and I love the feeling. It seems the more I see myself as a woman, the more I realize that is the real me. It is hard to come to grips with, but deep down inside, I have to admit, this is who I am, and I love the feeling to finally admit it to myself, it makes being a woman, as hard as this sounds to believe 100 more times enjoyable than just crossdressing ever could. Now the next step, getting the courage to explain to everyone else in my life, that I am truly a woman inside of a man's body.

[lauraabdl]

Thanks for all the thoughts. It's strange, but I used to feel like a crossdresser, and had fun doing it, felt so good to get in makeup, and a sexy dress. Now I feel so relaxed, so me when I dress. I love the feeling I have, finally being able to be a woman. My thoughts now are quite different. I feel like I am crossdressed when I have to take my makeup off, and put on men's clothes. It feels unnatural now. I've dressed as Vanessa so much, looked at myself so much as a woman, I'm starting to feel like one, and I love the feeling. It seems the more I see myself as a woman, the more I realize that is the real me. It is hard to come to grips with, but deep down inside, I have to admit, this is who I am, and I love the feeling to finally admit it to myself, it makes being a woman, as hard as this sounds to believe 100 more times enjoyable than just crossdressing ever could. Now the next step, getting the courage to explain to everyone else in my life, that I am truly a woman inside of a man's body.

Good for you girl, there are so many of us out there that are still struggling with this issue, its nice to see a girl comming to grips and moving on in her life, you go girl and have fun, best of luck and wishes to you.
Laura

[Glenda]

I'm glad you're enjoying your time so much but hope that it is a healthy time. Living alone and working at home does provide a golden opportunity for femme time. EBAY and online shopping can help provide a big assist for fulfilling a lot of our needs. Just as, or maybe more, important, is interraction with others. I would only hope that you are not spending 100% of your time at home alone. If you are becoming the woman you feel you are and are spending more than 80% of your time en femme, then you must.....and I repeat must.....be presenting as your femme self outside your home. I don't care if it is the grocery store, gas station, corner store...whatever. You may not want to be out to some, but 80% means you have to be out there in some form or fashion.