helenr
12-05-2008, 03:55 PM
That 'lead' should get some attention. This morning I had an early morning PET MRI type study-kind of crazy, you get radioactive dye injected into a vein so that you 'glow' in this high tech PET machine that can provide info to the cancer MD,etc. Yes, I have a rare skin disease called Merkel Cell Carcinona-a little subborn sty-like growth on my eyelid was diagnosed as MCC--get those pesky things looked at when they are the size of a pimple-not a pea! (let the 'female' in you motivate you to see the MD sooner--not the 'male shell' that says 'it can amount to anything'.
As usual, I dress female underneath and I knew I wasn't to have any metal on my to interfere with the radiation machine. I couldn't find my Kathy Lee pull on ladies slacks and was told I could slide down my pants, there would be a blanket atop me.Well, the tech wanted to help and, somewhat embarassed I am sure, he saw my pretty yellow Olga petti pants and pantyhose in view instead of BVDs and hairy thighs! Normally, this would have freaked me out, super embarassed, but,to be honest, with malignant cancer, I don't really get upset anymore. He sorted of acted OK about it, what the heck, it's just a $3000. test going on!
If you wonder, why the H anyone would take this sort of risk. I am nearly 62, and want to wear what I want to wear. I think my days are now numbered in the hundreds, not thousands, so I don't care. I don't want to offend anyone-won't try to pass en femme (though I salute those of you who work hard at this and succeed and don't mean anything negative) and offend anyone's sensibilities. but 'underneath', I think I am entitled to let my heart and mind make decisions. I would go even more nuts if I had to wear male stuff underneath. Yes, I shave my legs and I think the Silk Reflections look great! hugs to you all and please keep your fingers crossed for me.helen
As usual, I dress female underneath and I knew I wasn't to have any metal on my to interfere with the radiation machine. I couldn't find my Kathy Lee pull on ladies slacks and was told I could slide down my pants, there would be a blanket atop me.Well, the tech wanted to help and, somewhat embarassed I am sure, he saw my pretty yellow Olga petti pants and pantyhose in view instead of BVDs and hairy thighs! Normally, this would have freaked me out, super embarassed, but,to be honest, with malignant cancer, I don't really get upset anymore. He sorted of acted OK about it, what the heck, it's just a $3000. test going on!
If you wonder, why the H anyone would take this sort of risk. I am nearly 62, and want to wear what I want to wear. I think my days are now numbered in the hundreds, not thousands, so I don't care. I don't want to offend anyone-won't try to pass en femme (though I salute those of you who work hard at this and succeed and don't mean anything negative) and offend anyone's sensibilities. but 'underneath', I think I am entitled to let my heart and mind make decisions. I would go even more nuts if I had to wear male stuff underneath. Yes, I shave my legs and I think the Silk Reflections look great! hugs to you all and please keep your fingers crossed for me.helen