Louise C
12-12-2008, 05:00 PM
Hi again girls!
Well, as you've probably already read, i went to the GP yesterday. - A really fantastic lady.
Whilst in the waiting room, it occurred that i was being completely insane and should just go home and carry on as normal. I nearly did. But i didn't. I had one of those experiences where my whole "wanting to be femme" life was flashing before me. Every little event.
An hour earlier i had shown my trusted GG work colleague my profile picture on this site.-
"Is it normal for a guy to want to look like this?" i asked, trying to prove my point about wanting to see the GP.
"Not really,- my god, you really look like a woman", she replied. and she has seen a lot of my pics this last couple of years. " Actually, i thought that you were looking really feminine lately anyway". She couldn't explain in what way, but was quite adamant about it. That's what made my mind up to stay and wait for my appointment.
Well, as already explained, theGP wasn't too clued up, but was supportive and very confident about what she should do.
"we'll have to learn about this together,....and i was hoping my next case would be a nice easy one!"
She took lots of notes and i told her whatever she wanted to know. The most difficult thing was admitting that i could no longer carry on with the norm, and felt my life was wasting away.
The fact my SO doesn't know how bad i am is very hard at the moment. She's going to be devastated and i really can't bring myself to tell her this side of christmas. I know you're all going to pick me up on this point, but i just can't bring myself to spoil what could be her last christmas with me as her husband. I plan to tell her the minute the holidays are over.
I had a call today from my GP.
Nikki B, you were right on the money:- she has to write a referral report to the Psychiatrist, in order for me to visit, - she told me severe cases of dysphoria are dealt with off island at Charing Cross Hospital.
I'm expecting to tick all their boxes.
Well, as you've probably already read, i went to the GP yesterday. - A really fantastic lady.
Whilst in the waiting room, it occurred that i was being completely insane and should just go home and carry on as normal. I nearly did. But i didn't. I had one of those experiences where my whole "wanting to be femme" life was flashing before me. Every little event.
An hour earlier i had shown my trusted GG work colleague my profile picture on this site.-
"Is it normal for a guy to want to look like this?" i asked, trying to prove my point about wanting to see the GP.
"Not really,- my god, you really look like a woman", she replied. and she has seen a lot of my pics this last couple of years. " Actually, i thought that you were looking really feminine lately anyway". She couldn't explain in what way, but was quite adamant about it. That's what made my mind up to stay and wait for my appointment.
Well, as already explained, theGP wasn't too clued up, but was supportive and very confident about what she should do.
"we'll have to learn about this together,....and i was hoping my next case would be a nice easy one!"
She took lots of notes and i told her whatever she wanted to know. The most difficult thing was admitting that i could no longer carry on with the norm, and felt my life was wasting away.
The fact my SO doesn't know how bad i am is very hard at the moment. She's going to be devastated and i really can't bring myself to tell her this side of christmas. I know you're all going to pick me up on this point, but i just can't bring myself to spoil what could be her last christmas with me as her husband. I plan to tell her the minute the holidays are over.
I had a call today from my GP.
Nikki B, you were right on the money:- she has to write a referral report to the Psychiatrist, in order for me to visit, - she told me severe cases of dysphoria are dealt with off island at Charing Cross Hospital.
I'm expecting to tick all their boxes.