jennydl
01-05-2009, 03:03 AM
Ok,I've been cd'ing since the age of 12.I have always wanted to be small,feminine and pretty.(still do!) I wanted to be a girl. In my twenties,I came to a crossroads,so to speak. I was severly depressed,all I could think about was ending this miserable existance.I would flip flop between going for full transition(srs) and suicide.So I decided,to heck with it,and started taking hormones.
After about 40 days or so on hrt,I was a different person. I was calm,relaxed
and thinking clearly.I realized that I didn't want to actually become a woman.
I only wanted the superficial aspects of womanhood.
I stopped hrt and was quite happy with my new sense of who I was.
"I AM A CROSSDRESSER" plain and simple.
In those early years I had no idea of what being a woman really meant.
All I could see was how much fun it was to wear all the pretty clothes.
Today I have a better understanding of what women go through and really admire them for their strength and courage,their ability to go through hell and come out smiling.Their compasionate and loving nature.
Truly God's greatest creation.
I still don't understand why I have the desire to crossdress but I feel like it has made me a better person because I have spent a lot of time looking within myself,paying more attention to those around me and how they feel
and how my actions affect others.
I would be lying if I said that I was completely comfortable in my own skin,
I'm not sure I ever will be,but I can say this,
I don't have what it takes to be a real woman and that's ok with me,
I AM A CROSSDRESSER and proud of it!
just don't tell anyone.lol
Jenny
After about 40 days or so on hrt,I was a different person. I was calm,relaxed
and thinking clearly.I realized that I didn't want to actually become a woman.
I only wanted the superficial aspects of womanhood.
I stopped hrt and was quite happy with my new sense of who I was.
"I AM A CROSSDRESSER" plain and simple.
In those early years I had no idea of what being a woman really meant.
All I could see was how much fun it was to wear all the pretty clothes.
Today I have a better understanding of what women go through and really admire them for their strength and courage,their ability to go through hell and come out smiling.Their compasionate and loving nature.
Truly God's greatest creation.
I still don't understand why I have the desire to crossdress but I feel like it has made me a better person because I have spent a lot of time looking within myself,paying more attention to those around me and how they feel
and how my actions affect others.
I would be lying if I said that I was completely comfortable in my own skin,
I'm not sure I ever will be,but I can say this,
I don't have what it takes to be a real woman and that's ok with me,
I AM A CROSSDRESSER and proud of it!
just don't tell anyone.lol
Jenny