Phyliss
01-22-2009, 07:13 AM
I’m reminded of the song by, Peggy Lee
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qe9kKf7SHco
History of the song:
http://www2.hawaii.edu/~lady/snapshots/peggy-lee.html
Also see, for more information:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Is_That_All_There_Is%3F
So, where’s this going?
I pretty much have the freedom, within reason, to dress as I choose. Wig, forms, skirt /dress and full bore makeup on occasion. Mostly the trilogy of undies, ladies slacks or trousers, bland looking blouse, ( no lace or frills ) low heels and light makeup. Wear a nylon nightgown / Pjs to bed every night. Hair in a ponytail most of the time ( done up high on the back of my head ). Toes always painted, and acrylic overlays with a light pink hue.
What’s not to like? In the past 4 years I’ve come so far “out” that I find it difficult to believe. Reading some of the postings by other members who can only dream of being where I am, I realize I’m so very fortunate and believe me I understand all too well my situation as it is now. Time was, just walking through the ladies section of a dept. store on my way to some place else, would send shivers through me. Today I feel “right at home” doing any sort of shopping or browsing, considered a “good customer” at some stores.
So, here I sit in my butter yellow nylon night gown with matching undies and a pretty sea foam green soft fuzzy robe, with comfy slippers, and wonder, “Is That All There Is?”
Would I like to go farther ( meaning transition ) at first thought … YES. Then reality kicks in and I realize that will NEVER happen. Too many question to answer, loss of friends, family, job problems, and on and on. Knowing that road is closed to me, I have to travel another path. I can see the road sign that says “Full time this way” but that one looks much too bumpy for me. There’s another that says “Keep going and see what happens”
I suppose I’ll have to go that way, but the scenery is becoming a bit boring, every day is more of same. I used to dream of “vanilla ice cream” now I can swim in it. I think I’d like a different flavor, or at least some sprinkles on top.
It’s early morning and I’ve only had one cup of coffee so I’m not completely “all there” perhaps somebody can understand what I’m attempting to convey.
Maybe my S.A.D. ( seasonal affective disorder ) is showing up again and this is why I sound a bit “down” . Gonna hit the “electric beach” at the gym for a few days maybe that’ll help.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qe9kKf7SHco
History of the song:
http://www2.hawaii.edu/~lady/snapshots/peggy-lee.html
Also see, for more information:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Is_That_All_There_Is%3F
So, where’s this going?
I pretty much have the freedom, within reason, to dress as I choose. Wig, forms, skirt /dress and full bore makeup on occasion. Mostly the trilogy of undies, ladies slacks or trousers, bland looking blouse, ( no lace or frills ) low heels and light makeup. Wear a nylon nightgown / Pjs to bed every night. Hair in a ponytail most of the time ( done up high on the back of my head ). Toes always painted, and acrylic overlays with a light pink hue.
What’s not to like? In the past 4 years I’ve come so far “out” that I find it difficult to believe. Reading some of the postings by other members who can only dream of being where I am, I realize I’m so very fortunate and believe me I understand all too well my situation as it is now. Time was, just walking through the ladies section of a dept. store on my way to some place else, would send shivers through me. Today I feel “right at home” doing any sort of shopping or browsing, considered a “good customer” at some stores.
So, here I sit in my butter yellow nylon night gown with matching undies and a pretty sea foam green soft fuzzy robe, with comfy slippers, and wonder, “Is That All There Is?”
Would I like to go farther ( meaning transition ) at first thought … YES. Then reality kicks in and I realize that will NEVER happen. Too many question to answer, loss of friends, family, job problems, and on and on. Knowing that road is closed to me, I have to travel another path. I can see the road sign that says “Full time this way” but that one looks much too bumpy for me. There’s another that says “Keep going and see what happens”
I suppose I’ll have to go that way, but the scenery is becoming a bit boring, every day is more of same. I used to dream of “vanilla ice cream” now I can swim in it. I think I’d like a different flavor, or at least some sprinkles on top.
It’s early morning and I’ve only had one cup of coffee so I’m not completely “all there” perhaps somebody can understand what I’m attempting to convey.
Maybe my S.A.D. ( seasonal affective disorder ) is showing up again and this is why I sound a bit “down” . Gonna hit the “electric beach” at the gym for a few days maybe that’ll help.