I have lately become much more interested in dressing and expressing the other side of myself. But I keep coming back to the reality that I will never be happy with myself even if i am "comfortable". I look almost comical when I do dress around the house and know that going out and such is never going to happen without serious changes in society and acceptance issues. So I keep going back and forth in my head about if I should continue to pursue this or just leave it on the back burner and just accept that reality isn't fantasy, as much as I'd like it to be. I am transgender and I accept that but I also know that I will never be able to do anything about it other than wallow in light misery about it.
Anyone else feel this way, any thoughts that may help me decide what I should do with myself? I love the feeling of a good pair of pantyhose and a skirt and heels but I just can't decide if it's worth the eventual let down that I feel after the short glow falls off. I'm at a loss of what I should do and am hoping for viewpoints I'm not seeing.
*EDIT* Didn't know of any section that this fit in so if it needs to be moved please do so.