Originally Posted by
Dana3
20 years United States Marine Corps 1975 ~ 1995.
For the most part as a Marksmanship Coach, Primary Marksmanship Instructor, Drill instructor at M.C.R.D. Parris Island, South Carolina (9 years total out of 20).
Initially 0311, Infantry, got out for 96 days, reenlisted into the 04 MOS (Logistics)
Dressing confined to the occasional here and there raiding the then wifes lingerie drawer and closet.
I believe in part I was attempting to deny, assert, earn, validate, prove, .........
My normalcy
My masculinity
Did the accompanying, seemingly required self deprecation, denial, loathing, purging, self contempt.
Picked up a nice little drinking habit attempting to drown and purge the "she in me" Guess what
Didn't and doesn't work.
Finally realized and figured out that a lot of my issues didn't stem from my having an attraction towards femininity, or feminine side, but due to suppression and denial of same. That a heavy handed social, cultural and religious conditioning in my youth (I'm from the Deep South)