Aren't you tired?

We went to bed last night at the same time and my wife went into the washroom dropped her clothes put on her PJs and hopped in bed in minutes. As she layed in bed I was getting undressed and we were small talking. I took off my jean skirt and top and folded the top and went into the other room and hung my skirt and put away the top nicely on the top shelf. I returned and took out my breastforms and went into the washroom and washed them quickly and put them in the box in a drawer next to my dresser. I then removed my ankle bracelet and earrings and put them away in the drawer on my night stand. I then got a hair clip and took off my wig and folded it nicely and put it in a bag. I was about to go into the other room to put the wig away and all at once I hear my wife "OMG your making me tired just looking at you, aren't you tired". She then asked how am I doing it, I have been working outside in the field in the cold and coming home late the last few weeks. But yet for whatever reason or whatever my brain is thinking I still seem to find the energy to get dressed and put everything away at the end of the night and do this almost every night. "Thats some powerful feelingI have" and then she asked me what is it that drives me to this, what are my feelings or what makes me do it instead of relaxing and not having to do all this extra work. She kept dwelling on what is it that when I come home tired that makes me want to dress like a woman, what am I thinking or feeling. Well I answered her I could only wish to answer that question and if I had a choice to trust me if I could snap my fingers and tomorrow morning I don't have these feelings anymore my life would be much simpler. But I told her one thing as I layed in bed with my silk nightie, I would miss this so much. I told her how much I enjoy being and feeling like a women even though it's short periods of time like I'm doing and its so much worth putting everything away.
We kind of ended it like that but I could only wish to find out what the driving force behind it all is, but in the mean time I believe we shouldn't think about it and enjoy the ride while it lasts.

Life would be so much simpler! Still, like you, Maria, I am sure I would miss it all.

Wow that was heavy!!

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So what do you feel that you are missing

Yup. Only one life to live. Enjoy it while it lasts.

You could save some time before going to bed by leaving the forms in place. That's what I do. I do put the wig away and remove lipstick and any makeup I may have put on. I leave my bracelets/anklets in place, too.

Seems like an obsessive behavior in many ways, right? If you took out the trappings of femininity and substituted model trains or Hummel dolls, the underlying brain chemistry may be the same. Getting dressed up releases dopamine in the brain, creating a positive feeling. One might receive similar rewards from the acts of getting dressed and later carefully putting neatly everything away. How and why anyone of us developed or were inclined towards this particular obsession is another matter.

Hi Maria :hugs:, Don't Knock it, Just enjoy every Second of your Female side,
You are so Blessed to have such a Special:love:Wife,

>>>>>>>Orchid**O:daydreaming:O**

Building off what kimdl93 said, some activities will boost a person's energy, while other activities will drain one's energy. What those activities are will be different for everyone. For a time, I had a job where I had to teach a computer software package to users. It was a two-day class. I know many people who would finding teaching that kind of class and interacting with various people stimulating. For me, I could do it, but it goes against my naturally introverted self, so if I traveled to to one of our sites for the class, I had to make it a three-day trip: two days for the class, one quiet day to recharge my batteries.

When I go out as Colleen, I experience an enjoyment and contentment that I don't get as my drab self. I expect, Maria, the cycle of getting dressed, spending time as a woman, and even your "rituals" of getting undressed give you similar enjoyment.

Maria, I understand the need to dress. I gave up a long time ago trying to determine why.

I'm sure that not too many folks have such a satisfying comfort zone to bask in. All pleasurable things have a business side.
Even a good day fishing required gathering up the gear, buying bait and getting that flask of Crown Royale ready for sipping.