Beyond Waves

Hi Gurls,
I have experienced something rather unusual for me. I have experienced the wave of crossdressing for many years as most of you have.
what is unusual for me is that the wave has disappeared and I feel like I am in an endless pink fog ...I feel like I need to dress in women's clothing all the time. I love wearing dresses, skirts hosiery panty's, bras forms, anything a woman would wear. My wearing of dresses and the like has mostly been in the house and occasionally outside on the farm when I think I can without getting caught.
The new thing is I just have a burning need to underdress all the time. I have bluejeans that I can wear in public, some womens tops socks, pantys bra ,even shoes that looks like manwear. largely undetectable. ( I have been very closeted).
I don't understand why this is happening. Has anyone else experienced anything like this ? should I expect this to be my new norm?
Help
Alanea

I can only speak for me, but I'm in the same boat. I think everyone has the ebbs and flows of the pink fog but mine is flowing much more than ebbing lately. I have no idea why it has started doing this, but I'm not sure I want it to stop. On one hand, I really enjoy the feeling of wanting to be dressed all the time, almost as much as dressing. On the other, I'm not sure what it's doing to my mind to deny it. If I could, I would embrace it, but I have to keep the wife happy. To answer your question, only time will tell. Hopefully you can work through it and enjoy the feeling.

I don't know about pink fog or waves, but I do know that my wardrobe has shifted over the last few years. These days, I always wear femme clothing when I go out anywhere, boot cut jeans, Dickies work pants, shorts, teeshirts, long sleeved tops..... All bought from the womens dept of stores. Always, or mostly wearing a sports bra under my tops, and always wearing panties. I have enough male clothing in my house for my final journey, and that's about it. Androgynous is the descriptive word, being en femme to satisfy the urge but looking male enough to satisfy family and public gaze.
The prettier stuff like dresses and skirts are worn at home, because I am still closeted.

I think there will always be the ebb and flows. Through my experience, anyway, I have always noticed that as winter nears and the daylight becomes shorter my urge/desire, or the "pink fog" becomes much stronger. Maybe because there is more time at home or that I'm not as active compared to the summer months. This has already started for me and now when I'm home I always have some sort of female attire on, make up etc. The legs have been shaved new clothes have been bought and Ricky is ready.

I am very much in the same boat, keeping the wife happy, and the family.
I am just having a time with it. I enjoy it immensely, however social norms hold me back somewhat. I wish there was a safe place that I could step out of the closet and not be judged, other than home but I don't think their is such a place.

I know the feeling Alanea, it seems like when I hit my fifties I felt the strong urge to wear womens clothing daily. I also agree with you that social norms restrict us from being ourselves I often wish I could meet up with my buddies for a beer wearing a skirt and cute top but theres no way that will happen anytime soon.

Sometimes it seems like I might be involved in a project or two and I can push the pink fog back a bit. But overall I think it is getting stronger as I age. Of course the fact that one can see they are not going to live forever plays into my thought process. There are things I want to do as I traverse this path. I start to care less about what others think, and this enables the fog all the more.

I have gone through the same feelings. I do not go out fully dressed, spending most of my time at home dressed. When I go out, I have stopped wearing men's pants as I find the fit of women's pants better. I almost always wear panties and a bra and have even gotten a small set of silicone forms to add when I know I will be able to go unnoticed. At home it is foggy most, it not all days. When I am out it is just a mist.

I dress at home every evening, night, and early morning. In total, I dress about 60% of the time. I also wear panties 100% of the time as lace panties are all I own - no drab underwear for me. Yesterday and today as the weather has been cool enough to wear a windbreaker, I also wore a lace bralette with small A/B forms. Additionally, whenever it's 75? or below I will likely be wearing thigh highs. While I hate cold weather, cool weather is my CDing friend. Since I've started dressing only about 5 years ago, the pink fog has never lifted. I am captivated by it and love that I am.

I wonder if we would underdress less if we could openly dress occasionally. Maybe this is true for me. I feel like my crossdressing urges have changed over time. I have heard others talk about it. So maybe any changes I have experienced is related to hormone changes with age.

Yes Alanea I would say it is your new norm - until you get to the next new norm - it seems to constantly evolve. I?ve gone from only underdressing including breast forms until out to my wife a few years ago. Then a lot of dresses at home and still underdressing but more obvious forms while out with her. Now moving to dressing every evening/overnight and for a while in the morning but more feminine casual attire- finally discovered leggings. No more urge to underdress in drab. I?m quite lucky as she told me a while ago to do what I want inside as it?s my house too. So this is normal for now.