Don't be too hard on yourself
Congrats on two fronts.
First, congrats on going to the interview enfemme in the first place. You really don't give yourself enough credit for just showing up and interacting with other people as your femme self. Give yourself a pick pat on the back for making it further than most cd's ever get.
Second, congrats on having a girlfriend who not only helps you with your make-up but is supportive enough to drive you to your interview. I can see how you would feel ready to work enfemme, when you have that kind of understanding at home.
Don't give up. When the right situation comes around try again. You are great example to the rest of us.
:hugs:
Maybe you aren't ready, but........
But what exactly is behind the drive to be dressed every day at work? Isn't work itself hard enough that it has to become some sort of proving ground for your makeover skills? Not to mention the time, effort and expense of daily dressing. For sure my skin would not tolerate a daily close shave plus foundation regimen too well.
For me, being trapped in a "Mrs. Doubtfire" situation where I was obliged to be dressed every day would poop all of the fun out of dressing. It would very soon cease to be anything special at all. I am a musician and I used to really feel special all tuxedoed up, nowadays it is just another hanger to reach for, and a pretty steep monthly cleaning bill.
All this to say, why don't you re-examine your dressing fully and answer a simple question about why you need to dress at work.? It may be better to have separate lives after all.