I'm now Really Out There

Well today I planned to out myself to my two closest (female) work colleagues. (History)

In a way it felt like the right thing to do, but in another way I thought I might be behaving quite recklessly. But in any case I felt I needed to do this.
The night before I printed out my best 12 photos, as I knew they would want to see the other side of me. We planned to meet at a riverside restaurant at 9:30. I arrived on time and my closest friend turned up shortly with the news that our other friend couldn’t make it, so it was just going to be the two of us. I was disappointed, but in the end this would prove to work out for the best.


So we sat down, overlooking the river and made small talk for a short time but it soon came to the time for me to tell all ~ and as you can imagine it’s difficult just to know where to start. I started off by saying how important it is not to tell anyone, because if she felt it would be okay just to tell one person, then that one person would also feel the same and so would the next one person… and it would go on and on. She assured me that her lips were sealed until I released her from the promise.

So I told her from the age of 12 I’ve felt I was transgendered. She was totally, totally shocked. She said afterwards she had absolutely no idea. When I mentioned about the fact that she and the friend had ‘said’ they thought I had wanted a sex change – she said that they hadn’t thought that was the case, but used it as an example of the only thing they could think of that was as big as I was making out it to be. They never guessed it could be for real.

She then went on to ask if I had ever ‘thought’ of dressing as a female?

I had to smile, as I knew there were another few shocks in stall for her. When I told her that not only had I dressed as a female I’ve been out in broad daylight to shops, female fitting rooms, cafés, casino, movies… the list is endless. There were still more signs of shock and disbelief on her face as she asked “But how could you ever possibly do all of that?”

Then I went on to say that recently, as a female, I checked out of a hotel, caught a cab to the airport, checked in for a flight, waited in the airport for hours visiting shops and a few coffee outlets and then flew home and checked in at another hotel on arrival. She still couldn’t see how that could be done and to be honest a year ago I would have agreed with her. When I then said “Do you want to see the photos?, she readily agreed.

So I took my photos out of the envelope and showed her the first one, wondering to myself, what on earth her reaction would be. Well, I wish I had taken a camera along.

I have never seen such a reaction in my life. She was totally in information overload. Her face was frozen for a few seconds in sheer disbelief saying “This is you???!!!”.. Then on to the next, “You look stunning, I can’t believe it, you look fantastic” She went through all of the photos … and then through them all again about three times over, saying how she could now see how I could do what I had done. She was still in deep shock, mentioning the make up, lack of Adams apple, the legs – and saying I looked so good as female. The only part of me she could recognise was my eyes, which are very blue. She went on to say if she had passed me in the street she would have never recognised me. All of this was a huge relief to me.

We talked more about my situation and it was soon very clear that she would do a lot more than just accept me. We spoke about me shopping as Suzy and she blurted out, “Yes, but now we could go out shopping together now!” – and we made a firm date for that.

This has gone better than I could ever have dreamed. Just accepting me is one thing but going shopping together is something else. I told her all about my forthcoming trip to the SCC in Atlanta and she is 100% behind me. We even spoke about the possibility of me going full time and said if I ever wanted to do that, she would be behind me and could see no reason why I couldn’t carry on with my present job, as she would support me and knows the customers would too.

We spoke about and she advised me on such things as Electrolysis, Wonder Bras, Face Care, and Eyebrow Shaping – the girlie list was endless. We ended our 2-hour talk with reference to my voice – asking what did I do when I needed to ‘talk’ enfemme. I told her I had that in progress as well as I was developing a female voice. Straight away she asked me to say something. I told her I didn’t feel comfortable doing that dressed as a guy but I would demonstrate it to her soon.

We finished on a high and we spoke about this new subject several times during the rest of the day.

On the way home I tried out my voice on her. I had been speaking to her a few minutes before hand on the ‘hands free’ phone in my car. I stopped the car in a lay-by, picked up the phone, dialled and she answered. In my best femmy voice I told her my name was Carol and I was calling from the operating theatre of Perth’s major Hospital. I told her we were having problems with our equipment. She asked if I had a patient on the table and I replied ‘Yes’. She then went on to say that I needed to speak to the company’s engineer and asked for my number at the hospital. I gave her a fictitious one and she said I’d get a call soon.

Ten seconds later, after I switched on the hands free set again, the phone rings. It’s my friend asking me to call Carol on this number as soon as I can.
I was laughing on the phone saying “ So did you like the voice?” …

“Yes’ she says, “It sounds like you are chewing something”

I was left a little disappointed as I thought I had been okay

But then after all that, she says, “So can you call Carol straight away as they have a patient on the table”. I then realised that she had been talking about my present voice and not the call I made as Carol – the penny still hadn’t dropped.

It wasn’t until I told her that Carol doesn’t exist ! and I had made the call that her shock sets back in again. She was impressed as I had to confirm several times that I made the call.

So that was my day, it had gone better than I ever could have dreamt. On top of the high that I was already on after flying I am really in the clouds at the moment.


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let me be the first to congratulate you!

Wow, so she really had no idea! You took a hell of a chance while working on the assumption that she already had some idea. It sure is a good thing that things worked out so well considering you were apparently mistaken! One thing you apparently were NOT mistaken about is the quality of your friend, who it seems was not at all put off by your surprise.
Congrats and well done yet again Suzy! Oh, now slow down woman! You go from hiding in the room, to shopping, to taking airplanes, to outing yourself to co-workers. At this pace your soon gonna be running for president, prime minister, or what ever you Australians have saddled yourself with for a government leader. :-)

I'm so happy for you. You have great friends. We all need friends like that.:)

Suzy,

I am so, so happy for you, hun !!! I can tell from reading your post that you had to have your head in the clouds after the meeting with your gal pal.......just the wording of your post said it all. Please keep us updated on how it goes with your other friend too (I hope she's just as supportive as the first one). Huge :hugs: to you Suzy.

BTW---I love the pics, hun !!

Alana

Thats a great story, I'm glad it worked out so well for you

Damn Fine Job Suzy!!!!:thumbsup: From the photos you posted it appears there isn't much else you need to do. Your looking as good as any Auzzie woman i met in my two visits (1978, 1986)to the Perth/Freemantle area.
My best, to you Mate, on being all the woman you want to be.:):battingeyelashes:

Congratulations to you Suzy!
Having good firends that know is very important and huge relieve for ur self.
I came out to my best female friend couple of months ago after she told me one of her secrets. I told her while we where chatting over icq (btw. she lives in my hometown area and i'm in collegetown). So i said i need to tell her my secret one day but i just think its not yet the right time to do so. But she just said tell it i won't tell anybody and i knew that she won't. Then i said that i'm going to send her a picture and i need her opinion. So send the file to her and she answers after a couple of minutes probaly staring at the picture: Who is this? And i replied that she has to look closely. OMG thats you! You look awesome! But what is this all about? So i started to explain her the usual questions about not intending of having a sex change and so on. To cut a long story short we agreed on meeting the next following weekend and i explaind her everything she wanted to know. And now she is fine and she even asks me sometimes if i have new pics to show her :)

So all the best for u and your time a head Suzy! :love:

Shannon

Now that's a success story! :thumbsup: I think your shopping trip is going to be the icing on the cake. :)

Congrads......sounds like it went very well. Mabey she can help you break the ice with your other friend, since they are friends too.

Good for you Suzy gald it went well for you. you are such a great girl and I hope things keep working out for you.:hugs:
Angie

Hi Suzy I am so glad for you that telling your friend went so well , just wondering who gets to tell friend #2 , you I hope and I truely hope you get the same supportive response then you will have two great friends to help you on your way to be who you want to be . I think your pictures look fantastic too. :hugs: Tomara

That's wonderful Suzy. It's gotta be great to have friends you can share this with. Love the pics too.

Dee :fairy1:

Suzy, what more can I add. This is absolutely fabulous, many congratulations to you for having the courage to do this. You obviously have made an excellent choice in friends. I hope your other friend is just as receptive as this one was. May you have many fun times come your way.

I love your pictures. You look great girl.

Hugs.

-Paula-

a lump in the throat moment - well done suzy, what a risky moment and what a great friend

mitch

Suzy, lucky Suzy, me sincere congratulations on that natter with your friend.
I know the feeling of needing or wanting to, but there is no one I know who would appreciate the info. (Age does come into it a bit.) I do wonder if she would have felt the same without your photos of the other you proving that you existed in that form....I think that they were really essential to the "truth of the fact" and that will give you and here so much fun in the days to come. Enjoy them with her and I think she will also enjoythem for a slightly acceptably different reason.
Go girl go.

a :drink: to you Suzi and well done you took a gamble and it paid off. i think a lot of sisters in the forum would love to have a relationship like you have with some one close and special. and if i may ad to this your pics are realy stunning and you look great. enjoy the shopping spree :hugs:

All I can say is WOW!!!!!!!

That's fab. From your other thread it sounded like these women would be cool with it. Let us know how things go with the other friend.

Life just keeps getting better and better, doesn't it girl! This is so wonderful for you. Many girls are all alone with their dressing and it can get pretty lonely. Now you have a shopping partner. Enjoy Suzi!!

What a great story. You are very fortunate to have such a wonderful friend. You look just georgous in the photos

Wow again! That's a big step, Suzy. Like Kimberly said, you have travelled a long way with this, from "hiding in the room" to now. Perhaps she's right about slowing down.

Because now the questions get harder. You're going to enjoy going out with your friend, I have no doubt. I'll bet it's going to be exciting and new, exhilirating and fun. And sometime soon the nagging question that's been inside you for many, many years is going to require an answer.

It seems to me that you really really really want to be a woman. Trust me, I can relate. I'm likely never going to transition, but there's not a day that goes by that I don't wish on some level that I was a woman. There is alway some degree of regret there. And I'm guessing that that regret is growing inside you at a rapid rate right now.

Whatever you decide, I wish you good luck, success, and happiness on your journey. We're always around for you. You have been one of the more familiar faces here for a long time, and we all care about you. Thanks for the very uplifting story. I'm real happy for you, and I'm glad it's all worked out well so far.

:love: Have some flowers, what the heck.

Yay Suzy...

How are we going to keep you "down on the farm" now that you've had a taste of the "Good Life"..hmmm??? :D

Just one terrific adventure after another..

Your pictures are fabulous too, by the way..

I am thrilled it went the right way for you..as it should have....

I can't see why anybody would ever want to do you "harm" by treating you differently after finding out about your "secret"..how could they after they see what's "inside" you..and meet the "other" person who resides there too..

As Kim said..only know you by way of internet across the miles..

But I like you..like your style..your moxy and you are someone I'd really like to meet...:hugs:


Thanks Suzy...


Majestyk's Lady :love:

thats grate . boy i wish i could do somthing like that . you go girl

Wow! I want to know how it goes when you two go shopping.