Have any of you confirmed CD out there felt judged for not going full SRS?

Oh yes, of course, I'D never pass the test, I was a "pinecone handgrenade"-type boy as child and although got quite a rush the first time I tried on moms bras and tried to imagine what "being a girl" feels like & touching my male parts w that petspective. I am not and never was "a girl trapped in a boys body" which firmly makes me a CD. I just don't have the history. I fancy the thought I am when I switch, but I can't deny the truth that I am really just a guy who happens to be very conscious of his embryonic start as female and wants to find HARMONY between both sides. I'd be just as discontent as a girl not having my male parts as a guy not having my female parts!

Just to simplify, by "judged", mean that many give acceptance to those going full SRS, the true transexual, because of common acceptance that they "don't have a choice", but CD's have a choice (or so most believe ) so they are fair game for redicule! Which is why I felt drawn to the acceptance more reddily given to the former group, even to point I may try to convince myself I AM one...which was a VERY dangerous path to take and I just wondered if any others felt this draw and the judgement that manifested it as I did.

Just be true to yourself Lillith. Only you know where you are going with it. Some people like to try and force their opinions on others. Nobody is inferior, just at different places in the spectrum.

Who? No one person. Simply the judgedment that lies behind the idea that a TS has "no choice" as they were misaligned as a "birth defect" as some say...but CD's aren't protected by this understanding of it "not being thier fault" and they can "help it" so are open to being judged because they ( WE ) HAVE a "choice".....am I making a bit more sense in my phrasing, it's not easy! Lol

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Originally Posted by Lillith

Who? No one person. Simply the judgedment that lies behind the idea that a TS has "no choice" as they were misaligned as a "birth defect" as some say...but CD's aren't protected by this understanding of it "not being thier fault" and they can "help it" so are open to being judged because they ( WE ) HAVE a "choice".....am I making a bit more sense in my phrasing, it's not easy! Lol

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Cder's don't have a choice either. It doesn't go away. You'll get proof of that from others.:)

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Originally Posted by Lillith

... some say...but CD's aren't protected by this understanding of it "not being thier fault" and they can "help it" so are open to being judged because they ( WE ) HAVE a "choice".....l

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I don't know anyone who thinks this way.

Lea

EXACTLY! ;P I switch back to full-time "guy" mode where not wearing my dress, bra, panties, slip, hose, and incognito makeup under my guy clothes cover , usually for wash or just to make going back to underdressing that much more "special" for about 3 days before I start just STARVING for them. First day it's kinda nice to be back to full male side, day two I start to miss here and there, but by end of day 3 just the sight of my SO's clothes or ever more my personal articles are just calling out to me until I throw my whole outfit on in a frenzy and feel "beautiful" & "pretty" & "home?" again and feel a very specific type of saddness as I cover up my female self with drab jeans, boots,, & guy shirt w big black longcoat and present my normal dark & dominant self to world while keep my "pretty" self close to me inside all day as normal. I could just as soon give"her" up as remove my penis, as odd as that may sound!

I like that! Probably best reflects my current state. I fully underdress everyday, but I wish oftentimes that the world was such a place could be whichever I wanted w/o having cover my dress in rough guy clothes & be accepted by same people who see my guy image. But, it's not and this compromise has made in happy in ways only you gals probably understand. Still, that tinge of saddness as stuff my dress into pants and unstuff my unpadded bra and slide a guy shirt over that still bugs me a little sometimes....

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Originally Posted by NicoleScott

It sounds like you are a CD, not a TS, and not a likely candidate for SRS. I'm a CD - maybe a TS should weigh in on this.

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Originally Posted by Marleena

Are you saying you think you are TS but people tell you you need to transition or you're not TS?

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Lilith is saying that she/he feels judged by others and made to feel as if her femme expression is not valid unless she tells people he wants to be a woman. He is saying that she enjoys either alternating or feeling a mixture of both genders at the same time. Expressing her girl self is just as crucial as expressing his guy self.

Lilith, I hear what you're saying. Some members here and I'm sure elsewhere cannot understand the concept of dualgender and feel that unless a TG person wants to transition, they are somehow in denial over "who they really are" or that their femme expression is fetish and/or sexual.

But for some reason, the bulk of the members here who are like you (and my SO), who do feel fully feminine when dressed and it's not about sex or fetish yet who also enjoy their guy sides (and this is not about being in denial or fearing giving in to the inner femme :p), in other words the people who have become at peace with not being part of the (either male or female) gender binary, are strangely silent when it comes to identifying how they feel about themselves.

Instead, they say things like "I don't like labels", or "I don't define myself I just know who I am", and this gives more fuel for some of the other members to believe that what they say isn't valid.

I encourage everyone who feels like Lilith to choose a label and stick to it. Come right out and say that you are dualgender, or bigender, or something! Be more specific than just saying "transgender", since many people still take this to mean TS or "on the way to becoming TS". :p The more of you will do this, the more the community as a whole will understand there is a huge segment of trans people who do not fit the gender binary (they do not fully identify permanently as either one or the other, this is just how it is for them ... pink fog aside) and they are not in denial or fetishists. lol

Heck no! I certainly do NOT feel judged. And in fact, most of the transexuals I've ever met or corresponded with applaud my decision to NOT have SRS. It is very important for one to come to some conclusion about where on the ol' transgendered bell curve we are, and I decided that while I have many strong TS tendencies, I'm not really a candidate for SRS, and I have decided to remain as I am. The worst thing one could do to oneself, and I think most transexuals would agree, would be to forge ahead with some profoundly life-changing surgery, at the cost of tens of thousands of dollars and the possible loss of friends and family, only to find that this wasn't the answer you were looking for. I fully support anyone who deems it necessary for oneself to have SRS, but it's not something to be taken lightly, nor is it by any means the right solution for most crossdressers.

If I'm understanding this thread correctly, then yes, I do sense the feeling from not only TS's, but norms as well, who think that if I'm not going all the way to SRS, then I'm BS'ing them.

I just remind them of my name, and the fact that I'm jumping and dancing all over and around the line between male and female, while laughing at the fact that every one thinks there even IS a line.

the percentage of TS's that actually get SRS is very small, for a variety of reasons.

Lillith, it sounds like your referring to some of the TS's that post here. Altho, you've avoided being specific.

"Don't judge a book by the cover", and, "Consider the source", r 2 trite sayings that I think DO apply here! Please remember, there r THOUSANDS of members here. Yet, the same few loudmouth, (guilty as charged!), members do most of the posting. So, don't construe that MOST of the TS members think as u seem to feel they do. Because from my experience, THEY DON'T! And, I probably push the envelope as much as anyone here!

The way I feel about it is that transgender encompasses all aspects of those of us who are gender fluid. What's in a label anyways? I am what I am and that's all that I am. I most likely won't ever be a "woman" but I'm sure as heck not a "man" either.

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Originally Posted by queenie

The way I feel about it is that transgender encompasses all aspects of those of us who are gender fluid. What's in a label anyways? I am what I am and that's all that I am. I most likely won't ever be a "woman" but I'm sure as heck not a "man" either.

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Hi Queenie,

I have a proposition for you. :)

How would you like to help advance the cause for understanding of the condition that describes "not a woman but not a man either", by using a term that describes this? A term that is different than "CD" (which doesn't really describe someone's gender ID, just the fact they like to dress in clothing habitually worn by members of the opposite sex), and different from TS (which describes someone who identifies as a woman for the MtFs). Not a term like "transgender" either. Although everyone fits under the TG umbrella, many people still take it that it either means "TS" or "on the way to become TS", or "not quite sure but I'll use it anyway because it is general enough and I don't like labels".

No. It would be good to pick a new term that helps people understand who you are. It would be good for others who feel as you do to use the same terms too. Then there wouldn't be so much ambiguity, argument, and accusations that anyone who wears a dress and is not TS is either in denial or a transvectic fetishists.

Let's see ... what about a term like "bigender" (alternating between the two genders), or "dualgender" (a constant mix of both genders)? Actually, these terms have been with us for awhile, even though they are seldom used.

:D

I kind of liked Virginia Prince's term "femmiphile", it sounds like it is not just about dressing but the whole scope of being feminine, but it never took off (nowadays it probably sounds too much like "pedophile" to ever be adopted.)

But that's the issue, Vickie, and the reason so few people understand those who are not TS. No one seems to agree on a term. Everyone wants to come up with their own.

And then everyone throws up their hands and says, "whatever. I don't like labels".

People who do not feel they belong in the gender binary just need to get with a program and stick to it. lol If someone feels they identify with aspects of both genders, then don't you think it would be best to simply find a term to reflect this? Such as maybe bigender (or dualgender)?

Or, they could stick with the ambiguous term, "transgender" (which really describes a variety of people), or as you say, femmiphile (what about girlyphile or womanyphile?), or perhaps genderqueer, polygender, femulates, male lesbians, androgynes, and of course there's always the old standbys (that are really just about the clothes) transvestite and crossdresser. I'm sure I'm missing some. But then the confusion and the arguments about what it all means would just continue.

wow...

so lillith comes here feeling judged ...for no specific reason....
altho there is a hint when she said she has developed the notion that as ts we get a "pass" and the cd doesnt.... we all know that's not really true..and lilith it may help you to realize its not true....

I think lilith your best bet is to get really good with yourself.. it was hard for me as a transsexual... breaking through a lifetime of socialization caused some scarring!!
the key i learned was to get OK with myself...i learned that my gender didn't mean i was a wrong person... Sticks and stones and all that is a real thing.... so lilith you are ok by me!! hope that helps a little!

What's with the ts bashing/ts envy??...oh well..you can't win...how lame...look in the ts forum at a recent thread where a member talked about maybe i'm not a ts to see the reality of this...
One reason ts women come here is to be there for the many cd's that "realize" or "discover" what their dressing is all about
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Comments about "ts in denial" and things like that are borne of many years of experience, and its simply not true that anyone (that is credible and caring) is "pushing" somebody to to get srs or "disrespecting" them if they dont....
..if it hurts your feelings, theres nothing i can do about it....unless i misspeak there is no judgement in anything ...if you feel judgement that's about you, not me or anything i say.

srs and transition totally and completely suck....I would not wish dealing with trans-sexuality on my worst enemy...so lay off us, get a grip on your own feelings about yourself and deal with reality..

in the end, regardless of your actions...cd/ts or other, you really have the simple choice of feeling good about yourself and not...

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Originally Posted by ReineD

Hi Queenie,

I have a proposition for you. :)

How would you like to help advance the cause for understanding of the condition that describes "not a woman but not a man either", by using a term that describes this? A term that is different than "CD" (which doesn't really describe someone's gender ID, just the fact they like to dress in clothing habitually worn by members of the opposite sex), and different from TS (which describes someone who identifies as a woman for the MtFs). Not a term like "transgender" either. Although everyone fits under the TG umbrella, many people still take it that it either means "TS" or "on the way to become TS", or "not quite sure but I'll use it anyway because it is general enough and I don't like labels".

No. It would be good to pick a new term that helps people understand who you are. It would be good for others who feel as you do to use the same terms too. Then there wouldn't be so much ambiguity, argument, and accusations that anyone who wears a dress and is not TS is either in denial or a transvectic fetishists.

Let's see ... what about a term like "bigender" (alternating between the two genders), or "dualgender" (a constant mix of both genders)? Actually, these terms have been with us for awhile, even though they are seldom used.

:D

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Reine,

Propositioning me? I'm married, I'll have you know. I keed, I keed!

If we must assign a label, transgender is fine by me. There are already too many labels out there as people try to pigeonhole themselves into some niche and that leads to more confusion for everyone.

trans- 
1. a prefix occurring in loanwords from Latin ( transcend; transfix ); on this model, used with the meanings “across,” “beyond,” “through,” “changing thoroughly,” “transverse,” in combination with elements of any origin: transisthmian; trans-Siberian; transempirical; transvalue.

From that perspective, transgender to me encompasses anyone who has gone beyond the societal binary gender divide and it doesn't really matter where they fall on that spectrum. I present as male, female and all points in between as my mood and the situation dictates. It's the state of one's gender identity that's incongruous to to their physical/assigned sex. The psychology of it all is way too complex to explain in a simple post, but I'd consider crossdressers as being transgender to an extent. There's that sliver of gender ambiguity in their self actualization that leads to wanting to dress as the opposite sex. When you're riding on the transcontinental railroad, it's still transcontinental whether you board the station in California, Nebraska or anywhere in between.

Transsexual is an entirely different connotation since it implies changing one's physical sex to fix the incongruity in their gender. To an extent, it's a subset of transgenderism and probably the most visible due to the likes of Jerry Springer and other talk shows. Put another way, all Germans are Europeans, but not all Europeans are Germans.

Transgenderism is prevalent everywhere but people just don't see it as such. They categorize it as being "tomboyish" in girls and being a "sissy" in boys. I think people move on, off and across the spectrum all the time until they reach some equilibrium point that's right for them. Transsexualism is the most easily categorized by the lay public since it lies at the extreme and is easily recognized for what it is, they take the mentality that "all Europeans are Germans."

Now that I'm done with this novel, I'll be having a book signing some time next week.

Queenie, not to beat a dead horse, and "transgender" it is. :)

But (there is always a but, lol), transgender doesn't really describe what type of transgender. It is ambiguous. It is a good, proper general term though, it describes someone who transcends their birth gender to some degree. To what degree? Most people who hear the term have no clue unless they ask a million questions, since the possibilites are endless. Some people just like to wear the clothes for sex. Others want to transition down the road maybe. Some people call themselves that because they are not sure whether or not they are on their way to wanting to be female full time. And on, and on, and on. It's kinda a catch all term for many people because they haven't figured it out for themselves fully yet, and that's OK too. :)

Whereas some people know they do identify with both genders, this is how it is for them, this is where they're at, they know they don't want to transition, they know they don't always identify as men, it is not about sex nor are they in denial. They are, in fact, both genders, aka bigender or dualgender.

But like I said, it's perfectly OK to identify as transgender. It not really all that descriptive though, for people who know who they are.:)

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Originally Posted by Kaitlyn Michele

Comments about "ts in denial" and things like that are borne of many years of experience, and its simply not true that anyone (that is credible and caring) is "pushing" somebody to to get srs or "disrespecting" them if they dont....

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The joke about two years being the difference between a TS and a CD has been bandied a lot in this forum. As have comments that CDers are guys. While some TSs do believe they are CDs at first and some CDs do identify purely as guys, there are a great many CDs for whom neither of these descriptions fit. And maybe it is only a select few who do not believe (or whose posts come off as if they do not believe) that it is possible for a CDer to identify female and not wish to transition. It is true that not all TSs say these things though, and your point is well taken, but I do understand what prompted Lillith to post what she did.

A term I've been using quite a bit is "gender fluid" and it sums things up pretty well for me.