Lol, I can identify. I wouldn't touch my little sister or her friends with a 39 and a half foot pole.
Thank you all for your attention and advice.
For me, I've come to the conclusion that it isn't the female aspect that I envy, but the freedom to express femininity. There are still some latent interests of mine to actually BE female, but I am slowly categorizing my desires and most of them rest in desiring to be feminine. At the very least, I have direction now.
Again, thank you all!