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As far back as I can remember I wanted to be a girl. Even before school age I had both boys that were friends and girls in the neighborhood. I never much liked sports like the boys but loved playing barbie dolls with the girls. It didn't take me long to figure out I was a boy and will always be a boy and better start acting like a boy because everyone in the world expected that of me. I still longed to be a girl but I did my best to have a male life as I was supposed to do. I never was much into sports but did rather like hot wheels and toy guns a lot. I liked GI Joe better LOL. I became a great cook and pretty good at household chores. I drifted into music so I was able to be a boy with some eclectic tastes. Rock and rollers in the 70s allowed me to be a bit feminine - David Bowie for example - and I could get away with a bracelet or necklace. All the time in private trying on panties and slips when I could get away with it. I never considered myself weird or perverted or gay, I just knew it was something I had to keep to myself at all costs.
Well here I am much older and fully a man. 2 marriages, 3 kids all grown up, and definately into women sexually. I still long to be a woman. I guess in a former life I was and this time came out a boy. When I dress up it feels right to me. I would go all out and get hormones and an operation but I am too old for that stuff and have too much invested in my life to go and throw it all away and change the world of everyone who knows me. So I will never be a girl for real but will dress and act like one every chance I get. So the answer for me is I am a lesbian trapped in a mans body.
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I'm exactly like you Katie and never really considered there might be anything deeper that I have been suppressing. It's the best way to be because it allows me just to love the pleasure I feel when I'm dressed . The only negative emotion I ever experience is the one I feel right now. In about 30 minutes I have to take off my wig and jewellry, remove my make-up and change my clothes. I don't want to do that but once I do my normal life continues happily and I'll just look forward to my next femme opportunity .
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I am a girl inside I have always felt uncomfortable in my body.
When I dream I'm female I have always wished to be a woman.
So I see my self as in the wrong body and will do all that life let's me
to make things right.
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How I see myself changes from mood to mood, but mostly I also see myself as a guy who wears women's clothes. I have often thought that my self limiting factor is my mirror. If I could ever look in the mirror and see something other than a guy in a dress, I am pretty sure I would be a much more enthusiastic and self confident about my feminine persona.
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I look at myself as a a guy that acts like a girl.I like to dress as a female because I love how they look.
I'm both in a male body and pretty much fine with it.
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Hi Katie, I'm all guy but when I finish dressing and put on my wig then all bets about the guy thing are off.
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Katiegal - Sounds like you don't really desire to be a girl, you just enjoy dressing like a girl. Me too.
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A lady, that will probably never pass, trapped in a male body. Definitely attracted to women . Never really have given it much thought though. Most of my interests involve outdoor activities and seldom find myself interested in the typical female activities. I seem to be fighting a losing battle because the female side seems to be slowing taking over.
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It's interesting how I see myself in photos always looks different than how I see myself in the mirror. Mirror is much better!
