Need to have a woman in my life
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Originally Posted by
Vickie_CDTV
If it would make more more attractive to GGs and I knew it would finally allow me to find an SO, yes I would take it.
I completely agree with Vickie. I would take that pill in a heartbeat under those conditions. Please check out my story.
I’ve never had a strong sense of my masculinity, especially in terms of my sexuality. I was never into traditional “macho” things such as cars (like my dad) or sports. Instead, I was a loner who retreated into TV and comic books. And I haven’t had much success with relationships - I am painfully shy about approaching women. Recently, however, one did last about six years. Through the first five years, I actually had no desire to cross-dress, though I had done so since my teens. I now had a real woman in my life, so I didn’t have to turn to Colleen, my artificial feminine self. It made me feel good to be a man.
The problem, though, was that “D” hated physical intimacy, mainly due to sexual abuse she experienced as a child. I knew about the abuse, so I didn’t try to push hard, and she promised she would work on her responsiveness. Eventually, though, I would press for something – anything – and get nothing. Well, about once every three months, I could get a hand job – during which her disinterest was palpable. (You can understand then why I was shocked when she said to a counselor in our final year together that “he treats me like a sex slave.”)
After five years of this, I began to consider cross-dressing again to find the sexual gratification I was not getting from D. When I told her about these thoughts, she said, “Anything you want to wear is fine with me.” So Colleen came back. Since D didn’t want to be intimate with me as a man, I hoped she might be willing to get involved if I was in a feminine role – after all, she loudly professed being bisexual. No such luck. No amount of asking her to take charge of pleasuring me while I was the “bottom” elicited any more involvement than before. We had a lot of good things in our relationship, but I couldn’t stand her complete indifference to my sexual needs, and we broke up.
If the only woman I get have in my life is Colleen, so be it. She makes me more sensitive to women and women's issues and brings some other good things into my life. Even so, I hate feeling so terribly alone.
