Stacy, good luck in your new directions and new pursuits. I truly hope that you can find whatever it is you need without having the urge to CD again.
That having been said, I would just suggest that any of us here be careful to avoid saying "never" or "forever" when it comes to stopping and staying stopped.
After a relatively short time of limited dressing (stockings and girdles) from age 12 to 15, I lost interest, considered it a passing fancy, and started dating and mostly forgot about dressing for a long time. I had a few tempting thoughts and urges and actually donned nylons or pantyhose three or four times in a span of 44 yrs.
In Jan. of 2005 the urge to dress returned and I answered the "call" and have not looked back since.
Anyway, I do wish you all the best in your life activities and hope that it all comes together for you. If you are able to turn away from this lifestyle, more power to you.
Love,
Gretchen