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OK, I defintely don't feel crazy, and I know that I am different.
Bottom line is that I am femme in the way that I feel femme and I realize that GGs may not and probably do not relate to femme the way that I do.
What is most important to me is that I express and present myself the way that I feel, and that I find people, wherever they are, that will love me as I am, and will allow me to love them back.
yes, I am totally nuts.I spend each day working in, living in and embracing
this masculine world.perhaps, from nine to five, even defending it.sometimes
it scares the shit out of me to know that there exists two dana's.the other
dana is still male but dresses up in womens cloths.from wig to painted finger
nails to pantyhose to highheels,he completely adopts a female persona.
I wish i knew which one of those dana's were the craziest!
Sometimes I think it's an exercise in futility. lol
It did take me a long time to come to terms with my female side and love of crossdressing. It took me even longer to come to terms with the fact that I really wish I would have won the "galactic lottery" and been born female. But for me, the surgery is not something I would want to do, especially at 36.
So I continue enjoying my female side, and crossdressing when I'm able to. And yes, I goto great lengths to achieve the best possible look I can. I do get tunnel vision about it. Yeah, it's probabaly NUTS, WAY not normal, or even healthy. I've come to the point that I don't give a !@#$! I have a great marriage, and sustain a functional modus operandi about the daily grind of life. so in my mind.....who f-ing cares?
People also think that I'm nuts & not normal for having over 34 arcade machines throughout my house, and spending hundreds of hours restoring them to mint condition. People think I'm nuts, crazy and not normal for restoring my 1970 Challenger that started off rotted beyond belief. Spending 1000's of hours and dollars working on it until 5am in the morning and then getting up a 7am to goto work. Yeah, people think i need to go into a mental institution on that one!
People think I'm crazy-nuts for spending HOURS in the basement painting weird, abstract paintings.
People think I'm crazy, nutty & stupid for staying up around the clock for 48 hours at a time, learning and arranging guitar tracks, only to go into studios and record my parts for FREE. Out of the sheer love of it.
I've come to learn through my 36 years on this rock, that people view me as weird, deranged, NUTS and WAY NOT NORMAL. That there's something definitely not right with me. It use to bother me in my early years, but now, I really don't care. My crossdressing is only the tip of my iceburg. If someone wants to label me weird and not normal for that, or any of my other hobbies...that's perfectly ok with me. Weird and "not normal" work beautifully for me. maybe it's my sense of tunnel vision I have when I approach something I find worthy of working towards. Hell, My friends and family think mine & my wife's marriage is not normal. That we get along too well, and are too happy, and act TOO weird & corny with each other, having TOO many inside jokes between ourselves. Whatever! At least we're not the ones going through divorce court this year like many of our friend's and family members are.
Yes. I'm weird and my crossdressing is weird,, and WAY not normal for the "Joneses" and modern society on this planet. That's Fine. I'm cool with that. But I personally believe that people have to stop caring about what the "Joneses" are doing, into, or up to...ESPECIALLY when it does not effect their lives or have any impact on it.
I don't know if any of this made sense, or answered the original thread. Sorry Sherry-Stephanie.
Peace be the journey,
What is weard? Extream? Nuts?
I know a guy why rides a bike six days a week, and puts his food on a scale,
he knows how many calories per serving of most foods.
I know another that can touch a puter and make it all well.
And another that can let you know were the best clothing stores are at.
Weard ?
We are all a bit deffernt than someone else, it would be a dull life if we were Borg.
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I am freakin nuts, but I keep them tucked away whenever possible. :heehee: But that is who I am, Just enjoying life whenever I can.
To be totally honest, I don't care!
Either way, enlightened or nuts, it's your view, not mine.
I am this way, so I just enjoy it. Nothing more, nothing less.
To think of this pleasure as enlightened or nuts on my end takes away the joy of who I am and what I do.
So, neither.
I just am.
Love, Sabrina
:kiss:
My feeling is no, I will not likely pass and yes I am totally nuts I guess.. I've said there is that feeling when dressed up.. I never used to even try to pass, because I never even had a wig.. I used to wear to feel really good about myself.. ok that last sentence was total crap, when I dressed when I was younger I always felt like this is wrong.. and still do feel like cross dressing is wrong otherwise I would be open about it, and wear and told everyone which I clearly have not.. I wish I felt like it is a good thing to do, or at the very least feel like I want to feel.. when nobody is around I feel great, no worries because now I know within reason where everyone is at and can count on dressing up and really feeling relaxed while doing so... lately it's been extremely dry (no dress up time) and I wish I could say I miss it, but I don't sadly..