How alone are you ? in the Crossdressing World ?

So alone… my wife knows, of course. She is accepting but not enthusiastic lol. I have two friends that know but they live far away and have only seen me once - they also have plenty of their own problems to want to get deeply involved in mine. I had several estheticians and hair stylist friends about 6 or so years ago but I moved away and I find it a little creepy messaging them on social media … more my own shame and guilt I suppose than anything. But it was more of a “client that became a friend” situation than a real friend situation.

My wife knows. I have been around her dolled up. I sent a photo to my sister, she does not want to know any more about it. I have been to my local wig shop dolled up. She know for sure. I have done some shopping in Macy's too. I had to wait in line with a bunch of women a few times for checkout. That's about it

My other sisters expect something but I am known as a "Wack Job"

My wife knows as well as 2 other people. One of the others is a step-nephew. He thought I would hate him when he told me he was bi. I thought I could /should let him know all of us have things in our lives others might find odd/strange, so I came out to him as a CD. I wanted him to know that when I said his being bi was not an issue for me, he would truly understand I was being truthful. He is in his mid-50s and I've seen him maybe 3 times in the past 10 years. The other person is a lady who works where I volunteer. She saw me buying my first dress and asked if I often buy dresses for my wife. I have a major fault - I cannot lie. I told her I CD. She has become a wonderful, close, supportive friend and has actually met Heather on one occasion.

Edit: After reading thru many of the responses, I realized I left "someone" out. When we moved almost 4 years ago (to a different state), I started going to a different VA facility. I was hoping to get into a support group so asked my PCP about it. She directed me to the mental health department psychiatrist who dealt with LGBTQ+ issues. She (psychiatrist) actually asked me what name I preferred. Anyway, both of them have left the area to work at other VA facilities, but I know my VA records definitely show I am a crossdresser.

For me there are two groups. One knows me as my drab self and nothing else. The other knows me primarily as Geena, most of whom have seen my drab self as well, but think of me as Geena. There is no intersection between the two groups.

I'd love to have a friend I could talk to about it, or better yet wear a skirt and bra around (ideally because he did too), but I don't see that happening.

Those who need to know, know. My wife of course. I don't think she cares too much one way or the other. She says I'm the same no matter what clothes I'm wearing. All my close friends and group I regularly go out with. We've had several GNO's together. So like 20-30 people. My family, as afar as I know do not know. Except my mother. I have only told her about it. We live right next door to each other and it just makes life easy that way. I don't know how they would react really. I don't tell them because it's a boring subject and I don't want to answer questions from them and I have no intention of being around them dressed that way.

To my knowledge, nobody in real life knows that I dress. It can be a pretty lonely existence indeed. I do wish that I could find some like-minded individuals to share this side of me with, or at the very least, friends who would tolerate it.

I am basically a closeted crossdresser.

My wife knows and is supportive of me, but I also know she would be happier if I quit. But she has never said anything bad about me crossdressing and has even suggested a few things for me to wear. She goes shopping with me once or twice a year. I can freely dress in front of her as long as it isn't more than half the time.

My kids and her kids know, but it isn't discussed. I think her mom knows, but not 100% sure.

My parents knew before they passed away, but again never discussed it with each other.

My ex-wife knew, but she has also passed away. I know my ex-wife told people, but not sure who or how many.

As of a few weeks ago I am now Violet full time at work, so I guess pretty much most of the time in general. My mom knows and all my friends know. I also do standup comedy semi-professionally and the whole comedy scene knows.

My bestie Rachel says that I've basically socially transitioned and she's not using my male name anymore.

I have a handful of people who know. My wife obviously. She tolerates it but wants nothing to do with it. I also have 4 female acquiantances who know and assist with things like shopping, advice, encouragement, etc. These women are a huge help and I'm forever grateful for them all.

Violet, congratulations on your social TRANSition at work. If you've done that, then no reason to not go 100%, right? I'm really happy for you. I

In nice round numbers. (as far as I know)..0. Only my on-line friends know. Have been widowed over 12 years now...wife never knew..though my dressing really took off when I found myself living alone. Have only been out in public a few times but never with anyone outside this world.

No-one knows its been 20 years and dont think I'll ever be able to tell anyone i know

My ex-wife is the only one for sure. A couple of neighbors have seen me in a female top a time or 2, but they are a bit older than me and may not have known they were female tops. I honestly wish there were more that did.

For people who know and are still in my life, two, probably three. My spouse who is polite, and I told my male best friend about 10-11 years ago. He has lived outside the country but we have always kept in touch and is moving back sometime this year. And I am pretty sure he would have told his spouse, also a life long friend and happy that she would know. They would both be very accepting and in fact he offered for me to visit them and I could dress while there. Never happened though. There was one other person I told but they moved away and I have not been in touch for many many years.

And this is why I am thankful to this community, I can share Mercedes and it feels really good.

I am by myself in the Crossdressing world. Most recently, I have been doing selfies of myself crossdressed when I have time for myself.

My therapist from last century. Spouse saw once before major purge. Never again. Coworker went out to dinner. Attended support group in drab.Attended out of town support group en femme. Couple of SA?s at Avenue & Dress Barn But now nothing.

I got friends that know I crossdress and they support me for it. Other than that... yeah, I'm pretty much on my own when it comes to dressing up.

To date I?ve been 100% alone in this saga? that closet door is firmly shut, locked, and guarded for now.

In the beginning only my wife and 2 close friends.
A number of neighbours must have seen me in the last three years and as I am fully out I don't care who sees me.
The other day I had been out to an appointment and my next door neighbour was cleaning her car.
I took the opportunity to walk over to her and say "HI Sam, would you recognise me if we passed in the street"? Now she would have been talking to other neighbours so the only surprise for her was (in her words) "wow you look stunning".
I rarely walk outside of my garage fully made up as I jump in the car and leave.

Everyone that I know has seen Chris as she has been around in one way or another since forever. My best friend growing up shared my love of dressing up, so in a way I have never been alone. We are still best friends and he still dresses.

Friends, zero. My wife knows but would prefer not to talk about it.

I am all alone in the CD world! There are no support groups or CD meetings in my area! But there must be others near me, but how do I find them! Well when I say alone, I do have female friends and guy friends and they all know I Crossdress, but cross dress friends? NO

Aside from this forum I am very much alone in this journey. My wife is the only one that knows and even she doesn't know the full extent of my crossdressing. We never talk about it. It would be so nice to have a friend that I could talk to, face to face, that shares my interest. There used to be a couple of SAs at the local Jockey outlet that knew that I crossdressed. They would always point out anything new in the store and encourage me to try on anything that I was interested in. It was always the highlight of my week when I would stop in. Sadly, we moved away and I no longer have that connection with anyone.

My Partner knows. She's supportive, but doesn't want to be involved.

I got out in public sometimes. But honestly I really online talk to people online. I haven't been able to make any local connections here in Oregon since I moved here.

My fem life is pretty lonely.