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A hard question
Well the question was not hard but the answer might be.
Since a kid I envied girls with their long hair and pretty dresses. They get treated better by the teachers and parents.”I was punished and humiliated in front of the class for talking too much on many occasions, nothing ever happened to the girls that made trouble or did bad in class, just boys!)
So, have for very long felt like I should have breasts I feel empty on my chest, want to feel bouncing. I do not like that thing down there; the bulge is embarrassing even with my wife, I wish it would not be so! I would like an hourglass figure with wide hips and a narrow waist. I would like long hair but would not like to take care of it. I feel I should not have to shave my face and would prefer not to have any body hair from the neck down. I find it “degrading” and aggressive to put something in someone (my wife has always made the first moves, sad), I would much rather be the receiver, (not sure what I can say without being censored), but I am sure everyone will get the point.
I am a very passive somewhat submissive, and non aggressive (will defend myself and family without hesitation with any method though). I would not call myself subordinate because I am independent and rarely like the way those in charge do things. I prefer not to be in control but will go my own way if the one in control is doing it wrong!
I am a vegan because I like animals. I have not met a man that did not eat meat for those reasons, only women.
So now for the contradiction!
I find men unattractive, looking at their hairy bodies does nothing but repel. I find their thing gross. I do not like looking in the mirror or at my body.
I like to look at women and their bodies. I like relationships with women including friends. I feel that if I had lots of girl friends it would be enough, if I changed into a woman over night. But I would not like a lesbian relationship. That idea is just as repealing as a relationship with a man as a woman.
I am really mixed up! I would probably try to be with a man and then after the first time become a Buddhist monk in a monastery!
I suppose that does not answer the question, knew it would be a problem.
But, if I had to quantify my male side and female side I am sure the female side would win. I have been very frustrated and stressed out lately for many reasons. I suspect my fantasies about being a woman and it frustrating because it cannot happen is part of the problem. (I will not get into the reasons for that my age is part of the problem not to mention being broke and having a family). The only female release I have is as a woman in “Second Life”. It taught me that I am a lot more female than I thought, it really comes out, including flirting with men, among other things! So if I did became a woman overnight I no doubt would miss my male and female relationships as a male and with my kids (they need a father), but overall I would be better off, I think.
Boy, am I messed up!
Ideally I would like to be able to change back and forth depending on my mood. I would probably have a day job as a women and go home to my wife as a man, could be a bit of a problem if she had to call me at work though. Or maybe work as a man during the day and have a weekend job as a Hooters girl for extra money, if my wife could handle that!
I wonder how many of you would prefer to be able to change back and forth for real. The problem with this society is that we have to be either male of female. It would be wonderful if we could get all dressed up and go to work once in a while without anyone batting any eye or talking about you behind your back.
I guess to answer the question I would have to say I do not like my male side much, only for relationships with women. Virtually everything else I would prefer to be a woman.
Then again I like being able to get ready fast and not have to deal with hair and makeup and nails. I suppose I would get used to it, but I do not always remember to comb my hair as it is.
I am not all male or all female. But that is one of the problems and why there are CDers and TG that do not have SRS or even reverse the SRS. It is because of the society!
Maybe one of these days CDing will become mainstream and excepted!
PS here are two Suggestive feminization videos, they make me feel better.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j0OnEmCu1LY
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LNTWm6Xsk3c
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I don't know what you mean by sides. I'm a whole person and the same person whether I'm dressed as a guy or a girl, with the same thoughts and feelings, only perhaps a little different behaviour due to the attire: for example I don't sit with my legs apart when wearing a skirt :brolleyes:.
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:drink:Bottom Line Ladies:
Just like the Brad Paisley song says, "Honey, I'm Still A Guy".
I love my male side. I just feel very excited when I am in femme.
I would not want to have the physical complications a woman has like PERIODS, mood swings and a bitchy attitude.
I still love my male characteristics and have no plans to become a woman. I just like dressing up from time to time. Makes me feel sexy.