No problem. I would like to be able to look like a genetic woman!
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No problem. I would like to be able to look like a genetic woman!
Me too! Have any tips? :D
Now, I identify as bigender. I want to have female breast. If I lost my whole testes by cancer or accidant, I will consider SRS. But theis reason was changed one month ago. So I will consider SRS when I are faced a few other situation.
I don't want to have SRS. I'm more receptive to the idea of HRT, but I have no overwhelming desire for that either. Yes, I'm a woman with male body parts. It's not a disease. It doesn't need to be cured. I'm not "trapped in the wrong body." I am totally normal. (A bit boring, in fact.)
I identify with this statement. Surgery and hospitals scare the daylights out of me.Quote:
Originally Posted by Jessy Jamz
I'm still figuring out where I'm going with this (crossdressing, transgender issues, etc.), so I'm just trying to be more aware of my feelings and reactions as I live. Right now, I keep having the strong desire to be identified as female and interact with my co-workers and others as female. I get along really well with the ladies I work with, I just feel like there is still a barrier. I have no interest in hanging out or relating to my male co-workers.
At this moment, I believe I am TS, but I'm waiting for therapy and time to verify. I don't dress for glamour, though it's nice to look pretty. I dress because it feels right. Most of my skirts are ripped up heavy metal t-shirts. When I'm dressed I don't feel like I have to filter my mannerisms or emotions.
My wife, who is taking this all very well, asked me last night. "Are you happy?" My honest reply was, "Yes." Since I started dressing and spending time (almost entirely with her) in "drag" (aka what feels right), I have been a much happier person. The suicidal mope I was in my 20s & 30s seems like a distant nightmare. I know I still have a long and painful journey ahead, but since switching tracks to "I am really a girl" mode, everything just seems so much clearer.
Sorry for the long answer. I'm not sure where this train is headed, exactly, but I'm glad I hopped on... finally.
No, I am a man who occasionally enjoys wearing women's clothes. I have no desire to alter my very male body, or to live my life on a day to day basis as a woman.
For me it is like a hobby... With an erotic element. But 95% of the time I am all guy.
What's a full transsexual? Do you mean to have SRS or how about those who are but can't for health or monetary reasons?
If you are transsexual? You are every bit are one.
That pretty much describes me as well, though with the opportunities I have to dress, it's more like 99% guy for me ...Quote:
Originally Posted by Cara Lacey
Just a feminine crossdresser here. I have no desire to do hrt or srs. I love my body the way it is! However, I would get laser hair removal on my face and get a little nose job.
No way, I love being a guy too much and being with women to risk damaging my equipment (yes I am attached to it lol!). I'm content to let my inner lady have her time occasionally and really look forward to being completely feminine sometimes. It's so much work to get ready too...wouldn't want to do that every day. I have complete and total appreciation for what women go through to look their best.
Well at my age NOPE but when I felt this way back in 1966 , If I was 8 years old in todays more accepting age and my mother wanted me to be happy I would want to start living my live as a girl in my early teens. I would want to be totally transforned and a complete woman by 18. Feeling like I do I would still like girls . We must all agree when we dress we feel good . If we really look female when dressed that is a major + and a ego boost. I believe most crossdressers have some horemones in their bodys that make them idenfy with women. The other day I saw this pretty 40 something woman working in a quickie mart , Her nails looked great so I complimented her on them , then I realized that she needed a fill and I said yea but it time for a fill. She laughed and smiled and said it pretty bad when a guy tells a woman that she need fills on her nails , what guy knows that, I said I do and smiled...
I've thought about it (the question that is) and the answer is still NO for me! At one time I considered what it would be like to look more feminine, maybe do something to be more passable. Maybe do something permanent about the facial hair......but really I just like wearing the clothing. I guess it makes me odd round here, but I do not want to be a women........I just like to dress like one once in a while.
Guess that just makes me a plain ole borer CDer!!
Ok here goes,
Having been to this site and read the stories and input here, i am most definitely dual gendered.
i like being a man because i get to do certain activities that are accepted as male only
i like being a woman because i get to do certain activities that are accepted as female only
There is no way that, I being who i am could limit myself to just one gender accepted role
that being said
One day, the societal norms will break down enough to accept people for who they are without stigma and for the sake of future generations i hope they do
My thoughts seem to change quite a lot with time. I never really want to be a man, but it is not enough to actually want to change. Sometimes the feeling I need to change is very strong, other times not so much. I guess that makes me a TG. I also love my family too much to lose them.
Nope, wouldn't do it. Love being a girl/boy...
I want to but never will because of work family and friends. I've been male for 37 yrs. I want the same time as a beautiful woman.
First, I do believe that there are some crossdressers that 'become' TS. Not all, but some. And if you talk to all the TS out there, you'll find some. Not all, but some.Quote:
Originally Posted by ReineD
I'm still one who believes that our minds continue to develop throughout our lives. So you don't have to be born TS, CD or TG to eventually become that way. After all, if you DO believe that the moment you come out of the birth canal is the moment that your gender is stamped in stone, how would you decide exactly at which moment it happened? Does the moment change for people who come out head first rather than butt first? Or how about for people who are born a few days late or a few days early. Or months early. What about them? When does their gender get stamped into stone? The obvious answer is, it doesn't. It's pretty safe to say that we really don't know exactly when our self identification of which gender we are, and which gender we are turned on by, becomes permanent, or even if it does at all. All these arguments about when we 'become' straight or gay, TS TG or CD, all of it is because right now those of us in those 'alternate' lifestyles need a defense against the nuts who insist that WE chose what we are, and because they insist that it's preventable. Which, who knows, it may be, but right not we certainly do not know, as there's absolutely no evidence to support those theories. NONE. Because for every theory of who becomes what and when, there are people who don't fit that theory. The best example is that I grew up with several guys who turned out being gay. And I had discussed it with them, later in life, about when they knew that they were homosexual. NONE OF THEM SAID IT WAS WHEN THEY WERE KIDS. None. So much for the born that way theory accounting for all homosexuals. It simply doesn't fit everyone. And I wasn't born a crossdresser. I became one somewhere between the ages of six and oh, about eight or nine, and there were definitely outside influences that caused it to happen. Now I'm not saying that every crossdresser is the result of being molested between the ages of six and nine. What I'm saying, is that there is a multitude of causes for gender dysphoria, and we shouldn't believe that another person's experience is 'wrong' just because it doesn't match our own.
Ain't never gonna happen.
I like being a guy too much. And being able to CHOOSE to be a guy makes it all the better. So CDing makes me happier to be a guy because t isn't by default.
And I get to escape the alpha male thing when I choose to. So I get to experience a sorta female me
And I get to be the SO of an incredible person.
So even if I had a magic wand and could instantly change to a woman, no. Being a guy most of the time and Cding when I want to, for me, is the best of both worlds.
SUCH FUN!
But those that do, those that have a real need, who can only be happy transitioning, my heart goes out to them.
Yep, I love to be able to swear, get dirty, and be a provider that is highly respected in their career and has a great SO and blended family - a wonderful life. Hard work...but worthwhile.
However, I'm still a 'girl soul' inside who loves to be 'deliciously different' as well as emotional, compassionate, caring, pretty, loves being pampered at the spa, and is definitely connected and in total touch with the female end of things.
In this vein, I love satin and silks and love to take the female form when I can at home.
I'm happy enough to experiment with what I have got and are not getting out a hacksaw.
If I could, I'd love bigger breasts and some longer hair ...but it really ends there for me.
I'm complete....by being a girl as blended as her family.:battingeyelashes:
SRS...no way! HRT, would love too! I have not problem mixing parts :o
I don'think I want to be fully TS. I love to wear fem clothes. I don't like the male role in bed. I like to be treated as the female during intimacy. But I like to pee standing up. I don't like monthly periods and pregnancy also. I don't know where exactly I stand.
I guess its kind of yes and no thing. I would not mind losing my boy bits down there and getting girl's instead. I have always wanted to know what it would be like to have sex as a woman in the female role, his orgasm and ejackulation inside me. I'm not gay, just want to know what female feels during sex, I don't even know if transsexuals can have hetrosexual relationships. But don't see why not there "women" after the surgery.
As compared to a half transexual? transexual is who you are. You cannot be a little pregnant, you either are or you are not. If you are, there are things you can, and even must do to achieve inner peace. Not all Transexuals do the same things to arrive at their inner peace. My state of mind is definitely TS. My age, and family only allow me HRT at present, and Electrolysis next month...at present. As my life progresses, what i can do may change, and I will advance in my transition.
Regardless of what one does, it is the mindset, the physical and mental imbalance that puts one in the room as TS.
Barbara
There are days I feel I would like it. I would definatly try it if it were reversable.
I would enjoy presenting full time as female, but i would not surgicly alter my body. Just want to be pretty and have people accept me for who I am. There is nothing i do that requires me to necessarily present as male
Oh, geez. Thank you so much Samantha! Seriously. Your response was considered and accurate. I would like to interject one 'however'. As one who knows: I cannot imagine anyone wanting to be transexual if they really thought about what was truly involved. I have strained or lost EVERY relationship I had in the world and had to begin again; some, I have yet to test.
To paraphrase PaulaQ; At times, death would be a mercy. I still live this and I'm sorry anyone would have to experience that feeling. I see you sister.
But we stand up, we persevere. Lorileah and I agree that we want to be respected for who we are, for what we have, and can achieve. She stated something to the effect that it would have been easy to not, but unpleasant. I cannot, not. I have to transition and cannot stop it for the life of me. Five years ago, the concept would have been inconceivable (and yes, that word DOES mean what I think it means), now surgery is in my future.
Unless the entire OP was frivilous, then, never mind. :D
If I understand the question correctly.....Good lord, yes, I would love to be a full fledged female.... Too much family and friends wayyy too close, though. If I could ever take it upon myself to just pick up, leave to a new part of the country, start completely over, where I wouldn't hurt anyone that knows me as a male, yes....I soooooo would.
Suzanne
No, since I first understood the concept of "Wish" I have wished I was a girl. Jiminy Cricket sang "When you wish upon a star" - I spent the next moth staying up so I could see a star and wish that I was a girl.
Wishing on birthay candles "Wished I Was a girl". Wishbone of the turkey - wished I was a girl. Prayers for miracles - I'd pray for 4-5 hours every night - to be a girl. Every fairy tale was wishing I was a girl.
Beauty and the beast - the evil witch had turned me into a boy - a beast. I'd look in the mirror and close my eyes and wish that I would open them and see a pretty little girl.
Any TV show where a man and woman somehow switched bodies, I would try to find out everything I could about the fictional machines, hoping there was an element of H.G. Wells prophetic nature.
I learned as much as I could about being a girl. I learned to cook when I was 6, to sew when I was 7, to help change my sister's diapers, to do laundry, to vacuum. I learned to crochet, then to knit, I'd help my mother line knitted coats. I'd read women's magazines. Most of my friends were girls, and those boys who were friends had to keep it a secret so they didn't get assaulted too.
I searched the public library for anything related to sex changes, and found nothing.
I didn't have testes. I didn't even realize that was unusual. When I was 10 my father tried to explain "the birds and bees", actually sexuality, in very technical terms. At one point, I asked why I didn't have what other boys had, and he drew a picture. He said mine were "up inside, like ovaries" - I lit up hoping that this meant that I really WAS a girl.
For me, dressing up was the BOOBY PRIZE. When I dressed up, I would imagine myself in church or in school, as a girl. It was painful, lonely, and there were days that I would wear something to bed, hoping that my parents would see me in mom's slip, a nighty, or a teddy, and would want to have a serious conversation.
When my testes dropped, I freaked out - because I knew that I would become a hideous beast - I'd grow hair everywhere, have a horrible low voice, and my willie would get bigger. I tried to shove them back inside, I pushed so hard I passed out in the bathtub. I tried to find books and periodicals about castration, how it was done. I tried some of the non-surgical approaches, including wrapping them with rubber bands, putting them in a vice, and puttting them under a 2x4 and hitting the board with a big hammer. I would pour hot, almost boiling water on them. I'd get the bathtub so hot it would blister my butt and legs, then sit down and hold them out so they would get the maximum heat. When the boys would beat me up and start kicking me, I would spread my legs, trying to get them to kick me down there so the doctors would have to remove them. I still don't know how I managed to be the father of 2 children.
When I found out that I had a Bass voice, I become very self-destructive. I started hanging out with the druggies, got dangerously intoxicated on a combination of booze, pot, antihistimines, and after being misdiagnosed with epilepsy (actuall drug withdrawal) valium. In my rebellion, I learned about the hindu belief in reincarnation. I began to think "If I give this body up, I can come back as a girl", I became suicidal, playing "matador" with cars while walking on a 4 lane road that was poorly lit. I'd pick fights with short guys I knew would probably kill me if their friends would stop interfering.
I wanted to die, so I could be a girl, but would I remember how much I wanted to be a girl? Would bad karma make a girl who wanted to be a boy? Would I end up in some country where women are treated horribly? How could I stack the Karma in my favor? The most horrible thought was that I would die and go to heaven (I was saved) and have to spend eternity as a boy! That would be like hell.
What I didn't know, because my parents were afraid to tell me, is that they were trying to protect me from the "Cure" which involved frying my brains with electricity until I didn't care about my gender, and if that didn't work, they would do a lobotomy - this was the 1950s and 1960s. Even in the early 1970s, the media was torn. We had Myra Breckenridge and the Christine Jorgensen story - but we also had "Beyond the Valley of the Dolls", "Dressed to Kill", and "Freebie & the Bean" where beatiful transsexuals were psychotic killers or assisins.
In high school I hung out with the gays and their women friends. I was hoping some of the girls were bi or lesbian. Of course, those who were had no interest in me. I enjoyed the protection of people thinking I was gay, but I also found it frustrating when guys would come on to me and try to seduce me as a guy, stroking my hairy arms or legs, loving my 5 oclock shadow, not realizing how much I hated these things about myself. A friend who had moved to a different school started inviting me on double dates with different girlfriends of his girlfriend. It was obvious that I liked girls, but it was also obvious that I didn't like anybody touching me "down there".
When I went to college, I picked a school with 900 women and 25 men, so I could "be one of the girls" without having to worry about being hassled by men for being a sissy. At the end of my first semester, my dance class have me two magazines - one with bondage and fetish themes, and the other with guys dresssed as girls. The transvestite magazine almost made me sick. These guys didn't shave their legs, didn't shave their arms, a few even had 5 oclock shadows, and they were flat chested. She-male magazines weren't available back then (1974) and I thought they were making fun of me. The problem was that I also worked on the stage crew and even though I had "paid my dues" by cleaning out a paint well filled with sawdust, urine, a few dead cats, and things even more disgusting - then came back with a smile and said "What's next?". However, the boys on the stage crew took great pleasure in harassing the crap out of me. They would ask me to perform feats of strength that were actually dangerous. I got hurt several times. I wanted to work in the costume shop where I could sew, the school wanted me on Stage Crew.
Sophomore year, I met a girl. She figured I'd be a fun "one night stand", but when I seduced her as a woman seduces a woman (something I'd learned watching adult movies and reading books and stories written by women about lesbian experiences), she decided I was a keeper. She was even more surprised when she tried to reciprocate and I winced in pain. She asked what was wrong and I told her I was a virgin. I became her lesbian lover for most of the rest of the year. She was very clear that I was more like a girl than anyone suspected. She kept my secret, because she didn't want any other girls stealing me away.
I didn't want to be transsexual, I wanted to be a GIRL! A beautiful, sexy, bitchy, emotional, giggly, happy, GIRL! I wanted to be a WOMAN! I wanted my balls to be gone, along with the little vienna sausage hiding between them. for 30 years I sang a little song to myself "I have an itsy bitsy teeny weeny shriveled up and wrinkled peenee - and I wish it would just go away".
I had no interest in hard drugs, and quit drinking and drugging in late 1977. However, if I had known where I could get estrogen and spirolactone (at that time I only knew them as "girl pills") i'd have done almost anything to get them. Probably a good thing I didn't since many of my closest friends had gotten AIDS and were among the first to die.
If I were to (I have to admit the thought has crossed my mind more than once), I'd wait until a genetic solution is found. Surgery is for emergencies and conditions where there is no other viable option; I don't fall into that category (yet) and am precluded by both age and medical condition from doing so. I'm retired and my accepting SO passed 3 years ago, so nothing in that area would be a barrier, but at this point, I think not.
I would transition fully if I had the money!
Sometimes I wonder.... and recently I came to a conclusion that I do not really care of what my gender is.
As long as I am comfortable - so be it.
Would I go through a full transition if some instant magic pill will become available? Definitely!
Would I do a modern-medicine transition? Most likely no. To much hassle and no guarantee for a 100% result.
I agree no problem mixing parts I tried HRT but only got big nipples and little breast growth, settled for implants, very pleased with results.Quote:
Originally Posted by JuliaM
I have no doubt I would have transitioned decades ago knowing what I know now. I would never transition at this stage of my life, but that Million Dollar Challenge to dress for a year would be right up my alley.
I think in my case I would definitely say yes. If I were very much younger I would defilitly explore fully transitioning. But when I was 20 or so it was taboo and mostly unheard of. My problem is that I'm sitting on the proverbial fence, caught in between. I can take some half measures to feel somewhat good about myself like getting breast implants, but I also realize I'd be living in between genders. I think that today a full transition is out of the question. I would however like to be able to either fully accept that I am male or female and not have the doubts running through my head driving me crazy. So yes, I do wish I was fully wired to be transexual and just get everything over with and live a normal life not questioning.
Cheryl
no i am a man but i love crossdressing
I love all things femme, not only the clothes. I am a soft and sensitive man. i am envious and admiring of the female way as opposed to male. I love to observe how "fem" women look and act, and not just from a physical attraction to them.
Won't happen but if I could, I would live as a woman.
Lisa.
Oh, dear girls that... "Would, But!!!!"... I'm 63 years old, fat, butt ugly, have a few health issues, and am reaching the end of my first year on hrt. I plan to do the paper change and begin rle in December or January. I've alienated half my family. As for friends, that would pretty much be the guys I work with, no real outside friends. I may not make it all the way to srs, but I've lived long enough pretending to be a man. It's my time to live now, and to hell with the rest of the world if they don't like it!
As the old song goes, "I gotta be me, I gotta be me! To stand there and try; To do it or die; I gotta be me!"
Leah
Nope, I don't wish to be TS. I love cross dressing. I have been known to fantasise about having real boobs (and if someone invents some method whereby I could appear to have realistic boobs "on demand" at reasonable cost then I'd be at the front of the queue). But most of the time I'm perfectly happy to be a man.
Of course, I can only speak for lil ole me!
I am taking everything all in phases right now, very soon planning on going to Denver, CO to do a male to female makeover, I haven't been on here for awhile, finances is what was holding me back last year but now my finances are alot more better, probably the point where I am at right now is as far as crossdressing is I go through up and down phases, it all depends on if I want to transition, am undecided on that, also I have noticed something different mentally going on since I have accepted and became aware of my female side, I am alot more self aware, also I am alot more aware of my surroundings and am able to read people alot better, also my interactions with people have improved alot, its even amazing how other people have noticed I changed to one of my friends told me I seem more self aware.
Since about age 10, I have I wanted to be a girl. Recently, after much discussion with my SO, I decided to get breast implants as the next step in being the woman I have always wanted to be. However, we have agreed that I won't go for full transition. So this is as far as I will go. I initially wanted to go for the full monte, but after researching all that is involved and the risks, we are both content with the overall body hair removal and my new breasts. I only wish I had started this while I was much younger.
Do I wish to be a full transsexual? In an ideal world, yes (except for SRS). But in a less than ideal world do I have any intention of being fully TS? In a word, no.
Not at this moment, no. I crossdress & am androgynous because I feel that my sex is an incomplete description of myself.
I don't necessarily feel as if I was born in the wrong body, more so than just being restricted by my assigned-at-birth sex.
The situation might change in the future, but at the moment I somewhat consider myself, more or less, a male.
Yessa verry but theres a catch i want to be a male too lol i still love women so my wish would
Be like i wish i have 2 bodies one is 3 inches shorter , got a history of hormones before 13, and a b cup and a butt to die for, and the other one is currently my body hehehe
The other day when asked by wife I wanted to transition, I said I was not sure but didn't think so. That said, I have taken some bold steps lately. I played with a bit of herbal enhancement for a short while but without my wife's knowledge but I have fessed up now and we're mostly on the same page. I took enough to get the tingling and I think a bit of growth but most likely it just spurred on my existing moobs. I have been doing massage and am pretty pleased and I'm almost a 38 B now. My breasts seem prominent to me but that me because I'm pretty slim (lowest weight in 20+ years). I recently ordered my first bras online for use without forms (Barely There) and underdressed for most of yesterday and today. This is new for me. I have also been sleeping in soft things off and on with my wife's ok. I have a couple of dresses but have never been dressed outside of the house and a large collection of lingerie and stockings that wife has bought me from thrift shops or for valentines and birthday presents.
Up to this point I have been more of a fetish dresser and my sessions with or without my wife usually ended in an O. But in these cases while thrilling, no release happened and I was ok with it. As I have mentioned in other posts, I had lengthy post vasectomy pain syndrome and I only have one testicle now. When I was in constant pain, I thought heavily of getting rid of the other one, however a vasectomy reversal ended the pain I'm the one I still have. Had the remaining one been removed it may have made the decision to transition a little more clear. Mostly since I have been hanging here and listening and learning about other's situations, I think I'm more confused than ever. Not sure where my journey is going and that is causing a lot of anxiety. I try not to be bummed about it but it does weigh heavily on my mind.
Aren't we sort of missing the point here? Do you wish to be? Then the ideas of surgery and or whatever else. That is not what decides who is TS and who is not. Being TS is an internal thing. Not all will transition for whatever reasons. I assume most would want to. I would assume that if someone really wants to be the opposite sex they were born in, that would lead to being close if not fully on the TS scale.
Personally, I don't want to be a CDer. That is challenging enough. I am just getting to a point in my life where I accept myself being somewhere in the middle of male and female. Give me the option to get rid of that, and become a solid cisgendered male, I would not hesitate.
Gendermutt, my H would say the same I'm sure. Being without the crossdressing would be his choice, too. No one with a right mind would actively choose to have a difficult life!
I think maybe this thread is one of the fantasy threads common here, for I sincerely hope no one would WANT to be TS. For a start, these are women born in the wrong body - not men wishing they can have the best of both worlds. Trust me, we all want that, but I don't see many cisgendered women marching into surgery to have penises attached. We can tap into our masculine energy without one, thank you very much!
If you're a woman in a man's body then transition is your only option as they haven't figured out DNA swap yet. But this difficult road isn't for those who think being a girl is fun! We're just people like you, and those who are one of us know this and they also know they have to transition or die. Having never been anything but in sync with my gender, I can't even imagine the feelings that women and men born in the wrong body feel. I'm just glad there are surgical and hormonal options available.
But it's not a fantasy and being a woman isn't just boobs and pretty clothes. It's as tough over this side as it is for men. The reality would be incredibly disappointing, and while it's fun to wonder, sometimes you also have to accept your limits and make the best of what you have.