Hi that's what I think the level of my make up is . Pun intended.LOL. I think men and women whom don't crossdress have to have a small % of the others mind set ,like, Women will be like say 90% to 95% female and the rest male and vice versa for men. Other wise we could not relate to each other like we do EH! Before I started to gout in the world dressed as Christina the 30% was inflated to fill the 70% Of the rest of MIKE, the fem part was mushed down in the smallest part of my soul. My manhood was artafishly inflated, and Christina was Crying and screaming to be free. For years I could not say while watching TV "oh that's A outfit, It would look great on me" when I almost said that I would have to bit my lip to not say IT. In 91 I told my family and friends, but still Christina was trapped. Until last year . My sis whom was driving for me helped me , I was ready to do it. I bought my first wig and breast forms and was on this sight( witch helped me so much thank you all for the support :cheer::kiss::kiss::thumbup:) and had my first make over. You all can read of my first time out it under "My first time out YAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!! since then I have been out as Christina 10. All by my self. Yesterday was the best day ever. But I will write about it soon. My fem side is now bigger. I would say she's up to 40% only 30% more to go. You see I have 6 long dangle ear rings all the time for years now,and long painted acrylic nails,since my 3rd outing. They have been painted since Aug 9th and acrylic since Halloween last year 2008. Painted red or pink,blue green gold witch they are now. I cry much more and don't care if people see. Its is so much better to let all the boo hoos out then keeping them in like a good boy should.After all BOYS DON'T CRY EH.I have outed my self (To people whom did not know I Am CD;) to my accountant and my car guy, Whom says he's very proud of me and said I looked hot,He could not stop shaking my hand and saying wow you look so hot.Wow that was a day, HOOOOO!!!!!!!!! He did not even know it was me he had to look at my car to know who I was . LOL. SO my % of male and female part of whom I am is all most to where it should be.I am much happier now then I ever was. If you need a way to explain it to your Wife, girl friend,boy friend then you may use my explanation. If it works for you. The only two things I need in my live now Is a woman whom I can grow old with and love with this huge heart I have( and get your minds out of the gutter girls;) And find I new better Job. I don't want to drive truck any more But I have no other real skills to do any thing but hard Back breaking work. SO my sole Is almost full, save for the two that is. Well that's it I think after years if trying to figger out how to tell someone why , I think (for me anyway at least) it the best way to explain. Will it work for you maybe yes maybe no only you can know. I hope this has given you some insight, And maybe you have after reading this have had a "wow oh wow she hit the nail right on the head for me". But I wont' hold my breath,cuz It's what I have found out about myself, and I feel so much better about myself now I have got it. Well I hope you liked this look into my inner sole. HUGGS :hugs: From A much happier girl :canada:
