Horrible Timing but a lot of Hope
I am finally back in the U.S. (YEAH!). So after reading a lot of recent threads about telling parents about your cross dressing I decided I was finally going to do it. Well, not exactly - I told myself if the opportunity presents itself that I would take it.
So after coming back from my morning hike today my mother was sitting at the dining room table waiting for me so we could talk. The conversation at first focused on issues with my ex-wife and kids and my new duty assignment. As we talked the conversation drifted to my other issues.
My mother was telling me about some of her indiscretions in her youth and then she asked me if I was gay. Her best friend at work is a lesbian and she said it is ok that she will always love me. I told her no but that there were other issues. I have been home 4 days and asked her if she noticed I shaved everywhere now and she said she had and asked me if I liked it; I told her yes of course!
So I continued to keep the conversation going and I finally decide I am going to do it, I am going to tell her right now. I take a deep breath and the words are about to leave my mouth when I hear the front door open - it is my ex-wife walking in! Totally killed the moment. Both I and my mom had this look on our faces because she could tell she was not welcome at that moment but what was done was done.
Just so everyone knows, my mother and ex-wife have a good relationship and I encourage it. It was simply unexpected that she would come in at that very moment. My ex-wife does know about my dressing now, I told her about 2 weeks ago but I was not ready to discuss it with her and my mother ( I will share the email I sent to my ex at a later date).
I did get to go shopping with my mother later in the day. We were looking for me some drab shorts but she wanted to look at women's shoes too. I went through the shoe department with her and it was so much fun picking out shoes for her and telling her what type of women's shoes I thought looked good (wishing I were getting them for me)!
So the conversation is delayed again but I have a feeling (and a hope) that my mother will be waiting at the dining room table again tomorrow morning.
I also want to give a thank you to all those that have gone before and shared their stories. It is your courage that helps me continue to take these steps. I will give an update when I tell her.
Danielle
