The thrill of getting caught

I can not speak for all but I am sure there are a few girls like me , willing to push the limits of outting yourself. What I mean is anyone you might know catching you either dressed or pushing the gender boundries while still presenting male but certain area's of attire are feminine. I always do little stupid things like walking out to the mail box in heels, wearing girly sandles or heels in a public area and showing off my polished toes, wearing too much mascrea, or a darker eye shadow and lip gloss male mode. It is as if I get a high doing these things and wonder what I would say if I got called out on it. The other day I went into a local resturant that I often go to in my girly flats and fresh feminine pedicure. I drove to go in the Casino today in a pair of jewled t strap 2 1/4" heels and as I walked across the parking lot, I chickened out and walked back across the street to my car and put my drab guy shoes on. I got home and I decided to wash my car, I have the most feminine pink pedicure and in open toe sandle heels my feet look 2 cute. I can't explain why but doing this makes me feel the most feminine. I live in a semi rual area but houses are around but my neighbors set off the road some and my next door neighbor is like 100'feet to my left. My house is about 140 feet off the road. I said to myself I need to start wearing heels more and do more thing wearing them so that it comes natural to wearing them. I start washing my car in some plaid womens slacks and top and my jeweled sandles. I could hear car passing by and unless their blind they can see my feet. I wasn't worried about the neighbor , he never comes over. here I am bent over washing my wheels , yes I did occasionally look up the driveway to see if anyong was coming up. Nest thing I know the UPS truck is about 20 feet aways from me , my heart starts to race knowing he got an EYE full of me in heels. I casually walk fast around the front of my car and into my garage to change shoes. This guy is my regular UPS and I always order parts from summit, autozone tire rack you name it , he also bought me some girly stuff before but who knows if he paid attention. We talk a little and he acts like he didn't see anything. I should have just walked up to the truck in my heels BUT again I was chicken. This is what I was wearing is there any way he didn't notice , they don't look to feminine huh !!

Denise, I know exactly what you mean. I'm always taking a lipstick or lip gloss and applying it while I drive, like all of the other girls and wondering (perhaps hoping) someone is watching me. Then, there are the trips to the mall and I'm almost always underdressed in a cute, V.S. pushup and if you looked closely you'd see the telltale signs of mascara. Of course, carrying a little Brighton purse over my shoulder might give me away too!

I almost allways have one of my pinky's painted and im in constuction , it completes me . if ever caught im prepared to say " my daughter painted it and she wants me to keep it on for a while ".

So I wonder, what happens when everyone knows and no one really cares? Considering that the world probably won't end, when you get caught and then outted, what is your next fun thing to do?

When a bra strap slips and a nice looking lady says to you nice color and the world dont end youve got it made.

I reckon it's the euphoria one gets from the rush of adrenalin or endorphins from "almost" getting caught or not really knowing if you were caught.

The rush to change before getting caught is part of keeping this kind of euphoria going. Talking yourself into not trying to hide it may lessen the effect, especially when no one seems to care. Or it can change to a different kind of euphoria, ditching the "being scared" part.

I use to get high the same way! But now I just don't give a hoot who sees me! I am what I am!
btw Pretty feet! Hugs!

Yeah I know the thrill. I had some waxing done a while back and I asked the tech to do my eyebrows. I explained that it would be nice to just have them shaped a bit. When it was all said and done my SO said they were too pointy at the front and a little feminine. It was a bit of a thrill cause she kept saying I think somebody is going to notice. If someone did notice, they never said anything.

If the UPS man didn't notice he must be blind.


Vieja

A few years back I had a CD friend who used to pick me up for meeting early in the afternoon "dressed".
He lived in another town and didn't seem to care who saw him. At the time I had a business in this small
town and it bothered me so much I broke off our friendship. Now years later, after being retired, I dress in
some femm manner daily. I related in a post a few days ago about meeting my new neighbors in femm shorts,
blouse and sandals and yes my toenails are always painted. By the way our new neighbors are turning out to be
good friends. I understand the "high" you get from pushing the envelope so to speak. But like someone has
already said, after awhile it becomes old hat and you will probably feel more relaxed and more like it's just
who you are. Anyway that's the way it is with me. After a while you realize no one really cares anyway.
Nice picture by the way.

My guess is UPS drivers and other delivery people have seen it all and are pretty used to anything. My neighbor came over to borrow my weed eater a few weeks ago, and I figured I could just open my garage door and let him get it. But I had to start it for him and he could see my very pretty pink nails as I showed him how to work the choke and the gas. He didn't say anything either, but it was a thrill to be outed by someone that knows me. I have always enjoyed under dressing or having my nails done out in public. It is exciting and makes me feel wonderful!

Getting "caught" for me, sounds A LOT like my toast falling on the floor butter side down! But, HEY! Whatever blows your hair back, ladies!

Hi Denise. I've had that thrill since I started dressing as a little boy. Its actually a humiliation thing; being embarrassed, teased, or humiliated if you were "caught". I've always had strong fantasies about this.

No thrill at all for me running the risk of getting caught--unless it's on my own terms. That is, if I could thereafter living every minute of my life as my true self. I'm wondering if it wouldn't be better for me to allow the whole world to "catch" me.

Annabelle

Denise you are a girl after my own heart. I want to make this reply a long one, but I wont. I have on a feminine watch. And a pink hair band on my right wrist w/ light greenish(cyan) colored small beaded bracelet also a pinkish purple(fuschia) band. I used to keep my nails polished but they aren't right now. I just love this stuff but I do it on purpose and no one says anything. I want to tell more but it is too much. lol Isn't this life fun?

Tess

Denise: 2 things

1. This past Tuesday I had to attend a funeral for my Aunt Alice. I wore a mens suit and tie and under dressed in one of my Passion Lace Plunge Bras, an Essential Lace Cami, Panty, and Pantyhose. People who attended do not know I cross dress. I chatted with many Family members and Friends that were there and never once thought about my under dressing. Many of my Family Members are people I rarely see due to my primary residence being in Southern California. I did get a few hugs and a few kudos. No one said anything and if they felt bra straps, that were very thin, they did not respond to it.

2. Last fall while shopping at a Lane Bryant Store, A lady shopper and her 10Y/O daughter were shopping near by when the daughter told her mother, "That man(me) is wearing a bra". The mother came to ask when I stated "Yes Madam, I am, I have been wearing a bra every day for the last 20 years". I was also wearing a ladies botton front shirt with the top botton undone. I bent over some what and let the mother get a look at my size 44"D" cleavage. The mother went back to her daughhter and said "lets go". Mother and daughter quickly left the store. I continued shopping.

It is enjoyable to know that some of you understand me and what makes me tick. It truely is wonderful to not be alone. Thanks for all the responses:)

PSW: New adventure will be posted up

that is a really cute pink pedicure

That's a vivid fantasy of mine--getting caught by another crossdresser.

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Originally Posted by Silk

I've been going through different levels of riskiness lately. First was buying stuff, then getting more adventurous around my wife when she didn't know, then telling her, then going outside dressed or adventurously underdressed.

I think I've realized that in a way, I want people to know this about me. It's almost as if some subconscious part of my mind has finally had enough, and is saying, "you need to recognize me." Of course, there's a difficult social aspect tied to this, so I keep sticking my painted toe in to metaphorically test the waters. When it doesn't get bit by a big, bad shark, I go a little futher.

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That kinda sums it up ::: I too push it further at times and the words (Finally had enough) yes it is hard to go thru life repressing the real YOU. Our fear it will up-set some people and the ones we love. Yes, there are repercusions when people find out you are really a crossdresser. Some people and at some places you just don't want them to know completely.

I don't think it's the 'thrill' of getting caught, so much as it is the intense desire to be found out and surprisingly accepted and even loved by the person who notices you in your feminine 'mode'. When I was young, I used to do some pretty risky things to 'almost' get caught while dressed up as a girl, always fantasizing about the person who was discovering me, somehow loving the idea of me as a girl. Reality, however, was another thing entirely. Family doesn't accept it at all, and wife divorced me over it. So much for wishful thinking.

Ah, the thrill of getting caught wearing a dress among the neighbors would only be superceded by the thrill of finding an apartment, new friends, new relatives and a new job!

I have been pushing it too and I know my wife knows, (we had a long discussion about how she disapproves of this) I took a week off and I was miserable to the point of I didn't want to do anything, I had zero drive to be productive. So I went back to what keeps me sane and happy, I know she is not happy but what can I do it makes me happy and this is how I want to be. I have been asked one time if I was wearing womens jeans and my reply was "no they are my jeans" maybe made for women in mind, but I am a woman in my mind.

I'm not really trying to get caught. I generally go out en femme, but on some occassions I'll wear heeled sandals and womens jeans, as I did on Friday while my wife and I enjoyed mararitas and lunch on the patio of a local restaraunt. . But I really don't consider that an attempt to get "caught". I'm to the point where I don't particularly care if someone happens to notice my painted toenails or heels. They're just as likely to seem me fully dressed.

To those of you who seek the thrill, which of the following scenarios ring more true to you?

A. If we lived in a world that accepted the outward appearance of feminine men and it was common, do you think you'd just be wearing pretty things as a part of your every day presentation (whether partially or fully feminine), and not be so "thrilled" about it, as if it were just a regular thing to wear?

B. Or again, if we lived in a world that accepted the outward appearance of feminine men and it was common, then do you think you'd find a different form of expression that was taboo?

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Originally Posted by Vieja

If the UPS man didn't notice he must be blind.


Vieja

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Hi Vieja, I have a friend that is a UPS del.driver yoy wouldn't believe some of the stories he can tell about what he's seen.

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Originally Posted by ReineD

To those of you who seek the thrill, which of the following scenarios ring more true to you?

A. If we lived in a world that accepted the outward appearance of feminine men and it was common, do you think you'd just be wearing pretty things as a part of your every day presentation (whether partially or fully feminine), and not be so "thrilled" about it, as if it were just a regular thing to wear?

B. Or again, if we lived in a world that accepted the outward appearance of feminine men and it was common, then do you think you'd find a different form of expression that was taboo?

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ReineD,
Great question, and answer will vary. But for me, there is a definite thrill to the taboo part. I also think this is tied in with our innermost sexual desires.
Phlover

ReineD: You are a very intense person. I guess I would pick (A) because feeling pretty is a woman thing and if society accepted feminine men that wanted to be called Pretty , who wouldn't. I ask you :: are REAL GG's thrilled about wearing high heels, having nails and hair done bi weekly wearing underwire bras, and applying make-up everyday ?? to a crossdresser that stuff is thrilling to a regular woman I think NOT...

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Originally Posted by DeniseNJ

ReineD: You are a very intense person. I guess I would pick (A) because feeling pretty is a woman thing and if society accepted feminine men that wanted to be called Pretty , who wouldn't. I ask you :: are REAL GG's thrilled about wearing high heels, having nails and hair done bi weekly wearing underwire bras, and applying make-up everyday ?? to a crossdresser that stuff is thrilling to a regular woman I think NOT...

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Nope. That is why we relish the days of sleeping pants and flip-flops and pony tails. Think about the fact that we have been doing these things daily from the time that we hit puberty. The newness and fun of it wear off. Sure, we got thrills the first time we shaved our legs. The first time our mothers let us buy lip gloss. Our first bra! They were moments of joy and will forever be in our memory! Then there is the first period, and the first time you beg for a hysterectomy because you had your second period. Ugh. The cramps alone could bring you to your knees.

I think that CDs would be the same way. If you had to do the mundane tasks of plucking, shaving, primping, and priming for 20 years straight, the newness would eventually wear off for you too. Then, your fun is gone.

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Originally Posted by JamieTG

Hi Denise. I've had that thrill since I started dressing as a little boy. Its actually a humiliation thing; being embarrassed, teased, or humiliated if you were "caught". I've always had strong fantasies about this.

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I am with you on this honey. I also am likely to need a spanking too.
I do not get caught. My TG'edness is my business at the moment.

A quick story:
I recently was on a road trip and had a private room so I brought some of my girl things to relax in. Upon return I had to dash off to another appointment so I was hurrying loading my stuff back into my apartment. I use a little cart and have to go through a small court yard....Anyway I lost the bag with my girl stuff(sob)and did not realize til I got home later that evening. I was calling hotels and searching hi and low but no bag.
Lost my expensive forms and perfume and epilator too, boo hoo hoo....anyway not to go on and on.

I over heard the maintenance guy telling my neighbor the next day that he found a bag with prosthetic breasts in it but they do not know who it belongs to!!!you know rolling his eyes, like it was the juiciest thing that has happened in this hum drum complex.

Anyway, he is a troll, creepy guy whom I am mad at, got get mad at someone, well it was me who was careless....so there goes my stuff$$$ I just hope he is not wearing my boobs LOL!!!

I am glad I was not outed here where I live. That thought does not excite me.

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Originally Posted by DeniseNJ

ReineD: You are a very intense person. I guess I would pick (A) because feeling pretty is a woman thing and if society accepted feminine men that wanted to be called Pretty , who wouldn't. I ask you :: are REAL GG's thrilled about wearing high heels, having nails and hair done bi weekly wearing underwire bras, and applying make-up everyday ?? to a crossdresser that stuff is thrilling to a regular woman I think NOT...

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When I was a little girl, the teachers were telling my parents I was intense. lol. My boss told me the same thing when I was a young woman in my 20s. Guess I haven't changed much. :D

Anyway, no I don't get excited when I wear pretty things. I like to dress nicely and look my best for special occasions like anyone else, but is there the same type of excitement that a CDer feels? No, not even close. Not even when I was in my 20s.

I did, however, enjoy being admired as a young woman and I still feel flattered when a man looks at me with appreciative eyes. It's a complement. It doesn't excite me though. But, I never take it that the clothes cause the admiring glances. It's the whole package: body, face, hair, demeanor, personality ... no matter what a woman is wearing, IMO.

I am always pushing the limit, my wife keeps telling me I want to get caught, Idon't really but as said before "the world will not end" if I do.

I will get dressed and drive to a sonic or some drive through and just watch thier reactions most of the time i bet its a shock for them or i will find the drive through with girls and have fun.

When my new feminine self first was coming out, I was still living with my dad, who knew absolutely nothing about what I was doing. Even the night of the modern-day re-creation of this went under the radar. I did a little shopping as my new self, enjoying the new publicity under the female moniker.
The problem would usually come either leaving for a gender meeting or a drag show or coming home in the wee hours after bar time. My dad would wonder what was I doing coming home this late. Almost caused him to evict me out of the house. He got over the anger, though.
It would be about a year later when I met someone who was from out of town. We hit it off, eventually agreeing to let me stay with her. So, one night in early July 1999, I packed up some belongings and skedaddled from my dad's house to live with her in what turned out to be another state....which is an entirely another story altogether.