Originally Posted by
Rick5881
You're right, I wasn't honest from the beginning, but you know nothing of me or how I tried to be a good husband. I learned from my past mistakes, not to ever take her for granted, to tell her every day how much I truly loved her, to let her know how much having her in my life made me happy. I was a coward for not having the self respect to not let her know I had shameful issues, shameful only because they are socially un acceptable . I was wrong to lead her to believe that I was more of a cowboy than I am, but I am a man regardless of what most people think is acceptable. I work in construction, I work an average of 70 hours a week, I took care of our home, painting, planting, mowing, taking out the trash etc, I also said I made passionate love to my wife, I did, because I love her more than sex, it was about being one with the one you love.. Yes I made mistakes, many, you were right on many levels of your interpretations of my post. I felt disrespected that she would go through my iPad , I think in any relationship there has to be some level of personnel intimacy, I never meant to keep secrets but I was trying to get input from other people that understood my plight more than the average