They are fake, but I feel spectacular
I made the leap to purchase a pair of silicones from the brick-and-mortar CD store in NJ. Very nervous on the purchase and nervous to tell my wife (I will get to that later in post). I had some thoughts about this entire experience.
First, the salesperson is so experienced in the world of CD. He measured me (did not know I was a 42), and asked me about my style which I responded that I just want to blend and get a size/shape that looks natural for my body type. He came back with B cups... again who would have thought I was a 42B. Lastly, these were only $50 which from what I was seeing online is a good deal. If I would have bought online, I would have for sure bought the wrong size. I have been okay with purchasing padded bras that had given me some shape, which is all I am looking for. With my new purchase, my shape definitely gave me more confidence... which again is what we all want. They are bigger than I thought, and I would have been afraid of a C cup.
Also, an interesting comment that my hair stylist made to me yesterday. I had many errands to run, and I decided that I was going to look good doing them. Dressed modestly with my new shape I went to get my car inspected, register my car license plate at DMV, a few items to shop for, and my male-syle haircut. My stylist knows about my fem side, but has never seen me dressed. I did come in two months ago wearing my wig in male clothing as a joke, which she almost peed her pants with the shock/laughter about how long my hair was since my last cut. But when I came in for my appointment dressed nice, she was impressed and complemented my style. I responded that I am already going to give you a big tip you do not need to complement me so much. She was amazed at my breast shape and could not believe they were not real. She said they looked so natural and she was jealous that they looked better than hers, and that she cannot just take them off. But the interesting comment was that she said they seemed bigger than a B cup because I am taller than most girls. I am only 5' 11'', but that height puts the breasts more at eye level to her and they seemed bigger.
As mentioned with my errands, I was trying to find a proper new bra which the world does not cater to a 42B. Also, my salesperson recommended an underwire style. I could not find one at Kohls, Walmart, or Target, but I did find one online, but that was also a difficult task.
I enjoy the shape and the slight jiggle. It is like the bra factor for us and the GGs. The GG cannot wait to take off the bra, and we cannot wait to put it on. With real breasts, the GGs and transwomen with real breast, often have health issues, and obviously some can be serious issues with back pain, infections, and cancer. I think that breasts are something that can define femininity. They are amazing organs, which are beautiful and vital to keeping every child alive and healthy for millions of years. Which is why I have been nervous to talk to my wife. I needed to measure my words on why I bought them. I do not want to become a woman, and she knows that deep down, but then when I am wearing nightgowns to bed for a week straight she is like... hmmmm.... So I said, I made a purchase to improve my shape when I am dressed. They are a B cup insert which I think is modest and I felt more confident when I wore them for the first time yesterday. Amazingly she said that she thought I was wearing them last week, but I said no that was just my padded bra (which again made me feel good that my padded bra was working a bit).
So this is my story, and I hope that it helps or at least was intriguing.
