I forgot how good it feels
you know the feeling of nerves and butter flies that you have right before you go out somewhere dressed well mine are gone
last night 2-14-10 was the second time i ever when out into the public the first time i wasnt really prepared properly and didnt really feel like i was femminin enough, but this time i figured well its a different town and iv learned how to dress better so why not iv been waiting to actualy put my nails on and be danielle for once in public soo
first off my wife like so many others doesnt really care for me dressing, now about a week ago i had a long emotional talk with her about all this and even though its still tuff for her to take it all in she said she would try and learn to accept this part of me
with that said i wanted to do something for valentines day and she love a hotel by the casino in mnt pleasent so i made the reservations and packed my stuff and comented on dressing and going around as danielle, she just asked why and i said cause iv been wanting to for a while and its a new town and nobody knows us so why not. she didnt say anything
well we did our stuff and finally about 1030 at night i said ok thats it i cant wait anylonger lets go get me a purse and a coat for danielle and ill get dressed up and go shopping. she thought i was joking at first but then let up
ok i got dressed at the hotel and made sure i could go out one of the back doors, i wasnt even nervouse i just went out like nothing was happening and drove all the way to the store
straightend my self up before going in ( i kept asking the wife if i looked like a women and she said yes )
some how though i think the greeter new i was a man and just said hi but i ignored it and when back to the shoes to try on some boots (parranoid from anouther post about codes stores use to tell someone about something going on in the store) i passed two or three guys that didnt even look at me and some that nodded after hearing to many pa calles i started geting a little uneasy just because mountpleasent is a college town and if someone notice that i was a man for some odd reason, a bunch of teenaged people would be passing my way, and i wasnt really ready to hear any laughing .
my wife was being so supportive when i needed her the most (so nice for a change ). she asked if there was anything else i wanted to look for and i told her that theres to many people here right now and i dont feel comfortable , i was trying so hard just to go on and shop enfemm and not let it bother me but i just had to get some air and the last thing i needed was a sales person coming up and askin me a question. so i said i would like to go now and she understood,
this was my favorite part of the night, as we were leaving the greater (same as before) made it a point to say have a nice night ladies, now i dont know if she knew or not but even if she did it made me feel good and if she didnt know then i did what i though i wouldnt ever be able to do witch it pass as a women in public,
so for this valentines day i got to hang out with my wife as danielle and go out in public as danielle and get called a lady and after all that i felt like i was me for once,
just thought i would share a wonder full weekend with yall and encoureg those who havent been outside there homes to go an do it it feels soo soo good once you have done it.
