The cheating continues...
Hehe, there are a lot of people here today, there seems to be some sort of fair on... the roads are busy and there's lots of people milling about, walking up and down and around. Including a bunch of out-of-towners who wouldn't know me from Adam (and so wouldn't recognise me from my "girl mode"). I went out among them, dressed as a boy.
I felt a little bit worried/odd about it at times, which was anxiety carried over from last night I think. (I had a phone call with mum where we discussed TGness again last night and I had ended up feeling quite bad about it all which inevitably evolved into confusion... and worrying about the nature of "me" etc).
Mainly though I felt really nice, sort of relaxed and happy, knowing they were seeing me as a boy. Because I know a lot of them (if not all) did see me as a boy, despite the length of my hair (thank goodness many boys of my style these days have emoey/girly/scruffy/longish hair).
I loved sitting there on a bench in the park while people bustled past occasionally stopping to pet my dog, knowing that not a single curve was showing, and that should anyone happen to look/accidentally notice, that there was a pretty cool bulge showing... if you know what I mean. (Not that they would look, but it made me feel happy/secure/cool knowing it was there! And hey... some people do look sometimes :heehee:).
And I enjoyed people "interacting" (looking, nodding, smiling, whatever) with me as a boy.
*puts hands behind head and sits back and sighs*
aaaaaahhhhhhhh :happy: