Originally Posted by
~Renee~
Michelle I am 15 years behind you in this journey and fear the same thing. I openly wonder to my wife I feel I'm letting you down and her response is the same as Jacques, it's the same you. I talk to her a lot about what I'm feeling and it's given her a better appreciation of me. I greatly moderate my expression, but I let her know when the pink wave is rising. She sees in those moments I need time to express myself physically or in words. It's been an extremely painful journey to get here but she has learned Renee is the better part of me.
Have you tried to stop and see what she does?
Is she willing to talk to you about your feelings?
She might decide that Michelle is more desirable then old male you.
Communication is vital.