No sex with wife and I still love her
This is an excellent and thoughtful thread.
Thank you MarcieBflo for posting the reference to autogynephilia. Interesting read and very thought provoking. I found enlightenment in that article, like you did.
After that article I can say that I understand why I like pleasuring myself and have no interest in others and why my fantasies are about myself as a woman. I understand why I want more mirrors in my bedroom to see myself and reinforce my fantasy with a visual proof.
I love my wife but we have not had a sexual interest in each other in a long time and we have been married for 33 years ... so it is a long time.
Still in love but more so with myself
Tisha