What to do, where to start, how to cope
Well I really don't know where to start. I've felt I should have been a girl from about ten or so, was told and guided to act and behave a male. It gets harder and harder every year. I'm 41 now and very fit and healthy but feel time has run out. If I were to get diagnosed transgender or having gender dysphoria then my job and career are gone (regulated). Members of my family dislike people who are gay and would disown me in a second so I never let my guard down, if I did all would be gone. I cry quite often and have managed so far (have cried hard in the car driving often and teared up on the airlines) not to lose it in public for the most part. How do other people cope with the pain.