A day of firsts, oh what a night.
I have a niece who's in the medical field and is well-established. I was never really close to her and we really didn't talk too much about my cross-dressing over the past 20 years but I finally open up to her about my life. Talking to some of the more experienced women in here has helped a lot. Yes! Am I little superficial, do I seek attention from other gender girls. I'm more concerned with looks and passing and forgot about how I feel inside .. My new found freedom of living alone for the past 8 months so far has been both frustrating filled with loneliness but also filled with excitement at the same time. Yes I have I went out more dressed up as Denise in the past 6 months and in the past 20 years ,sure. We all have our favorite places to go when we dress up and try to look pretty. About to go to the so-called vanilla places in everyday life, the girl who called it that knows who I'm talkin about it's kind of challenging.
Well yesterday I get up, and I said to myself what would it be like just to go about your daily routine as a woman. So I get ready makeup, put a nice feminine top on some leggings and sandals and go out. First stop was a see this girl Michelle at the produce store in a farmer's market. I've shown her pictures but going in fully dressed is another story. Wonderful she couldn't stop talking to me. I stopped off at another store right by where I buy my knee high socks and she was wonderful. I go to the nail salon ,I visit never visited before as a female and had a polish change. Next was a ride to Boscov's to pay my credit card and visit the girl Lindsey at Estee Lauder. Well it just so happens they were giving away a free gift. Her and her boss couldn't give me enough compliments my nails my makeup what a confidence booster. I bought a day-wear antioxidant cream for my face and leave. I stopped by Christopher and Banks to see Melissa, by the way my favorite woman store now I end up buying a long sleeve solid green turtleneck type of sweater shirt for like 15 bucks on sale. Now I had been texting with my niece and showing her pictures of my journey. She says you need a nice necklace to go with that shirt. Next was Burlington coat factory I bought a cheap necklace. I come home and my niece tells me well that looks really nice. Won't you come down to Harrah's in Atlantic City and see my husband play in the band. She suggested I come is Denise. Well after about 7 hours of being Denise, I couldn't go another 7 hours without shaving so I wash up. I get ready and this time I slip on my 4 " strappy sandals with a round tower type heel. I never went outside with these shoes before but I felt I could walk in them due to a little platform. I drive to Atlantic City ,an hour's drive.I was a little nervous because her husband never saw me as Denise. She sees me outside the venue and waves me in and I sit down with her and her nursing friends. Being a little bit nervous it showed and Diane told me relax enjoy yourself and be you. I had these three really pretty women hanging with me and wanted me to dance. Damn I can walk in these shoes but I never danced in heels this tall before. I had on a really pretty red pedicure ,when I say I danced all night I'm not kidding. Other than one little wobble cuz I got a little frisky out on the dance floor I was like one of those girls on dancing with the stars.. It felt good to have the attention from these girls hugs and even if some kisses one in particular Maria made my heart sink. My niece is like hey if you're going to go for it you need to go all the way I'll set you up with breast augmentation, facial feminization, liposuction and a brow lift. I'm like slow down, I haven't even had my second session of therapy yet. lol. I told her my feet were hurting from all the dancing her response was get used to it. I said I brought a pair of flats with me in the car and she said that's a no no , I would never do that you want to be a girl you're going to have to suffer through the pain of looking good. I had so much fun last night and I spent 20 hours as Denise. I even had a couple guys compliment me on my hair I don't think they knew I was a guy. I was wearing the dark brown bob wig. Spending the day and going about my life as a girl was fantastic. I have a nice lavender color on my nails and the girls couldn't give me enough compliments how nice they looked. I know this is a long read but it's reality. And it felt good. Thank you all for tuning in to, As the girl turns....
