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tess-leigh
How do you know whether you are "transgendered" or just a crossdresser? This isn't the usual question about how do you know whether you are "transsexual".
Um, last time I checked Crossdressers came under the Transgendered Umbrella.
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I do not feel like "I should have been a woman", and I am not sexually attracted to men.
I missed the page in the manual that said all woman must be attracted to men. My wife isn't attracted to men. I'm not attracted to men.
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But that's defining me by what I am not,
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and there is a lot of ground between "being a male who likes to dress in womens' clothes" and "being a genetic male who would be better off as a female".
And often a cross over in between.
Ok let me answer them from my perspective.
I'm Intersexed, genetically both. But was brought up convincingly as a male, albeit a very depressed male who felt something was missing or unbalanced. Never realised I was depressed though.
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- who did not "grow up in the wrong body"
My body was modified at birth. I guess it's wrong. Some TS do feel that, a few don't.
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- who does not hate his male organs or their associated sensations
Some TS don't hate their male genitals or the sensations. I don't, although as I break down down my barriers from the past, I have having more 'Transsexual Ja Vu'
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- who likes wearing womens' clothes
Before they were classed as women's clothes they were just clothes people wore!
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- who did some minor dressing experimentation when young (just one variety amongst other experimentations)
All kids do that. Some have different motivations though. But then my daughter like to dress up like Fairies and Princesses. It doesn't mean they are!
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- who has only been cross-dressing for about 4 years... but in retrospect, whom had been "trying things on to see how they look" more and more often for a few years before the idea of actually wearing some of them came to mind
Sounds a bit Autogynephillia to me. Borderline Fetish! But then, I make fantasies into film!
I never experienced that 'early' dressing thing, at least I can't uncover a memory yet, but then I only have a total of about 45 minutes of memories prior to age 25.
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- who has worn panties nearly every day for close to 2 years, and no longer "feels right" in men's underwear... a psychological dependancy?
That is very Transvestite Fetish. I say that because it's a secret inside expression that you are, it seems, by your own words, dependent on and therefore affects the normality of your life.
I have to admit, ladies underwear is far more well manufatured and fitting than lousy mens underwear which are made very generically to 'fit all' - now imagine if bras were made with just one cup size!
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- who wears womens pants to work the great majority of the time (but who wears men's pants too)
Men's Pants? Pant's were anatomically designed for women! Hello! History lesson! MEN have been cross dressing in womens pants for 230 years!
Women have been cross dressing in mens high heels for 240 years!
Refer to comment above about mens underwear manufacture.
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- who often wears subtle female shirts/tops to work, but will wear men's shirts too... especially if the men's shirts are some of the bulkier ones that hide forms well
Well reality check here - refer again to comment about mens clothing manufacture. Bulk and baggy is right - and one size fits all - except most.
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- who does sometimes wear a bra at work, having chosen his top/shirt so that the bra won't "show through"
This could be fetish.
See I don't understand the "secret" side. Mainly cause I just 'switched' over night.
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- who does sometimes wear forms at work while working (knowing that he doesn't actively work with people so few people are likely to have a chance of observing them)
Sound more and more like a very low grade Transsexual!
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- who does not spend all day thinking about how pretty his panties are or how what sexy his clothes must look. At work, he does think about his appearance sometimes, perhaps some concern about having over-done it... and if he is wearing forms then he is more likely to think about appearance and about dressing
That's the RISK OF DISCOVERY factor kicking in - the adrenaline rushing all day, the unexpected factor. That's quite fetish really.
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- who would seriously consider (e.g., likely would try it and see how it goes) wearing skirts to work some days "as a guy" if somehow the message came down that that would be acceptable to management;
That's called Queerf*cked. It's Well defined. Also refered to as Gender Benders.
http://www.tgender.net/taw/tggl/index.html
Might be of use to you.
I have always allowed free expression in the work place. Although there are times when limitations of apply such as special events and exhibitions. But I encourage staff to bring their expression to me far enough in advance to give me an idea on what they want to do. Many usually come up with ray things that are an enhancement to our appearance and attention, so I'm usually very very supportive.
I grimaced when my PA turned up on her first day working with me with Orange Hair. I said nothing for a week. then I asked why. After that, every project she changed her hair colour, quite dramatically sometimes. Even though she quickly become an Executive Producer and a Producer amoungst other things, her uniqueness was very positive for our whole team. We even use to have votes to select the colour and bets to see what colour she'd walk in with.
So why not approach your management and ask - refer to the web link above and, well a Happy Employee is a Productive Employee.
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- who hasn't thought much about presenting as a female (wig and all) at work
You don't have to. Pixar have 'Eyeshadow Friday' and 'Dress Day' and so on. Staff are encouraged to express everything they can, be they male, female or anything else. There aren't any real rules apparently.
Some cross dress for a laugh, and rightly so, Pixar's teams are exceptional in the world. If their crazyiness and bravado wasn't expressed then their films would be a dull as some of those other studios! Too Adult not enough kid!
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- who sometimes wears nail strengthener or clear nail polish, but does not often wear nail polish at work (a light pink is not unknown), and who does not usually wear nail polish even "out" (partly because it is a nuisance to put on)
Check out the site link above, go back a menu to the Section on Cross Dressers. Note the attitude about 'hair and nails'
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- who rarely wears makeup of any kind to work (might have chanced light mascera twice or so)
Many cosmetics companies have badged 'Man' cosmetic now.
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- who does not wear a lot of makeup even when fully Dressed
Lucky you! I spent 10-30 mins a day doing mine.
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- who doesn't bother to "practice" female things much at all -- doesn't bother to practice makeup, has never bothered to study voice, doesn't pay a lot of attention to walk
I don't practice at all. I spent 30 years practicing to be male, and not very successfully. Got called Girl a lot. Now they call me a Bloke a lot. Can't win!
But nothing wrong with dressing without the feminist. As someone said at Church yesterday - it's just clothes.
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- who, in other words, is not even remotely "consumed" by the need to "pass" in the sense of being 90-whatever percent taken as female
Now sounds like high level Cross Dresser, without the Female pyshcology.
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- who most taxi drivers immediately call "sir" even when fully Dressed... before he has even spoken
But you aren't trying to be a Miss!
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- who would prefer to be more regularly thought of as a woman when fully Dressed, and who would prefer to be less easily recognized as his male self when fully Dressed (partly because recognized implies knowledge of original gender), but whom just gets a bit disappointed about it and whom doesn't spend a lot of time dwelling on it
But you don't seem to be creating a gender appearance. You seem to be creating a personal comfort.
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- who often shops for female clothes while in drab, and who speaks openly about the clothes being for him in the stores, and who openly tries things in in stores without worrying that other shoppers will notice that he is trying on womens' clothes
Yup, I did that just before my transition. No one believed me. Then I shocked them! *giggles*
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- who spends a fair bit of time and research thinking about what size of breasts he would like to have for himself
Stick with the forms. I suspect you would be very disappointed with real breasts or implants.
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- but for whom, the urge towards actual breasts seems to be getting stronger
They aren't erotic. They aren't going to be Double Gs.
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- for whom wearing silicone forms around a D cup "just feels right", feeling like he should have something that shape and weight on his body, and when he is without them for more than a few days, it feels as if "something is missing"
See this is falling back into TV Fetishism again.
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- who, if breast enlargement was gradual, would let the breasts be observed more and more with the "this is how I am" reasoning... but who is not certain how he would handle the situation in case of sudden breast enlargement (e.g., implants)
Again this is TV Fetishism.
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So, given all of that... how do I tell if I am really transgender, or if I'm really just a cross-dresser with a breast fetish?
Well you are Transgendered simply by the challenge you present to perceived gender norms. What category of TG you are is quite vauge! You appear to intersect a lot of lines!
- Cross Dresser
- Gender bender
- Transvestite Fetishism (affects your normal day to day)
- Even a hint of Transsexualism but not enough to have SRS
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I am willing to (and do) go out in public to be seen as a male with female clothing and with the most obvious of the female
Nothing wrong with that if you are comfortable.
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It means I have the appearance of mixing male and female (and to be clear, I enjoy wearing skirts even as a guy)...
It's OK, Men wore tights and skirts for years before Pants were stolen from the women!
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Is the difference between "crossdresser" and "transgender" as simple as "if you seriously consider body modifications beyond hair removal, then you have gone beyond cross-dressing to transgender or transsexual" ?
Again watch those terms. But some CDs do the whole works, voice, hair, makeup, body hair. But they are just men who like to express their fem peronality. Nothing wring with that, they tend to be more socialable and understanding of TS, unlike TV Fetishism who think that if you dress in women's clothes you want to give every bloke that walks past fellatio.
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The imputous to this questions is that I started thinking about telling my mother that I consider myself to be transgender -- so I had to starting thinking of answers to the obvious question "Well, what does that mean for you?"
Actually it means all those things you said above. That is WHAT you ARE! Evidently you aren't hiding it.
And interestingly you haven't really mentioned Sexual element, so the TV Fetishism seems to be very selfish based. As I said, just intersecting the lower levels of TV and TS. If that helps you express yourself fully, confidently and happily then, well, so what! Just Do It!
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For what it is worth, the COG-whatever pseudo-science test rates me as "androgeneous" (towards the male side)
Yes my wife got similar, but no polarizing :)
Me I got told I was a woman all the way!
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and claims that I would likely suffer if I were forced to polarize towards to side or the other. Which summary does agree with how I feel. I don't feel especially that I am a woman, but I also think it is "too late to put the genie back in the bottle" and go back to being "just a male".
So don't! Have fun! If you do dress up as Jenie (from I Dream of Jenie) please post photos!
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I could imagine that at some point, after retirement maybe, or perhaps on a longer vacation, I might experiment with presenting as female "full time" for a period and see how I like that, but I do not have any inclination towards SRS. I do not rule out hormones... but definitely not until I've given up on the possibility of becoming a father!
Hormones are another issue, as is SRS. But 'living full time as a woman' is no big deal really. You could easily do it within your current life it seems. Hit the work place and see if they will cooperate. Worst case you give a few people something to laugh about and crack jokes. Sounds like you'd probably enjoy that anyway!