much more than a crossdresser
Over the years as I began to dress on a regular basis and enjoyed staying dressed for ever longer periods of time, it seemed disingenuous to me to consider myself a crossdresser. As the lady within evolved and I continued to explore the pleasures of womanhood, it became more appropriate to describe myself as a very feminine transvestite who would welcome the fate of being a girl full time.
Being a girl means so much more to me than just dressing like one and I guess that is the major reason why I no longer describe myself as a crossdresser. I always remember being fascinated by femininity and, over the years, exploring the feminine lifestyle has captivated me. The rite of dressing up and applying pretty makeup still excites me after all these years, however, I realize that this is just one aspect of being a girl. Being a girl is much a state of mind too. For me, being a woman means expressing myself from within. To solely focus only on my image is to ignore the most glorious part of the truly feminine experience. Being a girl is combining my inner feelings with my outer appearance, allowing myself to be softer, kinder, and yes, even accepting a submissive role.
For me, achieving a feminine reality and accepting womanhood not only includes the way I dress and look, but also embraces a state of feminine behavior and conduct that is acceptable in public; consists of feminine beliefs that guide my interactions and communications with others and, also very importantly, provides others with the opportunity to treat me as a lady. All of these things help me achieve a state of feminine reality.