Originally Posted by
aalynn88
This describes me well. I guess thats why I have so many mirrors in my room. LOL. I like to watch myself being the woman during these sexual encounters with men. I only like guys sexually for one reason, the penis. Other than that, I'm not attracted to the male physique at all and I also feel completely incapable of any romantic feelings for a guy. I guess it seems strange but I love looking like a woman but I definately do not feel like one on the inside. Thats why I can not kiss or cuddle with a guy before or after sex. If you are basically a straight guy, you don't want another guy kissing or cuddling you. Thats why I'm a bit confused as to a label for my sexual orientation. I don't mind being called or though of as gay because technically I am, seeing as I have sex with men but when I tell someone who asks me, "are you gay" and I say yes, I don't feel that I am giving them an accurate description of myself because I do not have the same attraction to men as most gay guys.
As far as having sex with a woman, I just really enjoy looking at the breast and vagina because I wish I had breast and vagina so incredibly bad!!!! If you recall, not too long ago, I posted on the TS forum about wanting SRS but not wanting the effects of female hormones. Boy oh boy, some of those gals sure gave me a hard time about that!! Anyway, I just wanted to find out why I woudn't be a good candidate for it.
Also, with a female, I get the emotional romantic component to a relationship. Giving candy and flowers on Valentines day and that sort of thing. Plus kissing and cuddling is really nice with a female.
I sometimes feel a bit cursed. When I had a girlfriend, more of a friend with benefits type girlfriend, she saw other people and so did I but she didn't know the other people I was seeing were men. Anyhow, during that time I felt like I needed to make a decision, is it going to be a man or a woman that I want to have a relationship with? I told myself you can't have the best of both worlds. To this day, I don't think I can. Yes, a girlfreind that would be willing to use toys on me would be nice but it would never replace the feeling of a real penis or making a man ejaculate.
Right now, Im leaning more towards having a boyfriend that a girlfriend and I imagine thats because the sex is more appealing to me than the romance. But then again, Im already missing getting to see breast and vagina. AAaarg!