A little bit of a change.
I have not been on this site to post for several months but I do drop in now and again to keep an eye on events. The reason for change is to tell you what has happened directly because of this site and the benefits it has brought me.
Basically my SO has always known about my Cding right from day one but as our relationship matured she noticed I logged onto this site several times and confronted me about my sexuality and reasons for crossdressing. I couldn't answer the second part primarily because I came onto the site to try and understand it myself. I have done the CDing for over forty years and always kept it quiet, kept my clothes in inoculous places and sometimes they never got aired or even washed for a while. My sexuality was easy, I love women of the female type, always have always will, perhaps this is why I try to emulate the appearance and feel of a female, I dont know.
Anyways I said she was ok with the Crossdressing bit and on rare occasions allowed me to partially dress but was anti me using wigs, make up or shaving my body. We even set a compromise with her about shaving my legs to my thighs. I wasnt happy but it was a beginning. I do love her so had to try and maintain peace on the home front.
One day I came home from work and she confronted me about my clothes bags, told me she had taken them all from where I kept them,( yes I was naive to think she didnt know where they were) and hung them in the wardrobe. My shoes and make up bag and wigs were neatly put away and she had even brushed and treated my wigs. At first it was confusion but then she announced that she had signed up to this very forum, asked questions and she promptly got answers to her questions that I could never answer through long term guilt or denial.
Moving along quickly I now crossdress more fully and relaxed with her full approval and encouragement. We go out shopping together and she helps Jane get a certain dignity in her appearance, No cheap underwear off the internet now, we go to high street stores and look at really nice sets, dresses and shoes. We spend time together more now, she helps me choose make up, and shows me how to put it on better and blend the right colours. The bras fit much better and she demanded I get better breast forms which is inspirational. My wigs have changed to suitable accessories rather than anything that works. My clothes have really improved and I feel nice and look as good as I could hope. Xmas just past she bought more for Jane than she did my male persona. Now we plan my dressing together. She teaches me how to accessorize jewellery. She will make a romantic meal as I am bathing and pampering myself to look good. It can take me two hours to get ready simply because I enjoy the experience much better. I come downstairs and I feel a million dollars and she always compliments me and we have some great times. We maybe do this once or twice a month,and tonight Jane is seeing the New Year in with her and that is such a long way from how it was just twelve months ago. Boxing day she pointed out a stunning blue dress and some strappy high heeled sandals in gold that were perfect for me and we had to buy them.
I embrace it now,I look forward to it all with her rather than trying to find a couple of hours whilst she was out. We recently bought a new three compartment wardrobe so the three of us has our own place for our stuff,though she does ask me now and then if she can just borrow an article which is lovely.
All it took was us to sit down and talk, and of course the original replies to her on her which allayed her fears of what it is all about.
So from one very contented girl to all those that helped me I send you all a big hugs and loads of thanks. I feel much more complete.
Jane X
