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Hi everyone. I used to hang out here back in 2009 when I first started transitioning and I started out as a crossdresser. I honestly had a lot of repressed hatred for crossdressers that I regret and have learned about myself. It was more societal learned than anything.. Well... the point is that I transitioned full time about 12 years ago and had a orchi. Now I have to get hormones injections every day and 3 times twice a week. I on occasions do 11 injections a week just because my body is so weird and estrogen makes me depressed but my body loves it. If i take T, E and progesterone together it just works and I am good.... take any one out and I go to shit mentally.....

Well now I just got off a long day of work and had a emotional freakout this morning about getting to work now that my car got repoed. I got a new job but not before they could repo it and it got sold before i could do anything. Now anytime I have to go to work my clinically diagnosed severe high masking autism gets set off as I cant take my car to work and it was a 50K cometitor to tesla.... now I have to take the bus and or a $50 lyft each way to work.... So I am not dealing with that well...

Im sitting here just bored out of my mind and needed someone to talk to and remembered that this place exists

You have hung out here quite a bit since 2009 with a few posts this year.

It is difficult to know how to help you. In the past you have posted how smart you are, starting several companies, etc. but your car gets repossessed?

Years ago you posted that you had an orchiectomy but you now take testosterone. Why would you have surgery to remove a body part that produces a hormone that your body needs?

You also have posted in the past that you smoke a lot of marijuana. Just guessing here but perhaps the weed is impairing your judgement.

My GG also is a wreck and does not handle stress..it sounds like problems are mounting. Seek a local support group/ specialist to talk. The holiday/s is tough on folks who are prone to depression etc.