Are my reasons good enough?
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Originally Posted by
ReineD
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Are you gay?
Do you want to be a woman?
Why do you do this?
Do you want to dress because I am not enough for you?
Is this just sexual for you?
How often do you think you'll want to dress?
Are you wanting to tell everyone?
Do you think you'll want to go out in public, and if so where and when?
Thank you Reine.I can answer the majority of those questions thankfully.
The only ones that I think are tricky for me are :
"WHY do you do this?
[Do I ] dress because[she is ] not enough for [me]?
Is this just sexual for [me]?"
I don't know if my answers are "good enough".
~For example, the reason I feel I do this as of now is because I enjoy exploring my fem side on occasion,and I feel the clothes and makeup are helping me do that;sometimes as I honestly feel my moods perk up when I'm all 'pretty n dressed'.
~I also know I enjoy the experience in a sexual way too,but I don't want to transition into a woman at all;I also just honestly enjoy/have FUN going back and forth between male and female.I like ,and I think everyone in general likes, to feel attractive.I like feeling like a stud when I'm a boy ,and a smokin hot number when I'm dressing like a girl:D
~How often I guess depends on their comfort levels as much as my own;I don't know if she'll want to see my dress myself up if its not like a game between us (I don't want her thinking the wrong thinking that I wanna transition one day or something)and I do not know if I'll be so comfy letting her see me that way to much....I think like years of male programming still make me feel ashamed to have her see me as not/less-than a full man....but then at the same time,I'd love to play girlfriends and you know,just try on outfits,make each other up,etc.LOL I feel that if I could get a real girls touch I can take my CDing to a higher/and more attractive ,level.
~How I'd express my sexuality I'd tread carfully though.SHe knows I'm bi,or at least very bi-curious,but I don't know if that's something she'd be able or even willing to see in me.Not because of any homophobic crap,but because she very much likes to keep everything between JUST us;for example,she felt GUILTY for having a CRUSH on another guy she worked with last summer!And a few years before this,she felt very very uncomfortable when I told her some young woman I was tutoring tried to hold my hand (even though I politely and quickly rejected that advance)Can you believe that?! lol.SO ,by extension,I can only see me expressing sexual interest out side the 2 of us as sort of a "no-no."
Thoughts?
Thank you and I am a total 'Chicken';lol
Lol,thank you all for your input!
Of COURSE,any other insights are always welcome...
I must say though,I am QUITE the CHICKEN apparently;I keep losing my nerve when a good segway to discuss this presents itself!:o