Need Advice I Am The Wife That Found Out And Trying To Understand.
Oh where do i begin? A couple of months ago i found out my husband of only a few months was a cross dresser by finding a ton of clothes in his trunk. I was mortified. How could this be? You have a son. I have a daughter and i do not want this type of relationship. Don't get me wrong these were my thoughts at that moment. I am not insulting anyone. But we have the ideal life, 2 kids a cat a dog great jobs a beautiful home and now this?? Of course at that moment i said "it is over you know that right?" his response was i expected that. He has been married 2 times before and they found out and left him. Low and behold he had told me that they left for other reasons. Anyway i decided to stick it out because of the children i mean i would jump in front of a truck for them so why not sacrifice myself for their happiness. So i asked him to get rid of the clothes and think of the kids. Well i thought he did i saw them in the trash and then last week i was supposed to go away for a meeting and i had a sick feeling that he was up to something so decided to swing by the house to see and you betcha the clothes were laying on the bed. Ok guys/gals what is this i need to understand. I feel so lost so confused. I do not find the female race attractive at all, thus my dilemma with this situation. I love the male race the masculinity and the security they present. With my husband i never have felt this feeling, if i broke up with him he would cry. I dont cry with him or any other man. he is emotional. Me i could care less when it comes to relationships. Dont cry just move on whats the big deal? I almost didnt marry him because he was so emotional and sensitive and i need a man that is stronger than me and truth be told i am pretty strong, so strong that i too have been questioned of my sexuality by outsiders, but i love love men..anyway this is not about me but about my kids.. I do not like the dressing and many of you have said that your wives have found out. How do we cope? Is it that he wants to be with a man? I did find out that he took a toy and used it but said he did not like it. He said he is not attracted to men. But then why would you dress like that? I do not understand and need you guys/gals to help me. Please....sorry this is so long..and all i can say is thank you to all those who respond..
Thank You But Still Need Your Help
Well, I Cant Thank You Guys Enough For Replying. I Know That This Is Not Easy For Anyone. But I Just Do Not Get It?? I Mean It When I Say That I Can Accept People For Who They Are But I Have A Major Quirk. I Really Think Women Are Gross..i Love A Man.. An Aggressive Dominating Male..thus This Really Sets Me Apart..i Hate Dresses..rarely Wear Them..they Restrict My Ability To Dominate And Control Things...thus The Clothes He Wears Are Far From Appealing..i Am The Cutsie Prep..i Would Permanetly Mark A Polo On My Ankle If I Could..i Am The Typical Soccer Mom..love Gucci..and Just A Typical Country Club Born Girl.and The Clothes He Had Are Slinlky Clothes, Clothes That To Me Constitute A Cheap Trashy Female. There Is Nothing Sexy About It..old Female Lesson Those Who Wear Trash Are Trash..i Told Some Of My Friends About It And Actually Thru It Out There As A What If Your Husband Did This To Some Of My Friends And They All Said The Same Thing No Way Would I Stay..it Just Takes A Way A Necessary Security That A Woman Desires..and What About Us? Our Feelings? We Are Supposed To Be The Girls And The Guys The Guys. I Want A Man To Just Take Control. Not An Emotional Person And If You Are Born With This Per Say Then What Is It?are You Too Wanting A Woman To Be That Way With You?? Because That Is Not Fair To Do To Someone. Dont Put On An Act..it Really Hurts Guys/gals. I Am Supposed To Accept This And Support Him Emotionally, What About My Needs?? I Wont Leave, Cant The Kids, Wont Cheat Because Of The Kids, Stilling Having Sex With Him But Craving A Man...have Told Him This But He Still Is Sensitive In Bed. So That Is Lalala To Me..have Tried Talking To Him Many Times.. But Dont Think I Am Getting The Truth, I Mean Really Do I Trust What He Says Is The Truth?? If You Found Out Your Wife Was Cheating On You(which To Me Cross Dressing Is Cheating, For If You Are Married Then All Your Fantasy Should Coexist With Your Spouse) Would You Trust Her? I Am Not Trying To Be Argumentative. I Am Mad, I Am Sad And Maybe I Just Made A Mistake And Am Angry At Myself For It.
Dont want to control his dressing
Sedona,
I appreciate your reply but you need to know that i do not want to control his dressing..I could care less if you do it or anyone else on this site does. One of my best friends thru my 20's was gay and he was an ex- boyfriend as well and i accepted it and even hung out with him and his new bo. But he never never was femme and secondly and most importantly I was not married to him. It is only fair that everyone on this forum not only accept and understand why you guys do it but everyone understands that when you get married that you can not and I mean can not hold this from your wives. It is not fair. Your right if you assume that the chances are that if you told them before you got married that they would not marry you. So what you guys go ahead and marry us and know that now it is legally binding and alot of you say that we stay out of love. Truth is alot of us stay becaus of kids, because what are we going to tell our friends? There is family involved, finances, and it is not as if we were beaten but if you guys only understood the emotional aspect of it on the wives. A relationship is based on many things including sexual attractiveness. And you steal that from us but now we are legally bound and yes we have grown to love you guys..You have become our partners and our suppossed futures and all along you lied to us because you are not who you portrayed to be. Especially in a case where you are watching videos(normal porn) and ejaculating to it..That really killed me. We watched that together and how do you think I feel now. Was he thinking about me when we were done or himself as a girl..Do you understand the emotional stress..Emotional stress that I did not deserve I do everrything, make great money, take care of the kids, hava all the friends, keep life exciting and you are going to do this to me. I had other options at the time and even now. Do you understand how hard that can be what if I had gone with one of them??Just trying to find my sanity again...
Marriage is a Partnership NOT a Dictatorship
Brina,
After reading both of your posts and all the posts from the girls in the group I felt like I needed to post as well. But unfortunatly I am not going to seem as if I am being very supportive to you in general but I hope that what I have to say will help you to understand what your husband is probably going through.
Being a tg is not something that we can control nor is it something that we would wixh on anyone who was not born with it. It is a life of fear and hate. Your feelings toward your husband are a prime example of what is most wrong with society today. From your discription of your self you sound like very much the tomboy which there is nothing wrong with, but you also have to understand that your husband chose to marry you probably partly because of your strength. You said that you almost didn't marry him because of what you precieved as emotional weekness. Most women would kill to have a man who had some emotion rather than be a brick when it comes to emotions. You "told" him to get rid of his clothes and he didn't, what gives you the right to order him to do anything? You are his wife not his master. As a tg who has many of the same efeminate emotions that it sounds like your husband has I would have to say that he made a choice which shows that he is willing to stand up to you when it comes to being ordered what to do. Don't assume about him.
1. It's not fair to him or your children.
2. It will only cause more problems.
And just so you know: Asking your friends about this was something that is totally unfair and unacceptable no matter who you think you are. Which by the way. Just who do you think you are in the first place?
You say thaqt you are worried about you children but everything I have read is all about me me me. Not how will the children react, how will this effect them. It sounds to me as if the only person in your life that has any importance in this situation to you is you.
Take s step back and consider for a moment that the children today are much more accepting that people your age for one thing and they are much more able to deal emotionally with this type of thing that you obviously are. It sounds to me like you were not loved enough when you were a child. That there is something missing from your genetic emotions. I only hope that your children don't turn out like you because people like you are the reason there is so much war in the world right now.
I hate to say it but maybe everyone would be better off if the two of you did divorce. On one deserves to have a woman or man who has no emotion. Emotion was a gift from God that he believed we needed not just something to be thrown away because they were usless. I truly feel sorry for you and your family. Especially your family because they will never know true happyness. At least not from my point of view.
I know that most of the girls here have tried to help you the best that they can and I would love to be in the group with them but i just can't. My first wife was just like you and that is the reason we are not married now. I have never been so happy in all my life as the day that I was finally free of her. I suppose that is the reason that I feel the way I do about your "problems". Your problem is not your husband, Your problem is your unreal expectations.
This post may get me into trouble with the group and if so then so be it. I do appoligize to the group for the way I have reacted in this matter. But if we can not express our feelings here then why bother having this group in the first place.
Anna