Mods: Please don't move this thread, I posted this here because I specifically wanted CD opinions. If TGs post here, that's fine and welcome, but I wanted those who aren't this far along to speak first.
Ok, so I'm right now just a crossdresser. Originally, I hadn't been at all interested in being even femme outside of clothing, but then I started thinking about growing out my hair (which I'm working on now), and then added on makeup. The last few days my gf has even calmed down and come into line about it, so I think I'm getting all my ducks in a row as far as my life accommodating this goes.
I've even got a tentative trip out and about planned for spring, assuming I find my pants and a good shirt, plus maybe a dress. I've started to wear makeup every day in some small way just to feel that there is some direct connection to femme for me.
I still identify in many ways as male, but in almost as many ways as female. More than anything else, I want to see my body as female, that is, I try to look feminine while remaining masculine enough not to raise eyebrows, especially among people who know my family. Moreover, I even look in the mirror and wonder what it'd be like to see breasts, curves, and a less pronounced area between the legs. I imagine it, and I imagine it'd be nice.
I know that I'm moving very quickly here, now that I'm open about this. I've gone from telling my girlfriend to my best friend to many friends to people I met four hours earlier! All in the space of six months!
But if I took away the "what people think" aspect of things, and the "no going back" worries, I really think I could go for it. That's not to say I'd do it tomorrow. Just... really consider it an option.
So, opinions?