Ok, Talk about turns for the worst. Well she has been upset the last several days and when she came home tonight, She demanded all the banking and financial information, and wanted to know the status of everything. she was mad she told me she needed to talk to someone at work since she was so upset and crying at work. Well she told this girl who does have a big mouth, she said she wouldn't say anything (sure not this girl) so in a few days everyone there will know. So it now seems ive been outed at work, and bieng in the position I am in probably career suidicide. Problem is we both work at the same place
She keeps telling me I have a mental disease and I have mental problems and why can't I stop? I tried explaining things to her but it is like talking to a wall, she wont listen to anything I have to say and sees no difference in drag queens, TV, TS, CD ect. She does not understand that I am not interested in being gay, ect. I tried to tell her gender and preference isn't the same but like I said seems like im talking to a wall. She has an appt today at the therapist and left without sating a word (completely unlike her) before she left I noticed some boxes in the garage missing and asked her, she said she was putting some stuff away in the studio. after she left I noticed some of her clothes were missing and the boxes are not there either. She told me the other day I look like a woman and she isn't a lesbian and cant have sex with a woman, (we haven't had sex in more than 1 1/2 years anyway). I told her I would goto councelling with her, don't know how qualified the therapist is, but that I would help in in whatever way she wanted. don't know what is going on, if she is planning to leave without warning or what, simply don't know since the communication seems like it is being avoided. Sorry about my rant just wanted to post some updates.
On a positive not with all this stress I haven't been able to eat for a few days and only weighed in today at 140lbs, stress is great for weight loss.